Until now i havent noticed anything related to work ethic with ascension and the hours i put into the studio
Things are feeling subtle and i cant notice any change in that area
Just a disclaimer, please.
I work and take action at the best of my awareness, it might not be 100% and be the best. but i do take action and steps towards my goals
Sometimes those points and saying that i have to take action kinda bothers me, when im doing action already and putting work.
However for the areas i noticed change in is :
1 - while working out, last reps feels easier than before, the mind shuts from nagging (however i experienced this much much obviously on my first couple of days in with ascension, now its more subtle or i cant notice it very much like before)
2- back Posture is Awesome, clean back Posture, very nice id say and very healthy
3- some Confidence related stuff too,
and some stuff also above some results that i noted
but im really excited for the work ethic thing, i need it asap ASCEND ME ASCENSION
okay i have to write this down
i feel like i wanna work more lets say?
its 7 pm, and usually at this time im not working with my DAW and playing around with music, however now im doing that and it feels smooth and like it always has been me, so im not gonna dismiss this,
probably from ascension? that i wanna play around with my DAW and work on my track?
maybe yes? maybe not?
i cant be 100% sure but i write down everything i suspect, maybe check in later and theorize about it later
Today feels like a bad day.
My journey is weird man, i just dont know
Sleep quality is much better now, i lowered the volume by one press
Idk if thats the reason or not
observation :
i feel like the time is going slower while im going faster
usually time would run so fast when im literally doing the same thing as im doing today
however
the time is being super slow, while im being fast.
like usually i take 25-30 mins to make my smoothie in the morning, but today i made it in maybe 12 mins, but i do the same process everyday idk if its cuz of the winter season the time is moving slower or not
thought i would lay it down here,
also i guess ill be going with the same volume as yesterday, sleep felt much better, and maybe that loud volume for me gives me lots of recon
but im always concerned about volume and that my submind might not get it and such, but i think it will be fine
ran 1 loop of StarkQv2 yesterday overnight with my playlist, theres a festival holding Thursday and i thought i would benefit a bit from the social side,
but nope
some recon, i guess the plan for adding starkQv2 is not gonna work 
i also ran stark ultima yesterday when i was awake as like a booster, but this plan aint going well 
especially this recon is disgusting, i hate it so much,
when certian things used to excite me and i love it so much, then boom its becomes dull.
ill run the ultima of Stark before the festival a couple of hours before,
Went to the gym. I could kinda feel ascension when it comes to the workout, not as obvious as before though
But posture is still great. Even when im driving my car my posture is on point
Morning observation,
Less fear, which is one of main things that slowly faded away the feeling of fear and rejection, sometimes it comes again its not completely gone
But before a tweet on twitter would cause my heart to pump like a train
And i usually have these random thoughts that provoke this fear feeling sometimes in my day, but one of those just passed through my awareness and no reaction was given from my body
Thats cool
Interesting thing, i noticed when im buying cigs from time to time is not due to a craving of nicotine
Its rather a habit, i quit smoking along time ago but past months i was buying cigs from time to time
And I actually wasnt smoking cause i want to, more like a habit that i got used to before
Thats deep man, how can a habit work without an intention, its just very unconscious rooted in the subconscious
While i was smoking, i was like “this doesnt feel nice?” Hahahah
Its very strange to observe how this thing im doing doesnt even satisfy me. But i just do it for some reason
Damn thats great. Id say thats ascension.
Rooting some good stuff,
now with the not good stuff id say
however with small cute results from here and there
i think ascension is facing some resistance from my subconious and i think it can do better of a job than its doing, the work ethic thingy isnt consistent, the posture sometime lacks,
and also the productivity isnt Great so far , not much with that
sometime it feels nice to work sometime meh, sometimes i wanna do more work than usual, sometimes meh
so id say its facing some issue from here and there
but as long as i can see some results like within the 14 days period i think its going generally good
so id give it more time
Posture is looking great today,
some confidence i can see at the gym some here and there
I’ve been reading your journal.
What is your plan for listening for the next 8 days?
hey rv,
same as always
1x LDU
1x Ascension
for maybe a month or so then maybe i could add RM, to my stack my beloved RM 
but Ascension needs work on me, i need more of that loving for work and the work ethic and the great feeling of working and working
i would say it hasnt been consistent with that part, but its a bit early
but so far so great,
but RM for sure is on my list soon to add to my stack
but next 8 days gonna the usual stack, i added 2 loops of stark this week and it was a mistake honestly
no need for the social boost, it can wait
Went on Thursday to the festival, found some friends had some fun,
Texted them afterwards
And they all said some nice kind words to me which was very kind and loving. Maybe thats ascension’s charsima boost?
okay so i thought of a new plan
i wanna increase 1 loop of Ascension so my playlist would be on the Listening day 2x Ascension
without Limit Destroyer Ultima
ill play LDU on my off day alone i wanna see how Ascension acts alone, cause ive been playing LDU for over 6 months, and maybe healing subs sometimes weaking the stack or whatever? its just a theory and i wanna see how it is with Ascension running it alone
i might do 1 week just ascension and then re evaluate if things dramatically changed or not if its effects it or not,
but im gonna change the plan i attack with 
ill play ascension on my “On” Day, 2 loops.
and LDU on the next day 1 loop
also i had lots of dreams today, plenty of em
and i just woke up and i feel just a bit tired, i want to see how do i react to 2 loop of ascension
Posture on point today
i have no idea if im experiencing recon or not, its a weird sense of reality, i feel some kind of pressure but idk honestly
ill cut the loop that i added maybe, lets stay on 1 loop of ascension for now,