Le Journal de Palpatine™ (2023)

Journals - Custom Subliminals
#126

More from Day 10
I just tried out my first bottle of “Dirty Bastard Ale” and wow. 8.5% ABV
Much good stuff

I loaded up the sales page for GLM, reading the objectives…and being like “HELL YEAH!”
Then I loaded up a bunch of others and read the objectives. Got myself all worked up and excited again for subs. More than in a while.

Read objectives for:
GLM
Ascension
Commander
PCC
Primal
Libertine
Love Bomb
Primal Seduction
Heartsong
and, of course,
EMPEROR

I really wish I could just put them all into a single custom and run it forever.

ah well. I decided to do a proper cycle with Ascension, GLM and EoG1. I think I’ll just do one cycle for each stage a full time around. So I can say I made it through a multistager the “right” way.

Not sure if I’ll keep GLM and Ascension for each cycle.
I have thought that since EoG2 is a purpose-finding and learning stage, Limitless would rock with that.
perhaps EoG2 stacked with Limitless or RoM or both.

EoG3, being a focused action sub, would go great with Limitless Exec or Exec, along with productivity unleashed and Machine: Rest

Once I get where I’m at EoG4 and able to execute on that reliably, then I’ll start Khan or QL

I’m really taken lately by the idea of the “status” raising subs. I feel GLM and Ascension working on me.

Maybe instead of all the above, Emperor makes the most sens to stack with the rest of the stages.

I briefly thought today about switching out Ascension and dropping Emperor in its place for the rest of this cycle.

But that would send my SubC a message I don’t want it to get. I will stick out this current cycle, by the power of Grayskull. One way or another, I will do it.

I may very well just use Emperor alongside the EoG stages. It doesn’t that my “Ecstatic Emperor” custom is Emperor and EoG4 cores. I forgot the rest of the modules.

Another beer? I think so.

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#127

Day 11: EoG1, Ascension, GLM

5 mins each this time

Lying back in my car seat while listening. Zoned out completely. Someone during Ascension, I hear a i phrase in my head.

“Isn’t lying just a very uncouth way of telling the truth?”

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#128

Day 12: Rest

Nothing really to report.

I wonder if having done only 5 minute loops yesterday made it not work like usual.
I’ll try full loops again tomorrow.

#129

Day 13: Early in the day still. I’m so tired. Mentally.
Tired of my old usual routines that I don’t seem strong enough to break from yet.

I don’t even wanna run my stack today. I will though. I just feel like I don’t wanna.

#130

What does it mean to be a man?

#131

What I posted below has me feeling like I should go back to my original intent of Emperor and Rebirth.

I ran Emperor V3 for part of a month. Back pre-Q (for newer folks reading this, that meant loops running all day).

I stopped because I got afraid that Emperor would ruin being able to work the customer service job I had at the time.

Now that I don’t have a “regular” job, I’m fresh out of seemingly valid excuses.

Imma finish out this cycle and then look at Emperor, Rebirth, EoG.

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#132

Day 13: part deux

I’m running EoG1 whilst sitting in the car.

Something I started doing a couple month back is noticing my sense of depth perception.

People with both eyes have depth perception but (I at least) tend to take it for granted and not even notice it.

I started really noticing the sense of depth and perspective and being mindful of just noticing that.

I’ll close one eye sometimes and notice how flat or dull the imagery is that I see.

Then open the eye back up and notice the shift back to having sense of depth. This seems to help me be appreciative of the sense of depth I have.

Gratitude for it even.

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#134

Day 13: Part trois.

I’ve been thinking more about the Emperor+Rebirth thing. Wish I could start that stack now without feeling bad about cutting the cycle short. BUT…
Only 8 more days to go.

Sticking with ths stack is more a matter of discipliine, honor and pride for me than anything else.

I wanna get the full effect of EoG. So I’ll stick with that regardless.

I’ve got so many ideas of subs to run, all based on who I want to be.

Primal+Ascension has enough people now that have run those together, that I feel comfortable building a custom of that once I’ve funds. Though I’ve been considering Primal Seduction+Ascended Mogul. Not sure if that’s too much in a single custom.

I like what I think Ascension is doing right now, but wonder if Ascended Mogul in the above stack would be too far removed from regular Ascension, as it’s allegedly focused more on the money side of things.

So I might just build Primal+Ascension to run…and stack in Mogul as needed.

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#135

If you were to build one right now, what are you considering putting in there?

#136

Primal
Ascension
Godlike Masculinity
Alpha Body Language
Mosaic
Rebirth
Limit Destroyer
Lion IV

Not sure what else at this point. I’d go with those few alone if I could.

EDIT: Added Lion IV

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#137

Never hurts to ask… (support ticket?)

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#138

Day 14: Rest
Mostly just went and got a headlamp for the Silver Dragon.
Watched several eps of CSI: Vegas with the wife.
Talked with my mom for a bit over 2 hours.

Reading now from a book called “How to Become an Accidental Genius”…it’s a kids book or JA book…but still got lots of info. I’m feeling a draw again lately toward tinkering and creating stuff.

Stark fits the bill…except that damn fame stuff :wink:
I’ll just need to either get OK with the fame stuff, OR build a custom using stuff like QL4, Index Gate, Engineering Marvel, etc and stick to the fun part of it.

BUT…since the fame stuff bugs me so damn much, MAYBE (just maybe?) that’s something I need to work on.

EDIT: What’s having me think more along the lines of maybe needing to embrace fame is reading 48LP. Strategic fame may not be a bad thing after all.

#139

I just realized something. Day 14. wow. Cycle is 2/3 done!

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#140

Have you ever looked at RM to help your creativity?

I used it a couple years back for a few days, and I still can see what I imagined then.

No recon, and no fame scripting. I’ve wondered how much would come out of me if I added it to a stack.

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#141

Nah. Never did really consider RM. I’ll look into it

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#142

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#143

Day 15: EoG1, Ascension, GLM.

Nothing major to report. Ran the stack. blah day overall, due to slow activity with Instacart.
We came home early.

#144

Day 16: Rest

After a full day of only one shit order showing up on Uber Eats, I was driving home. intending on stopping at the grocery store to check for cat treats.

As I’m nearing the grocery store, I see this group of HS-age-looking students doing picket signs across the street from McDonald’s, for this McTakeover thing they do one Wednesday a month for 2 hours or so for a charity thing.

One of them, I thought it looked like Zelda! Enough so I drove back around the block to see if it was her. It wasn’t. But my nervous system responded like it was her.

I suddenly felt the same old stuff come up…“What would she see in a guy like me?”

I definitely need to run full Khan at some point. I’m better than bullshit thoughts like that.

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#145

Yesterday/Last night was a rest day of course. I dreamed that I met with someone I haven’t talked to in a while. There was a journal entry (too lazy to search as it’s been a while) where I mention 2 women basically “breaking up” (haha) with me on the same day.

IRL, the one I dreamed about ghosted me. blocked me on everything except her YouTube channel, and maybe that’s just because she forgot I followed her YT.

Anyhoo, I dreamed that we met up somewhere, and I hugged her and told her how much I’ve missed our talks we used to have.

(No idea IRL why she suddenly ghosted me. Such a cowardly fucking way to handle things honestly. Don’t even give a brother a chance to learn from whatever perceived mistake and grow. But whatfuckinever)

I basically thought I was past all that lol. But I woke up incredibly sad this morning, without knowing why at first. Then my dream recall kicked in. @Sage_Ninjistic can attest that my dream recall is quite prolific.

Weird thing about my dream recall is it’s “backwards” from normal. I wake up not remembering, and the bits and pieces fill in the longer I’m awake.

I have a theory about that. Maybe undiagnosed adult ADD/ADHD. Not sure. but ADD/ADHD are characterized by an abundance of theta brainwaves in the waking state, and not enough beta.

Back to the dream. Hugged her, told her I miss her, blah blah. She seemed receptive to talking.

As I started to mention, the dream showed me that on some level, I’m not 100% past being ghosted, and still miss having her in my life.

I tell myself that ghosting me is her loss, but hell, it’s my loss too.

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