Le Journal de Palpatine™ (2023)

[Trader]

Noticing over the last few days that BDLM core is really coming through

It’s bigger and more full when flaccid. Gets hard much faster than before.

I’m a grower, so this tells me either blood flow/arousal baseline is greater (“that’s my secret, Captain. I’m always angry”) or it’s legit growing.

Same end result either way. Though I am consciously guiding toward larger when flaccid.

I’m becoming more aware of my penis as a seat of power. It’s becoming an even larger (lol) part of me then before.

I legit feel more powerful the more I run the S&SX/BDLM custom.

[Trader]

I’m keeping to my stack.

The only change is adding 60- or 90-second loops of Genesis: Mogul.

To get a bit of exposure to the purpose scripting of Genesis and the manifestation scripting of Mogul.

[TheEmpress]

@Trader

purpose scripting of Genesis and the manifestation scripting of Mogul.

This sounds good.

I’m contemplating between this or keeping LME next stack

[Trader]

Just deleted most of the mindless brain-quieting phone games I used before to keep from having to deal with my thoughts.

This should be fun.

[Trader]

I left a game on the phone. Brain-teaser. Have to move screws holding up metal pieces, and do it in a way that lets you clear all the metal pieces off the board. but sometimes you do it in a wrong way and shit gets stuck. Figured that’d be a good one to keep my brain sharp.

I feel Emperor making me evaluate shit in terms of ROI and taking “right” actions.

That game is gone now.

[Trader]

I just submitted a ticket to ask a funny question.

[Trader]

I’m reading “The Dice Man”.
Interesting book so far

[Trader]

Dropped Heartsong. Not because of recon.
Because I realized I was running HS because it felt like the “right” thing to do.

Running HS to justify being “able” to run IrresistiBILL. To assuage any possible “guilt” in becoming a sexual powerhouse.

Not that I necessarily feel “guilty”. Just can’t think of a better word.

So HS is out (for now) and Wanted Black is in.

[Trader]

“The Dice Man” is interesting. It gets one thinking about social structures we take for granted.

Maybe it’s the timing of reading a book of this nature while changing my stack to running Emperor, IrresistiBILL and Wanted Black.

Definitely finding my thought patterns shifting.

[James]

When I read the title I thought it was about Andrew " Dice" Clay

[Trader]

This guy puts him to shame

[Matt]

The book is one of my favorites. Embrace the dice life

[Trader]

My voice is deeper on the phone at work today. And I’m able to modulate it effortlessly

[Trader]

I’ve been letting the Dice dictate each day whether it’s a sub day or rest day. And also dictate what I listen to from my overall stack and for how long.

Recon doesn’t seem to be a thing anymore.

Interesting…

[Trader]

Posthing this here in case the me 3 years from now is still not where he wants to be in life, and this will be a reminder/kick in the ass for him.

https://stevepavlina.com/blog/2009/05/abuse-of-power/

[PizzaShaman]

@Trader

https://stevepavlina.com/blog/2009/05/abuse-of-power/

That’s some good stuff sir! Me right now needed to see it and I thank you for sharing it!

[Trader]

I guess my pattern isn’t oneitis. More like polyitis. lol

When I’m talking to any given woman I’m interested in, it’s like she’s the only woman in the world during those moments.

I guess I’m seductive. Or am I just a dawg?

[Trader]

One thing that sucks money-wise is when I mention to someone that I’m gonna get X shoes once I’ve stashed enough side money to do so.

But they go and buy shoes as a “gift” for me. Shoes I’d never have bought for myself.

Then say “now you have shoes and can use your money on more important things.”

Because why waste money on the shoes I want when I’ve already got shoes now?

[Trader]

This came up in convo with a friend today. I’m treating it as Sultan module being beefed up with NWE. I got to talking about how I’m tired of being blown around by the winds of circumstance:

[Trader]

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