LBfh 5 min - relaxation, relief of expectations of self and others, seeing others’ intentions in better light, barber took his time and did a good job, possible positivity reflected from others in public. I could see this being used specifically to help relax in current circumstances before goals achieved and especially around social occasions to ease tension
Been observing myself around the women I’m attracted to. Possibly I don’t have an approach anxiety or sexual shame issue, but more of an issue with the comparison of each of our attractivenesses, a thought of “she won’t want what I want”. Maybe that’s what Wanted is for.
almost ran my 15 min 2 days early due to negative thoughts but I managed to not. Need to be accepting of self instead, maybe the LBfH is contributing
damn quality subs + (alpha+theta) binaurals + practices can be insightful. realized I don’t go for the women I want because of carrying heartbreak from the past. as I result I have like no enthusiasm when I do it. I haven’t wanted to acknowledge that such heartbreak can exist, to accept the vicissitudes of love. Fuck me, I’m about to press play on Primal again. Forget what I said about Wanted; approaching will be no issue if I am having fun doing it and not worried about every detail of the interaction, which Primal will do.
First thing I notice about 15min is that I’m not overloaded or overly tired. Actually, I went to sleep easier (couple hours after loop) and woke up energized.
I can see Ascension Chamber help to be aware of unconscious choices where I can then shift focus to what matters.
Remembered the value of not saying, “I must…,” or it leads to solar plexus pain.
Feeling tired, anxious, defensively aggressive, a bit funky but not all that bad. thought of switching to Khan. Nonetheless, hanging through the plan.
Found I don’t use anger properly and have issues in the Power chakra
~50 hours after the Primal @15min loop, I had a really good social event where my vibe and charisma were quite strong. I think I saw some objectives subtly coming through that I wasn’t able to picture before now which include automatic social testing passing and social calibration. I was unusually chatty and made good jokes.
The girl I liked (referred to as “the hot girl” in one of my posts after or near the end of my Daredevil cycle) wasn’t at the after-event, which probably took the pressure off during the socializing which I’m glad of because I needed the easier experience and practice. But when she does show up, I’ll know what to do. I’ll just need to not focus on wanting to seduce but instead enjoyably work the social situation smoothly with dominance as well and having leadership. She went along with a lot of what I initiated in an exercise in class which was a pretty outrageous amount so that seems good.
I also got an idea regarding a casual sex blockage: often times when I see a sexual opportunity on the radar, I start thinking and picturing some kind of long term plan, which leads me to not see how I’m going to manage multiple partners. But I think my solution is that I need to create much more arousal before LTR type action.
Once I can cry, my solar plexus should heal up. Ooh, a case for trying Regen again? (makes me teary) One problem is it could make the process happen too fast to where I fall a long way backwards in progress.
I think if I keep doing what I’m doing I’ll surely reach my goal. One challenge is trusting in the power of spontaneity and being in the moment. On one hand I just need to trust it more and on the other hand I am paying off karma that is blocking it.
Right now I’m still reconning and loaded. This my 3rd rest day after 1x15min 1 title, but I’m planning to give it 2 more days. This is a state of mind I don’t want to always be in. However, since it seems the 15 min has a powerful effect about 50 hours after listening, I will want to use it but schedule it around my activities. Maybe since I’m noticing these long rest periods needed, I’ll start planning things more around the activities I’m doing rather than trying to get the most loops in each cycle.
My introvertedness and being after a social event are probably responsible for some of this current tiredness and negative thinking.
After the rest days are up, I’m planning LBfH 1x15min 50h before a party and no other titles for a few days. It’s known to attract nice girls and I want to make a particular nice girl love me 
(“the hot girl”). I’m thinking an interesting listening strategy might be to alternate LBfH with a sexual sub each time I have a social outing. That could create interesting variety. And this 15 min test should really show what LBfH can do… I also saw it’s good for flirtation.
Do you have other things that might help with reconciliation such as Sanguine, Elixir, or LB?
I have those. I haven’t tested enough to know if they will help my recon. I am also concerned that, because overload is a lot higher now, it might be difficult to run those in addition to my main title.
Eh, maybe I’ll go with Primal before party since I like the charisma, initiating conversation fun, and inner game work.
I have realized I may have too much unresolved sexual tension. Might have to run Alchemist St2 soon. But maybe Primal’s carefreeness will cover it.
Ran loop at a lower volume today. This may have a lighter load. I’ll be observing.
Next cycle I’m gonna go super auric. IDK why after 7+ months I haven’t run auras more. Probably because I was doubtful of them, but when I tested a small amount I did see changes in people’s behavior and I’ve suspected some auric effects from some personal practices. Will be interesting to see what a full cycle of aura buildup will do.
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| Love Bomb | 15min(u,vol:5) | 15min(u,vol:4) | w | w | w | w | w | |||||||||||||||||||
| Heartsong | 15min(u,vol:3) | 15min(u,vol:3,7am) | 15min(u,vol:3,7am) | 15min(u,vol:3) | w | w | w | w | w | |||||||||||||||||
| Wanted | 15min(u,vol:4) | 15min(u,vol:3) | 15min(u,vol:3) | 15min(u,vol:3) | 15min(u,vol:3) | w | w | w | w | w | ||||||||||||||||
| Ascension Chamber | 7min | w | w | w | w | w | ||||||||||||||||||||
| done | x | x | x | x | x | x | x | x | ||||||||||||||||||
| 8/10 |
I am curious if titles such as Love Bomb can help me appreciate certain people more.