Viktor’s Victory Venture (LE + DRR)

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#18

Cycle 4 Day 19

I did LBFH + DR:LD a few minutes ago. 15 minutes each.

LBFH was smooth sailing as usual while I feel like something is not settling in my head when & after I listened to DR:LD. it’s hard to describe but I feel I almost can’t focus at all.
I don’t feel exhausted like when I play mogul + lbfh + ac though, it’s a different feeling of denseness. thick but light, not overwhelming.
I feel aware yet out of it, it’s hard to describe.

I will edit this comment to update on the situation as the day goes on.

Update 1: started getting thoughts about “what are my limitations?” “how is this limiting me?”

Update 2: I wanted to talk with someone then my mind went “yeah? what’s limiting you from contacting them immediately now?” accompanied by a strong push to do it. so I instantly contacted them. had a nice conversation after.

I’m not usually spontaneous like that. I didn’t feel pushed though, it feels strange but natural to do.

Update 3: “what’s stopping me from reaching this?” “how can I achieve this?” “is this my limitation?” while these are not the exact wording, these kinds of questions keep popping out when I see something that I notice I can improve.

my god this is intense, this feels VERY similar to the first time I used LBFH but with different questions.

Update 4: productivity is gone, not because I don’t have the motivation but my brain just refuses. I have prepared for this though so it’s not a problem

Update 5:

  • some anxieties suddenly appeared. i feel my confidence is lowered slightly.
  • I feel no resistance when I say sorry to myself. this feeling is new.
  • I feel less resistance in general. feels like I become less attached to “bad” feelings & thoughts. it’s like “I accept that this happens, move on”. that’s the closest way that I can describe the feeling. it doesn’t push me to “move on” though, it just flows.

i usually put a little resistance, now it just flows. idk what to make out of this, I’ll update on this point again later

Update 6: productivity is back, but it’s a different version of what drives the productivity than what I felt with mogul. it feels more “proactive”

Update 7: does ld:dr have alpha scripting? or maybe it’s the confidence scripting that’s making me feel like this? I’m not sure yet, I’ll update more on this later.

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#20

Cycle 4 Day 20

I had a very strange dream.

I was controlling a healer character in a game setting.
I had to navigate rooms full of enemies to get into a room, there was a rat that guides and point things out

I proceeded cautiously pass the enemies as i don’t have any damage as a healer. I got spotted, enemies were overwhelming me.

But just in the nick of time, i got close to a room that the rat was guiding me to. Then, silence, the enemies were gone. I felt like i was thrown into another plane of reality, but still in the same place.

Now, this is why im writing this story here:

The room was eery and unsettling yet feels intimate, as if i’m exploring my own mind. The rat guided me around the room. Pecking things up along the way like a woodpecker. As if it was asking me to pay attention to them.

Then, i found a cell.

There was someone inside, they looked visibly distressed and scared. Putting their arms on their head and sitting in a fetal position.

i was confused but i knew full well that my job is to heal them. Immediately.

I hesitated, I failed. In this other plane of reality where there’s no enemy, A huge monstrous worm suddenly came from the top of the guy in the cell and ate him.

I reloaded the save to the game. I got back to my home base just before i set out to do the mission.

There’s something interesting in the home base, it’s not mine, i was with a crew of humans trying to appease a goblin, who apparently has a really high level and power.

I didn’t take part in that. in the base i was not a weak healer, i was a half dragon half human combatant. “I don’t need to do that, i’m a dragon” i said in my mind.

I departed from the homebase and got transformed as the weak healer again. The rat was also back. I want to find that guy again and heal him in time

The atmosphere was not as gloomy as when i first entered the level, everything was bright, not many enemies anymore. I tried to find “the room” again but i couldn’t get into that other plane of reality.

I spent the rest of the dream walking while the rat occasionally pecked things up along the way.

Well that was weird

#23

Cycle 4 Day 21

lbfh + dr:ld today

No neediness whatsoever, it used to be a problem back in cycles 1 & 2. In cycle 3 I did 17 days instead of 21 so I didn’t get any neediness recon back then.

I believe it’s because of DR:LD. every time something that’ll make me needy comes up, my mind immediately makes me aware of it and effortlessly dissolves it. it feels really natural as if this is how my mind usually works even though I’ve only been using DR:LD for 2 listening days

I feel it’s easier for me to be detached from unproductive negative feelings & thoughts

honestly, I don’t like how it affects what I’ve gained from lbfh, but I’ve only been listening to DR:LD for a short amount of time and I’m also open to the new experiences it provides. I’m sure it will uncover and resolve more hidden problems that I’m not aware of yet.

the listening process itself, it feels dense, but I don’t feel overloaded like when I use lbfh + mogul + ac.

productivity-wise, I feel a different kind of feeling & thought process that drives the foundation of the productivity itself in contrast to mogul’s effect. what mogul gives me feels like it’s working in the background, more subtle. productivity from (or with the addition of) DR:LD feels more in the face. as if I want to proactively break my limitations about productivity.

I will edit this comment more as the day goes on.

Update 1: I started to listen to harsher songs, feels like my body craves it. it’s an interesting recon.

Update 2: I found out how to put this feeling that I’ve been having into words:

i feel like I’m naked, exposed to my own insecurities and having to face it head on. I’m being made aware of the coping mechanisms that I’ve been subconsciously using all this time and being encouraged to not use those.

I’m not alone though, as I face those scary feelings, I feel like I’m being aided when i face them. they dissolve as quickly as they appear.

Everything feels natural, it almost feels like there are 2 versions of me. the new version of me that has to face the insecurities of someone else (me in the past), and the remnant of the past me.

overall confidence still hasn’t fully come back though, but I feel like the foundation of my confidence is being wrecked and rebuilt with new ones using different feelings & thought processes that lead to confidence. I feel like my body & mind just need time to fully integrate this.

i have my suspicions, is this a fraction of what the original multistage DR feel like?

Update 3: I’m really glad that there are “calculated risk” scripting in DR:LD, I feel more confident in taking action but I also don’t do stupid things just because “there’s no limit”

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#25

quick update:

i did some more self-reflection and I noticed that the success manifestation scripting from all of the subs is going on steroids right now. it feels like the universe is personally guiding me through multiple different people in my life.

me: I want to expand my business
universe: Here, let me make people give you multiple options to choose from

me: I don’t feel I’m good enough for the opportunity
universe: Here, have some people to talk to so you can be more confident and also take these resources to help you become better

me: I have a problem understanding something
universe: Here, let me introduce you to this expert that’s willing to explain every single thing you are having a problem with and guide you towards your goal for free

me: I want to talk with more people
universe: Shut up you already have a lot, that’s not what you want. let me give you events that will lead you to have deeper connections with people around you.

me: literally nothing, just doing my life as usual
universe: Here have these good people, positive experiences, and general improvements in your life because why not

and more

I can tell that it’s from the sub because manifestation from SC’s sub is very distinct, very in the face. even the “subtle” ones are really distinct when seen from the big picture.

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#29

15 minutes is definitely too much, I feel way better today while still getting the benefits of DRLD.

maybe I should follow voytek’s advice and play it once a week

1: lbfh drld
2: rest
3: lbfh ac
4: rest
5: lbfh 2x
6: rest
repeat

or once every 4 days

1: lbfh drld
2: rest
3: lbfh (ac once every 8 days)
4: rest
repeat

or do it 3-5 minutes only every other day

every single option feels reasonable, I’ll use my intuition later to judge which one to pick.

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#30

putting this here as a reminder when I get a recon next time

#31

Remember that this rule applies to topical recon only. Native recon needs to be dealt with by waiting it out or other measures. I see that a lot of people ysing the micro loop strategy gets recon pretty often whilst I get some really slight and only from time to time. I run full loops only. That’s interesting.

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#33

What’s topical/native recon?

#35

Excuse me gentlemen, im going to write the reports for today, feel free to continue your conversation here though

Rest day 4

The dreams are really wild lately, I didn’t write this yesterday but the dream was emotionally really intense that i woke up with tears already flowing from my eyes.

Today I’m really happy because the dream is about one of my insecurities that has been there all my life. It showed my worry of the worst case scenario of that insecurity. If it’s in my dream, that means the sub is working to fix it already. I’m glad.

Update 1:
the “what’s the limit that’s stopping me from doing this” kind of confidence is waning. i don’t feel it as strong. on the other hand, I don’t feel the recon anymore so far. i feel comfortable now.

i don’t mind the recon though, i think I’m going to go with 3-5 minutes of DRLD every other day in the next cycle even if it gives me recon. if I feel overloaded I will shift it to once every 4 days.

Update 2:
I don’t feel the push to be productive as intensely as the days before today, but when I work it just flows effortlessly, like there’s almost no limit. I feel like this is what the milder version of DR:LD would feel like.

Update 3:
there is definitely something that pushes my productivity forward in DR:LD, whether it is directly from the script or indirectly. i don’t feel the constant drive to be productive as intensely today. it still feels easier to do my work, though. i guess that one hasn’t waned away in the rest days.

Update 4:
lbfh’s effect is mostly back again. Maybe dr:ld was taking priority in my subconscious.

Update 5:
I had to force myself to stop working and rest. Take a walk and put work to the side. The productivity from DR:LD or mogul blooming or both is just too good.

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#36

Topical recon is related to the objectives of the sub you’re running. The best way to overcome is to reinforce the scripting by running another loop. Another way is the rule I discussed before (fake it till you make it). Feeling into the role the sub is instilling in you and acting accordingly.

Native recon is just the fight-flight response to pushing you out of your comfort zone and it takes the form of psychological aggression (irascibility) or regression (anxiety). This recon needs to be waited out or fought off by other means; relaxing, exercising etc.

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#38

The list of what to do after I will have listened to my stack tomorrow. the recon buster stack

  1. Workout
  2. Drink salt water, 1.5L
  3. Recon journal
  4. Meditation. focus on the recon and the meaning behind it.
  5. EFT. just tapping, no talking/programming.
  6. Gratitude journal
  7. Visualization
  8. Watch comedy
  9. Get sun exposure while gardening
  10. Walk with music
    –
  11. Micro loop if I get a topical recon

I’m writing this list here to keep myself accountable

Update 1: (a day later after i wrote this)
I don’t get an immediate recon… well this is for the day after tomorrow then. still hoping I get one today so I can experiment with this.

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#40

“Hey I finally found a stack that works for me!!! I should go over it”

:rofl:

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#41

loooooll
i want to stay here but i also want to find my threshold with AC :joy:

9m 9m 7m didn’t work for me, 5m 5m 7m works well, 7m 7m 7m will definitely show the revelation for me

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#43

Cycle 5 day 3

DR:LD 15m + LBFH 15m

LBFH is such a good feeling subliminal. i felt euphoric, almost like I was being gently and lovingly hugged by the universe, or myself, or something, I don’t know, nor do I care. it just feels good.

Still no recon so far

I’ll have to call this experiment off for now since I don’t get any significant recon to experiment on in the first place.

Update 1:
LBFH’s manifestations are out of this world. Accompanied by DRLD’s effects on my confidence and personality, i couldn’t even imagine everything that’s happening right now a few months ago before i started using SC.

I feel less limitations towards my productivity since i started DRLD. I am repeating this point again and again but i am still surprised about how good the effect is.

Update 2:
I did some introspection, the me from before I used lbfh a few months ago feels like a distant past, It feels strange to even try to get back. it’s not me anymore.

i can remember how it feels before DRLD too, it feels familiar but not at the same time. it feels weird to act, behave, think, and feel like that again. i think I can still integrate DRLD more into my being

Update 3:
Still no recon

I think DRLD has integrated well within me, that’s why I got no recon

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#44

No recon with DR:LD with 15 min loops?? That is kind of crazy lol.

This could be true.

#45

the changes that drld brings are still in effect too.

I did some self-introspection too earlier to check whether I truly am not feeling any recon, there is just none. i could only feel the positive effects of the subliminal, especially with how lbfh’s effects have fully come back after it was suppressed by DRLD last week.

i will have to test this more though, I’ll use 15 minutes from now on until I get a DRLD recon again just to make sure

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#46

Cycle 5 day 4

Finally! The recon hit. It was a topical one.

But it was in the middle of my sleep, and i didn’t want to wake up, workout, and drink 1.5L of salt water just to deal with the recon.

I was too sleepy.

So i settled on trying voytek’s suggestion to listen to the sub again. I did a 30 seconds micro-loop of ultrasonic DR:LD through my phone’s speaker.

It solved the recon immediately.

I felt the usual effects of DRLD rushing in me, it battled out the recon and resolved everything. The effects felt very distinct so i knew that was DRLD’s doing.

It works.

I will experiment on this further if i get a recon again. preferably when it’s not in the middle of the night.

Update 1:
I feel like I’m being intensely filled with love energy, an overflowing one that makes me want to share it with everyone

Update 2:
I did an introspection and realized that i care about other people on a deeper level than a few cycles ago.

I went from not caring that much about other people, to both caring and not caring, to now on a level of caring that feels effortless while still having control over it and myself.

It’s kinda hard to put into words. I’ll leave it at that for now.

I think LBFH has gotten deeper into me, and DRLD is helping me to break the barriers that’s holding me from achieving LBFH’s goals.

I thought people who do or feel like this are stupid. But now i can see life from their lenses.

I thought I was going to lose control over myself and my own “life” if i care too much about other people. But what I’ve been experiencing so far has debunked that. If anything, i feel more in control over myself and my own life.

I can be selfish and selfless at the same time, they don’t have to contradict nor weaken each others. In fact they can enrich each other in their own ways.

Update 3:

No recon the whole day, the effects are still strong. The breakthrough microloop last night works.

Update 4:

Still no recon

LBFH is going on a rampage, though i chose to focus more on work today so i didn’t express it fully to others.

It feels effortless. Like it’s a part of me all along. I don’t need to try to feel it (though i can if i want to), it’s just me. It feels deeply integrated with my own being.

DRLD’s gratitude scripting is also showing itself more today. It feels different than lbfh’s so i know it’s because of drld

I have a big hunch that DRLD is really the one that’s helping me become more integrated with LBFH.

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#48

that does explain a lot about my sleep lately, almost no recon when I’m awake but I have interrupted sleep. I’m not too bothered by it though, It doesn’t affect my productivity and I can still feel the sub’s effects. i will consider cutting back on it if I feel that the interruption is affecting me negatively

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#49

I had trouble sleeping last night. It was like a part of me was anxious and wanting to avoid sleep. All the dreams I had when I finally slept was a good indicator that the sub and my subC was working on something I feared. Felt great when waking up but over exposure looks like it can definitely be an issue. These new subs seem to be a lot stronger.

#50

yeah, you are using DRLD too right? the dreams can be extreme with this sub, I also had my fair share of it. i hope it gets better for you soon.

true, cutting back seems to be the play as saint said.

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