Skimmed through the thread on Big Money with Rich ZP, and the one on Insane Results and decided it would be detrimental to my mental health to continue looking at those threads as I feel that I can’t really contribute much on those threads. I feel like I am in a different universe.
I probably need Dragon Reborn ZP ST1 to help with me with a lot of inner processing before I go back to addressing my issues, which clearly are not just money-related.
Inside me, there’s a lot of resentment, envy, jealousy, anxiety, depression and desperation. For most of my life I’ve been living inside an invisible cage, being a forced to be an observer of the world rather than being a participant of the world. Ok perhaps the participation part is there too, but it is participation as a follower not as a leader. It is participation on other people’s terms.
If there’s one word that represents what I want now, I realise that it’s not money, it’s not sex, it’s not intellectual fulfilment, but it’s freedom. That freedom to live my life on my own terms, to be the master of my own reality, and to know the truth.
After living with so much dogma forced into me and with my energetic structure being tied by some other external force - I can no longer deny that I don’t believe that there is no external force binding me I just don’t now what it is - I have become very drained.
I think at the very least, DR ZP ST1 would help in targetting my energetic structures and recreate some deep inner changes that will help me with my journey forward, so it’s going to be DR ZP ST1 for the next 21 days.