Day 5: E:E, GLM, LBFH
So far, today’s run of my stack has me feeling a sort of “Dark Emperor” vibe.
Not like the focus of Emperor Black.
More like thinking of ways I could apply knowledge of the laws of power to “take over”.
Probably what I get for watching all 8 episodes of “Rabbit/Hole” right before bed.
I decided today that I’d like to work up to being able to run a stack or custom(s) centered around HOM, EoG4, Heartsong.
Lot of thoughts today about legacy, power, influence.
PCC will need to be fully mastered by that point or have it be part of the long-term stack.
Originally I also wanted Emperor but decided I’ll stack that archetype in if/as needed.
Stark is another archetype I wanna play with too.
Fame for the sake of fame isn’t desirable to me.
I’d rather be famous amongst circles I can influence, though.
Mark Joyner is famous af in marketing circles. But most average people who are all up in the Kardashian/Jenner business have no idea who he is.
I’m chewing on similar thoughts about fame and becoming someone of influence. Do I want to be someone that matters to millions of random faceless viewers on the internet or do I want to matter to a lesser audience but they hold far more value in their respective circle? Fame has its vices, and I for sure have some real messed up view of being an influential person because of the thousands of hours I spent on Youtube vicariously living life through other people’s videos.
Day 6: rest
#zdrt
Feeling a bit sad. FOMO is getting to me.
LBFH is just an asshole I think. lol
I don’t love myself enough I guess.
Dunno.
Self love is super important. I ran LBFH couple days ago. I was chanting “I’m gonna love myself” today and cleaned up my room, took a hot shower, brushed my teeth, told myself that I can handle anything etc. I feel great right now. Great and grateful.
Hey man, FOMO might have been manufactured into your mind from external influences. I realized that all the crap I see on youtube and instagram is a manufactured reality and it was making me feel like shit all the time.
Finding out what brings me comfort and joy in life was mostly discarding false “idols” of what I thought made my happy and comforting.
I ran R.I.C.H. Ultima V1 today while waiting at the laundromat.
So that will partially explain some of today’s recon I bet.
It was recon of the “This shit is too much! Stop this stack!” type.
I bought Genesis finally today, with every intention of abandoning my stack, and doing Genesis, UP and (either RoS or RoM) instead.
I let the idea sit for a few hours. I won’t abandon the stack. Mainly because I wanna see it through.
I just left a comment earlier on @COWolfe’s journal about how an Emperor doesn’t allow himself to be beholden to rigid plans.
I still stand by that, even though I was technically in a bit of recon at the time I left that post. But I know that if I abandon this cycle on just day 6, I’ll be pissed at myself.
This is me developing my “will” (one reason I started with Ascension and GLM last cycle, and still doing GLM this cycle).
I wrote about “will” before on my private journal for ZPS/ZPPF testing. Including part of here to clarify what I mean by “will”…I took the definition from Kenrick Cleveland:
I decided I’m leaving home early (for me) today.
I recently read Kenrick Cleveland’s book “The Magician’s Law” where in one section he talks about exercising the “Will.”
Basically, with how he defines the “Will”, it just means to do what you say you’re going to do.
When people want to do something and imagine doing it, but don’t do it, they are weakening their Will.
When people want to do something and then do it, they are strengthening their Will.
Today, at around 9:45am, I told myself “I’ll leaving home for the day by 10:15.”
Nothing special about that time, it was just arbitrary, being half hour away.
I was out by 10:21. Will (lol) do better tomorrow.
All this talk of “Will” is where Recon symptoms come from I think. I want to tell Zelda how amazing she is, but I hold myself back. Weakening my Will.
I’m fairly sure the recon today came from running an Ultima.
Back to my regular stack tomorrow!
LBFH is strong as hell though.
Behave 🫶🏼
Nah… I’m good 
Day 7: E:E V1, LBFH, GLM.
Much better today.
In fact, an opportunity of sorts manifested. I can’t really talk about it here.
Pausing my stack/cycle to partake in that opportunity. Going dark on my journal for a bit.
Will still keep an eye out for new drops.
Opportunity you say? Now I want to know! lol
P…P…palpatine.
Doordash today.
Which have you noticed is better? I’ve been considering doing it for a few hours a day just to get a little extra cash. What do you think?
In my area, Doordash for sure
Going dark eh
That’s it? Lol
I forgot to come back and put the rest. Basically it turned out that the bad happenings of the dream were all a deadly game run by two characters.
One was an evil-looking version of Yoda in a suit. Forget who the other one is.
I wanna know more.
That’s all I remember now.