Log Entry #6
LAST REVIEW OF MY WASHOUT
This washout was truly incredible for my inner growth. I have found my purpose, crushed my comfort zone and limiting beliefs, saw incredible manifestations, and integrated part of the scripting incredibly deep into my core.
My results before the washout were already amazing but the growth I have seen in the past 45 days is unbelievable. Further, I have had distinct ideas popping up in my mind that helped me along my journey and brought me closer to my goal of understanding our reality and figuring out the most fundamental principles of nature, the mind, and the human body.
This is just one of them, which is related to the subliminal journey.
I have observed that during the washout, I went through each of these stages beginning with the buffer in Week 1, Integration in Week 2, Manifestation in Week 3, Void in Week 4 until the cycle repeated itself beginning with Integration. One week in this context is around 7-10 days. I still do not want to go too in-depth now because the theory is still incomplete and not objectively validated but when it is ready it should act as a framework to help better understand the cause of each specific reconciliation, identify the best actions to take for each period, how to get unstuck from a phase of reconciliation and give a clearer picture on your listening schedule.
One thing I find very curious though is that I first went through these stages with my LightbringerQ custom, integrating mainly the cores Emperor, Primal, and Wanted and the supporting modules. In that time, I have pretty much seen zero results from my Sex Mastery custom, which I run with the same number of loops. Only after that first cycle was complete in Week 5, I began to reconcile and integrate my Sex Mastery custom and have seen some incredible results since then:
As suggested by this hypothesis, you always need a certain experience to either go through Integration (Aligning) or Reconciliation of certain parts of the scripting which are linked to the experience event. The integration phase of the Sex Mastery scripting I experienced was triggered by having huge quantities of those aphrodisiac oysters for breakfast (which could have been a manifestation and not a coincidence), which resulted in me having great erections and noticing better stamina with a slight delay in ejaculation due to the nutritional content.
This small result, lead me to go through a very pleasant integration phase, which you can imagine as thoughts and questions popping up in your head that you automatically begin to contemplate about, similar to how I describe it here:
Thoughts popped up in my head like “Why are you getting so overly-aroused from a girl? Is it still an unconscious artifact that is left from the times where you were a child and could not get the girls you liked and got rejected a lot? Why are you not loving yourself as much as the excitement you feel from a girl?”
I noticed how I became more and more in tune with my body and sexuality, being totally okay with the idea of penetrating another individual, letting myself fully go no matter how I perform, even if this means experiencing shame and unpleasant situations.
After this integration phase was complete, I got swept into a manifestation current which leads me to research and find certain herbs and nutritional ways to end rapid ejaculation and the overarousal state I am in.
Those include (besides many more things):
- Gingko Biloba
- Magnesium Citrate
- 5-HTP
Also, I began to be more okay with the idea of sex toys and using them for this issue. I have researched before but those manifestation currents are distinctly different as they feel like the universe is communicating with you and pulling the external reality accordingly, building on top of the internal reality change you experienced during the integration phase.
Again, I already experienced that with my LightbringerQ custom:
It feels like you are driving a car that you cannot stop, pushed by the newly found internal reality change you gained during the integration phase, and now in the manifestation phase, the universe is putting all lights on green, setting you on a highway where you only need to drive forward and not think about going left or right, and is pulling every other car out of your way.
So for example, when I was visiting my grandpa yesterday I suddenly saw a bottle of Gingko Biloba at his table! The supplement I researched and wanted to try! On top of it, I remembered that I once have given him a supplement for sleep which he still had and which I found out consists i.a. of Magnesium Citrate, and L-Tryptophan (which works similarly to 5-HTP)! So I took a combination of those yesterday evening in the bathtub and for the first time, I felt like I had total control of my ejaculation. After so much pain I endured with this issue, it really felt magnificent.
Of course, more experiments in that regard still need to be done, but this is the most progress I have ever seen in regards to that issue!
I feel like I can use this combination of supplements to further align myself with the Sex Mastery scripting by going through various experiences until I no longer need it or replace the supplements with more healthful raw foods.
I am now going to end my washout on day 45, and will follow up with my new custom which I will buy and introduce soon.