Big step man to leave that place. You made the right choice and you will attract a better place to work and see that not all places are like that.
Happened to me back in 2020 when I felt I wanted to leave a workplace that was really good but did not fit where I wanted to go. A new(had not yet said anything) guy showed up and my boss placed him to learn under my wings, so when I left there was a seamless trasition.
When things take place like that, you have to wonder about the existence of the Divine and the ability to organise people and events like a finely tuned orchestra. It’s something beautiful…
Or it’s pLaCeBoOo 
I call it a controlled hallucination 
But it’s a good thing because you are reminded that you are in control somehow… and wouldn’t it be nice to finally stop blaming and take full responsibility at last… mure fun that way 
Fenrir sounds brutal and ruthless, possibly in combination with Ebon Maneuver/Limiting People Remover for total elimination of narcissists and users who prey on Empaths.
Today was the most awkward result from the Ascension GLM Primal custom ever.
traveling into town, I notuce this cute woman catching my eye as I minded my own business. However when I looked at her, she was giving the the longest stare I’ve ever had. It was a sort of gentle eye fucking. She also adjusted her top several times, diving in to prop up her wonderful assets…
A group of Spanish tourists get onto a crowded suburban train, a family with tweener kids, all several girls between 9-11. However there was a very awkward moment when the more confident girl of around 11 started standing up right in front of my face…
she started displaying the most blatant sexual behaviour directly to me, including hair flipping, hard eye staring, displaying her chests and armpits and… well let’s leave it there for a PG-13 audience!
I didn’t know where to look or even to look. The most awkward thing was her father was sat opposite watching the whole thing unfold!!!
I’m not wanting to be put on some offender’s register for noncing, so I waited until they all got off. Which they did, after the father playfully spanked the girl’s ass.
WTF?
I lost my shit at being stretched to breaking point: extremely tired at working 14 hour shifts tired at a dhopp where things do not work smoothy, customers criticising how I’m working, taking on their anger at me and taking their criticism personally. The pressures at work built up and I took it out on several objects including a trash can outside.
This triggering event was my hidden wounded self being uncovered. Following this uncovering of unresolved stuff (which I thought I dealt with), I’ve decided to have a look at Dragon Reborn ZP as suggested by @RVconsultant.
What set me off were things that I had no control over yet I was being blamed for, being told that I am incompetent, extremely rude people and trivial things making others mad. Does that sound a lot like my childhood upbringing? For sure.
So what messages am I still telling myself that need to be taken out with the trash?
Stacking my custom with Dragon Fire. The custom will reinforce the objectives of Dragon Reborn:
Become more assertive and prevent others from abusing or misusing you
Create strong boundaries against those who habitually and intentionally attempts to “cross the line” with you
Detach from the views of others — be true to yourself
Discover exactly “who you are,” what you believe your life mission is, and how to overcome all obstacles preventing you from reaching those goals.
Develop your inner child from that of a “kid” to that of a mature, powerful “adult”
Develop your internal self-image from negative to positive, and from unattractive to incredibly attractive
First impressions is that of a chilly wind blowing up my legs and a fire in my lower belly, probably long standing issues with relationships, sex and creativity (the sacral chakra). I’ll need to keep an eye on how I react again in a stressful situation.
You got this, bro!
Somehow I’m working a full 35 hour week and still fitting into my schedule my art practice. I have a mindset of “this needs to be done”, doesn’t have to be someone’s idea of “perfect”. I make my own food, I paint and upload on Instagram, I organise my time and I do it.
The flipside is I’m still automatically trying too hard, trying to do too much with no thanks and trying to please miserable customers and a boss who is a complete ingrate.
I messed up on the job by stupidly trusting a colleague, which backfired. Difference now is acknowledging my mistake, learning from it and saying no more.
DTA Don’t Trust Anybody.
So Dragon Fire + Nice Guy custom hopefully should nudge me towards a direction of hold back, slow down and take back your energy.
As you look back on your life, do you think there is a pattern of people taking advantage of you?
Big time.
“Friends”, workers, people who I don’t know. All have screwed me over to varying degrees:
It comes from being raised by two narcissist parents who look at me like an object, who forced me to accept that lying, backstabbing and deceit was acceptable and normal, along with being their child counsellor and weighed down with excessive responsibility. So I as a person doesn’t exist. That makes me as an adult “narc bait”, “easy to manipulate”.
So it’s a basic lack of respect I’ve grown up to accept as normal. But Dragon Fire will change that.
This is what I think stood out to me the most. Your supervisors should feel grateful you are there.
Agreed.
Have I mentioned the book “When I say no I feel guilty”.
As of this moment, are you using anything with Code of Loyalty, Fenrir, Ebon Maneuver, Limiting People Remover, The Commander, GLM, The Boundary, Fearsome, Codename: Umbra, or Eventide?
[I’m thinking protection and… something with a bit of a bite for you.]
Perhaps even Ascension, LBfH, and Sanguine. Maybe eventually Khan.
This is very inspiring and it is challenging coming from an origin that may have not adequately invested in your potential. Though I see you have risen to the occasion and are consistently empowering yourself. I hope you find bliss 
in your Northern Empire, King 
Your recent posts have been hitting me–since I can relate to almost EVERY derogatory and demasculating statement you’ve made about yourself. It’s honesty which packs a punch.
I would like to thank you for being willing to air that stuff. You know, the stuff you always (or often) think and feel…but don’t admit since it’s felt too often (like about every hour). It touches me since I thought I was the only one who had such negative programming. It gives me courage when you or others share this so easily.
That thinking has led me to a lot of poor decisions and directions in life. I’d like to hide in non-truths about my life, but it’s those little choices (like hiding, specifically) which pang me with shame. This leads to more hiding, then more shame, and the hole is dug deeper. At the very least, I can admit to it here.
I did Emperor and LBFH yesterday, and today I feel weak and emotionally soft. So hiding it is today.
I got stuck after writing that last sentence, and I realized I’m looking for old hideouts, like looking good, sounding good, pretending I’m confident, etc., and it’s all BS.
I feel kind of low today since my normal hideouts (being busy, etc.) aren’t on my list of needs today. I’m just feeling stuff, real and raw, and I don’t know where to go with it. Writing in my journal seems to get ignored, so yeah, I hold it in. Sorry to lament in your journal.
Just…thanks. It took some balls to air that stuff.
EDIT: I’m going to go suggest a module or sub which focuses un on seeking some attention while healing. Avoiding that messes up everything for me while actively trying to heal.
EDIT2: I made an official request for this module on the roadmap.
This is the beginning of your healing, to acknowledge what needs to change. Sounds like Ascension at work to me. It will shift.
Yes you did! Kindle order coming up.
I have all of those except:
I’ve seen Lineage and Last Stand advertised, not crazy about learning from my parents’ characteristics, other than learning to detach with family trauma healing. Last Stand was made for my job, unfortunately.
I’ve been feeling unusually proud of myself considering where I’m started from and am now employing ’narrow focus" in life - my immediate attention on the things that matter to me, ignore the rest. So you may be right in it being Ascension blossoming.
Knowing what you know now after running DR and everything else, if the Subliminal Club genie appeared, and granted you the wish of your ideal custom subliminal, what would you create?
By the way, Michel, look how many people your posts have inspired recently.
@Fractal_Explorer I want to make sure you have seen the above posts, starting here:
(I was going to tag you @subliminalguy but you already saw this.)
Thanks @RVconsultant
@Michel I hope DR ZP releases you from this recurring cycle of pain. I know all too well the cycles of intense rage and states of being paralyzed from triggering life events. Also feeling like life is a warzone or battle that you have to constantly stay on top of.
Going to be following your journal and seeing how this all unfolds for you. Will be dropping by from time to time for moral support.
Ascension is god send brother 
By the way, on Ascension, I truly experience this Ascend, internally, whereby I can sense an empowerment and with it comes this uplifting feeling that certain things which were to my detriment in the past, I can and will no longer accept.
And it comes so natural, others are barely able to “perceive” a change.
It’s second nature.
I’ve identified that self confidence, self love and self esteem are big priorities right now. Calming down is an additional bonus. So Ascension custom stacked with Dragon Reborn.
Ascension/AM*
Sanguine*
Commander*
Love Bomb Humanity*
Fenrir
Ebon Maneuver
Limiting People Remover
Fearsome
Immortals Blade
Lineage
Last Stand
Manipulus
Code of Loyalty (recognising betrayal)
Untouchable (scapegoat exile)
Eventide (for my big mouth)
Call of Honour (pride and integrity)
Natural Winner
The Boundary
Iron Frame
Divine Self Image
I AM
Pride Unbroken
Courage Reclaimed
Inner Voice
ARES
Unlimiter
Virtue Series: Temperance (scarcity mindset)
Potentiator
Primal and GLM as alpha subs just aren’t priorities anymore. I’m too messed up for relationships with women, too stressed and on the rat wheel for anything meaningfully creative and now I need to build enough wealth to not be homeless. Essentially I’m adulting.
@Fractal_Explorer @Houdini @SwagKing @RVconsultant @subliminalguy @Lion thank you all for your support, I appreciate your good advice.
If Saint and Fire are reading this, I have an idea for a module -
Sacred Lamb – there are times where we are selected for unfair treatment by others due to being different in some way, with Sacred Lamb you will discover a deep reservoir of Divine self love, self reassurance, pride and strength that will carry you through this tough period of your life. Sacred Lamb will also develop strategies to protect yourself from negative energies aimed at you, whether that is emotional or spiritual shielding, or practical steps to take to leave scapegoating situations. It will also attract people on your side to lessen the impact of being unfairly isolated.
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