1st day of 2020 today. Over the past years, I feel that one thing I have felt some achievement in is my grasp and understanding of a lot of spiritual stuff.
From the beginning of 2010, I had been desperately clinging on to my religion and crying over unanswered prayers. I had a deep dislike of my religion due to family pressure and didn’t know why.
I had become very much a rationalist at that point of time and thought that everything unexplainable in life was down to science, and that I was a person with a limited lifespan just like everybody else and living on a universe for 80 years if lucky and then die off into an unknown afterlife while the Earth continued spinning for a few billion years until its death. I was always curious about why a God who loved humans like nothing else created humans to on a planet for only 70-80 years when it had existed for billions of years and would exist for a few billion more years after human civilization died out.
Anyway, I think my journey of understanding myself and my reality started in sometime during this decade. I always felt that I had a terrible fate compared to many others - in my society, material/worldly achievements count a lot in terms of your value as a person and I never achieved much in those fields . So I consulted consulting fortune tellers, LOA gurus, astrologers, psychics, oracle readers, mystics, new age healers, psychologists, hypnotherapists, witches, shamans - you name it I’ve tried it - and nothing solved the problems in my life. I tried various subliminals (before Subliminal Club came about) and went to the Silva course, but something was still lacking.
In the process, I read up a lot about the subconscious mind, multiverses and quantum physics. My first forage deep into these ideas was through Merlinworld’s forum .I’m not sure if anyone knows about Merlin, a guy who tried out Night Audio Programs and had many people in his forum helping him to test out his NAPS. Anyway Merlin finally gave up on his NAPS as he found out that he had not manifested what he wanted even after decades of trying out NAPS in various sorts.
During my journey, I had also been learning about propaganda and how many political groups, advertisers, businesses, religions, social groups etc have all sorts of tactics to brainwash people and make them believe something to be true. This has become more prevalent with fake news becoming harder and harder and harder to discern.
My understanding of reality also reached a point where I had the belief that many unexplainable/supernatural things in the world were caused by the combined beliefs of many people from the present and the past (something like morphic fields). It was the only way I could understand how paranormal phenomena that was prevalent among a certain ethnic group across various countries where that group was dominant during a certain period of the year was unheard of and did not make sense in many other countries. I started to learn about how various interest groups needed to maintain such beliefs in people in order to stay in power or to remain relevant to the changing world.
One of the more significant books in my life, Fred Dodson’s Parallel Universes of Self, struck something in me, but I still had problems trying to get down to zero-point. Reality Transurfing was another interesting book.
But from then on, after reading his book and understanding some of the thoughts behind Merlinworld, I become very convinced and motivated that it was possible for me to shift my reality and be in the reality I want. I knew I wouldn’t be stuck in this world like most other people in the world but the problem was how to reach that oversoul state, or the state of giving up awareness of your current self.
I think it was in late 2016, when something happened to me that I never expected would happen. It involved getting back large sum of money. I remember that at that point of time, I was listening to the subliminals of another competitor - I think it was a luck subliminal. At the same time, in Dec 2016, I had become desperate about my situation and consulted John Kironde (a Neville Goddard coach) and John helped me with the manifestation of the solution to my problem. So either it was the subliminal or the John who solved my problem but I don’t know now. John isn’t available for coaching these days, otherwise I would seek his help again.
Anyway, it was from that point on that my worldview started to become very much focused on learning Neville’s teachings and his ideas of “I AM”-ness. It is much easier on me these days, that I learn how to imagine my desired reality. Now I need to work on my belief system and I still don’t know how much of the natural laws of the universe can be broken or bent with . For example, I still don’t know how much imagination it takes for me to wake up as the President of the United States . But in any case, my mind is much clearer now, since everything is my imagination pushed out.
Plus I have noticed a lot of Neville Goddard followers in this forum in the past 6 months - and I guess somehow I had manifested things to end up this way, and am very much convinced that no other subliminal producers have a better understanding of reconciling subliminal audios with one’s beliefs. If anything, it makes me feel more comforted that perhaps in terms of my spiritual beliefs I am going the way the correct way.
