I ran LBFH and DRLD last Sunday, and I had a surprising experience.
I’d listened in the morning, and it was the evening now. I was lying in bed, thinking about work the next day.
And then my housemate turned the living room TV up louder. I’d not been annoyed or angry all day, but this quickly enraged me. I felt really vicious, but for all of 3 seconds total.
The rage vanished, and I felt calm instantly. I felt like I owned a part of me which I’ve pushed away my whole life. I believe it was part of my shadow self.
It made me want more. I’ve been boxing that stuff up my entire life, but when it happened, I felt complete. Whole. I was completely ok with myself, and I needed nothing or noone else.
I’ve never had an experience like this, and I instantly knew those missing pieces are why I’m anxious a lot. I’d thought those pieces were unwanted and unneeded, but I was wrong. Those pieces ARE me.
Anybody else have similar experiences?