Le Journal de Palpatine™ (2023)

Journals - Custom Subliminals
#182

Day 1: E:E V1, GLM, LBFH

Stacks done. Woo.
During GLM, I used that part of the stack to my own Matrix-like construct which resides just off my Sanctuary.

Had some fun with Dua Lipa. And a few others. Dua was the star though.

I’m scheduled to do some Doordash for 8 hours today. Starting in about 45 minutes.

The stack was over, I felt sad a bit knowing I gotta wait 2 days to listen again.

That was quickly replaced with knowing that now it’s time to get up and go to work.

Emperor and GLM there. My flow factor seems to be off the charts more lately.

I am a powerful and sexy man.

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#183

Curious, what made you keep glm vs ascension in this new stack. Was there a reason or

#184

GLM is designed to heal masculine stuff. Only real reason.

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#185

The emperor vibe is as real as I remember from Emperor V3.

Doordash just sent me an offer for a restaurant that’s on the local military base. I realized after I accepted the thing (since the info they show prior to accepting is minimal).

I cancelled it and the hit up their support chat saying “this is unacceptable. You need a way for people without base access to be able to opt out of this stuff. And it better not count against me that I had to cancel”

They of course went on “there is no way to block certain order types based on location but you can message us for help if it happens again. Then and only then can we help you”

And I said “cumbersome, inconvenient and avoidable with a few lines of code” and ended the chat.

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Main Disc. Thread - Emperor ZP v2
#186

If I’m like this after a single loop, that must mean there’s a ton that needs hit on. Hoping it stabilizes a bit. Or that I at least get more accustomed to it.

Noticing that a lot of stuff is annoying me right now. Like “Don’t they know who I am?” kind of thing.

#187

This is on par with when I did K1 and DR1 together.

I think SubC is trying to get me to run the stack again to “put off” recon until later.

I’m also finding myself thinking about subs/stacks that would be “better” than this one.

Gonna stick it out and see how I am in 3 weeks.

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#188

Biggest gripe so far about Doordash is not really being able to easily see how far away the customers are until after accepting orders.

$14.25. 20 miles away. Sigh.

Of course if I make up time by driving faster, there goes fuel economy.

Was hoping Emperor would help me kick ass at this for the time being. So far it’s just pointing out the negatives.

Rather it’s shining a 100 megacandle spotlight right on them.

#189

So much stuff coming up today. Times when I could/should have been more assertive with my desired, goals and dreams.

I’ll put more later.

PPL

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#190

On the lighter side of things, within the past 10 days, I had a dream and there was someone in it named Zelda. (PS Not joking. Really happened.)

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#191

She’s mine! :grinning:

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#192

I was in Pre-Paid Legal services back when it was till called that. Wasn’t great at it. Different story though.

Was at a yearly convention in Oklahoma City in 2005 with my sponsor. Big company to-do.

They unveiled a Pontiac Solstice (recently introduced the year prior) as a grand prize for somethingorother.

No way I was in the running for that. But I thought that was a beautiful car.

I said “I wouldn’t mind having a car like that. That’s a pretty car.”

My sponsor was a churchy religious wingnut (no offense intended to religious wingnuts).

He launched into some tirade about how “you’ve got a wife and kids, that car isn’t practical for you!”

And I was like “Dude. I’m just saying it’s a cool car.”

“It isn’t practical! You need to get real!”

It went back and forth like that. I finally just said “whatever dude.”

Basically backed down to dude would shut the hell up. That memory came up today.

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#193

I was driving to make a delivery, thinking about my day. Had the thought that I’m having all the mental stuff today happen because I’m not yet the Emperor, but that the stuff happening IS me becoming that.

At that moment I realized I actually didn’t feel bad any more. Not that I suddenly felt better.

I had stopped feeling bad sometime prior and just didn’t realize it. Like I forgot I was getting pissed off and annoyed at everything.

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#194

I’m at a McDonalds waiting on a pickup. I see a girl here I realize is one who works at Popeyes when I’d pick up for Uber.

Haven’t seen her at Popeyes in ages.
I said hi. She commented she hasn’t seen me at Popeyes in ages (lol). I said the same. Then said I thought maybe she’d found something better.

“Not yet”

Cute as hell.

I definitely feel better lol

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#195

one time, a long time ago, I was going to sleep, and while I was half-asleep, I suddenly realized that if I thought of a song, I could hear it blasting very loud in my head like I had a radio in my brain. I’ve never been able to replicate it. when it happened, I kept blasting the 5 notes from “Close Encounters”

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#196

$130.55 for 8 hours. I can do better.

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#197

I’m really feeling the stack now. I feel amazing. Just calm, optimistic, and sexy.

I wish I could run the stack to get more of the feeling, but I know it doesn’t work like that.
An idea that came to me for a future stack is something involving Heartsong and GLM together. I’d really like to see what that does. Not sure yet what I’d use for a third sub, if I had a third sub.

I suspect HS and GLM alone would be quite effects-focused.

#198

It’s bugging me a bit (not sure why) that I feel so driven to post today. Like I’m “talking too much”.

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#199

Given that random meeting happened on day 1 of this cycle, I’m so happy my stack manifested seeing her.

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#200

Day 2: Rest. Except I felt led to run Ascension Chamber.

Did 2x of that while strolling the mind beach talking to Popeyes girl. I should really find out her name.

At one point, I found myself in the lobby I’d the Veterans’ care home I sometimes take food deliveries to. Think of that place like a nursing home for disabled veterans.

This felt like a Daytime Lucid Dream.

Only last a few seconds and then put myself back on the beach, walking with her again, holding hands, talking.

Also at one point I daydreamed seeing Zelda. Like randomly coming across each other.

Then started wondering what kind I’d person I have to become so these kinds of women would go for me.

Then that got me thinking about bringing Wanted back into play eventually (E:E, Wanted and GLM stack maybe?)

The day is still young and I’m heading out soon to do the Doordash thing again.

I’m eager to see how the day unfolds.

#201

Day 2: Rest. Continued.

With yesterdays stack and todays 2x of Ascension Chamber, I’m feeling alternating sadness and lack of emotion.

And I’m finding myself considering the possibility I might have to go be single to have the kind of sex life I want. Not that i relish that idea. Because it means I’d be like my dad. I’ve journaled about the dad thing before.

I figure the stack is doing what it was designed to do.

Kinda hard to be the Emperor if I can’t honor my own desires and intuitions.

I can’t make the wife just want sex more without being manipulative and controlling. And to be honest, if I have to do all that, I don’t want it. I want it from someone who wants it too.

Likewise, she also can’t just make me want it less without being controlling and manipulative.

I will get through this cycle. I don’t plan to make any drastic situational changes without being ready.

Meaning I got work to do still.

I’ll run a cycle or two of Primal Seduction minimum to increase my skill of communicating with women.

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