Le Journal de Palpatine™ (2023)

Journals - Custom Subliminals
#647

I don’t know what it is, but nearly every time I run a money sub in earnest, some “bad” money shit happens.

Thought my paycheck would hit last night. As it’s been the past 2 every other Wednesdays (the 4th and 18th ofOctober).

Nothing by today, so I texted my supervisor to clarify when the next one is.
“Oh, the 7th and 22nd of each month”. No answer when I asked why last month’s wereon the 4th and 18th instead.

But this means that the wife and I have to be out tonight (deliverng in pitch fucking dark when I’ve got goddamned night blindness and I’m the only one can drive)…tomorrow morning and evening.

And the wife is at orientation today and tomorrow from11am-5pm, out usual prime delivery time.

I put out a few feelers for quickie hypnosis clients. Said I can do a zoom zap for them for $350 tomorrow from 11am-5pm my time (while I’ve got our hotel room to myself for privacy).

the $350 is what I’m short to have the room paid for by Nov4 (Saturday)for the week. Which I thought would be covered by my fucking paycheck.

We’re worse off right now for having “real” jobs than we were before getting them.

What is the correlation? I ran 30 seconds of Nouveau R.I.C.H. and full 15 mins of BV1ZPV2.

What is with these so-called “negative” money manifestations?

Am I missing some big-picture obvious lesson here?

Whiny rant over

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#648

Maybe it’s just recon/shifts showing up in the “real world” instead of my usual headaches I’m used to getting for recon.

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#649

Decided the sexduction custom will be called Sexduction, IrresistiBILL, or FuckaBILL.

IrresistiBILL and FuckaBILL were names I toyed with before in a post half joking and I think it was @RVconsultant who liked one of those.

Anyway. Still considering the name.

#650

I’d like to say that the crisis is averted and it’s due to me figuring out how to make $350 in just a few hours. That isn’t true though. Crisis IS averted. Wife asked daughter to borrow the $ until my paycheck hits next week.

Which, naturally, makes me feel like less of a man. Overall, this situation is (I think) one of those the NWE promises to bring up to get me moving along.

The “lesson” is:

  1. Don’t count on any one source of income to be there when you think it will
  2. Have many sources/streams.
  3. Living paycheck-to-paycheck sucks ass
  4. It helps to have a cushion of money for situations like this.
    A. If I’d had enough of a money cushion set aside, this day would’ve been a mere blip on the radar. A small hiccup, instead of me allowing my mood to be tossed about like a ship in a storm.

I mentioned to a friend online that I was at the grocery store parking lot, waiting on an Instacart order to come in, when today was meant to be a day off for me. They said “money is money”…to which I replied “Not all money is equal.”

So point 5 is:
5. Not all money is equal. Some money is indeed better than others, and it all depends on what you have to do to get it.

I finished Ed Mylett’s book “The Power of One More” just last night. There’s a chapter about equinamity. I failed the equanimity challenge today. Mainly because I didn’t have a cushion set aside (hard to do when on this treadmill we’re on).

Equanimity is similar in practice to the practice of Stoicism (the philosophy, not the BS notion about appearning emotionless).

So much still to unpack I’m sure. This stack may kick my ass, but I’ll see what comes out of it on the other side.

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#651

I sense that the Ascension part of Ascended Mogul in BV1ZPV2 is at work already. As far as the “I don’t feel like a man” part. It’s working on that level. I’d pair GLM in if my stack had any slots left.

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#652

This just happened to me.

BIG time.

I’m calling it ‘recoil’.

Or like when your (5-speed) car is parked on a steep incline, and you start driving. You’ll roll back first.

Or like when you’re in a musty, farty room and you open a window to let fresh air in. You’ll smell the bad smell first then the fresh air.

That’s how I’m thinking of it, Palpatine.

But time will tell.

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#653

IrresistiBILL ordered.

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#654

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#655

Beinga hypnotist with the training and experience I’ve got, I subscribe to the idea that 3 repetitions of a stimulus causes the mind to start to build patterns from the stimulus.

With that in mind, my plan for BV1ZPV2 and IrresistiBILL is to listen to each for however many loops it takes to get exposure to each module/core 3 times.

Each custom is 20 modules. So that’s 60 loops.
So I’ll run each custom a minimum of 60 times, however long that takes. After which each module should have had enough exposure to take hold.

As for Heartsong, I have a love/hate relationship with it, so I’m only committing to one cycle with it for sure. After that I’ll evaluate.

There are titles I want to run with my customs eventually, such as RotNW, PCC and GLM.

So most likely I’ll swap Heartsong out after a cycle, give it a chance to bloom when I run the other stuff with the customs also.

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#656

In 2010, we found out the wife was pregnant with what would’ve been our third child (maxed out at 2).
I got all into it. Built up this whole mental thing of holding the baby while s/he slept. I was eager to be a dad yet again.

There’s a song Jewel (the singer) had on her album “Lullabyes” which I was gonna play for the kid.

We lost it a few weeks later (it was very early in). We were both sad, of course.
It’s less now.

I’m at work and that song came up from my playlist on shuffle. And it hit me just right. So I’ve been here at work just working and thinking about that time.

The kid would have been 12 going on 13 now. And what I’m thinking about today is, though I was sad about losing the baby, I’m also partly glad that the kid didn’t have me as a dad. I’ve wasted a big part of my life. Which is why I’m starting over with my subs, and goals, and so on.

Just in my head today, and wondering what kind of dad I would’ve been.

Even though my kids are grown, sometimes I wonder if I should explore LME to be a better dad to my adult kids.

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#657

How old are you?

#658

48.00

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#659

Seven years older than you

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#660

:muscle:t5: :blue_heart: :pray:t5:

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#661

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#663

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Got another Munger book I’m waiting to get in

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#664

Day 1: IrresistiBILL+Heartsong. 15 mins each

Not a lot to report yet. Just ran these 60-90 mins or so ago.

I am noticing women slightly more. Hard to say it’s IrresistiBILL and not just me looking for them more given how psyched I am. I’ve been planning this custom sub for a long while now.

The alternate listening day will be BV1ZPV2 full loop and a shorter loop of Nouveau R.I.C.H. for the NWE “upgrade”

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#665

I can detect a tiny bit of recon
recon like “Will anyone actually want me?” along that line of thinking.

Since IrresistiBILL has Limit Destroyer and Rebirth, I figure they’re getting to work on the stuff the other modules are hitting on, as well as whatever Heartsong adds to the mix by stacking with the custom.

I was close to just putting HS into the custom, but figured I’d eventually want to stack the custom with other stuff and not want HS in the mix.

Not bad for the first loop.

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#667

It would help if Doordash had any actual time slots available.

Finally got on for 3:30-4;30. And not a single fuckin delivery

Not even one. Until 4:14. And it was $7 for 12-mile round trip. So of course I declined it. I’d rather not lose money on the petrol cost.

I think NWE is trying to drive home the point for me that I gotta give up on this gig work shit and start making an actual difference SOMEHOW.

Message received.

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