Man! Brilliant idea!
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Go for it! I’ve matched each chapter of the book to a module whilst Ascension and GLM cores cover the whole book. For example:
- the chapter on getting the life you want covers deprivation thinking and scarcity mindset (“there isn’t enough money/food/sex/love to go around”) so Virtue Series: Temperance solves that issue.
Play around with it and add your own flavours 
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Will definitely do so when I create a custom next time.
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Man, this week has been one of the best in my life, simply being alive, happy within myself and gaining mad respect from others.
- exchanging friendly banter with blokes
- amount of times people have apologised for nothing!
- I’ve the body language look of “don’t fuck with me and don’t try to con me either”
- Women finding an excuse to speak to me
- work opportunities popping up in order to move to the next level in life.
The next stage will be - can I take it all the way and finally lead a brand new life? What kind of risk do I need to take in order to leave family?
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Aye!!!
Show them your true nature 
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Leaving this here for future reference.
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I am finally leaving the toxic workplace to transfer to another city. I have had enough of the boss narcissistic trait of lashing out at me as her scapegoat and her co-workers appalling behaviour and took drastic action.
The weird thing was it seemed like the universe lined up everything to make it happen – in order for me to leave, a replacement needs to be signed in first, which can take weeks. Imagine my shock when a person suddenly appeared asking to join my current shop…! Synchronicity in motion. I still can’t believe that something that was seen as extremely difficult for years was mystically arranged in days! This sub custom is magic, I’m crediting Courage Reclaimed and Limiting People Remover.
Had to turn down another attempt to try to get me to work on my off days. This person wanted Saturday off to swap with me. No problem, except she was using very subtle emotional manipulation against me. Previously I would have just said “yes sure”, but now (PCC and Manipulus style) I automatically knew something was up, she was taking me for a fool, but I turned the tables to secure something advantageous for me. She gave up and I kept my Saturday off! Hopefully that will be the last time someone sees me as an soft target.
Going to dig into my box of trauma and eliminate some of the deeper hidden elements. I see New Beginnings and Blue Skies as good modules to add, along with possible therapy.
Now getting ready for the move, still cannot believe how easy it was to do 
New Beginnings for sure.
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Big step man to leave that place. You made the right choice and you will attract a better place to work and see that not all places are like that.
Happened to me back in 2020 when I felt I wanted to leave a workplace that was really good but did not fit where I wanted to go. A new(had not yet said anything) guy showed up and my boss placed him to learn under my wings, so when I left there was a seamless trasition.
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When things take place like that, you have to wonder about the existence of the Divine and the ability to organise people and events like a finely tuned orchestra. It’s something beautiful…
Or it’s pLaCeBoOo
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I call it a controlled hallucination 
But it’s a good thing because you are reminded that you are in control somehow… and wouldn’t it be nice to finally stop blaming and take full responsibility at last… mure fun that way 
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Fenrir sounds brutal and ruthless, possibly in combination with Ebon Maneuver/Limiting People Remover for total elimination of narcissists and users who prey on Empaths.
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Today was the most awkward result from the Ascension GLM Primal custom ever.
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traveling into town, I notuce this cute woman catching my eye as I minded my own business. However when I looked at her, she was giving the the longest stare I’ve ever had. It was a sort of gentle eye fucking. She also adjusted her top several times, diving in to prop up her wonderful assets…
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A group of Spanish tourists get onto a crowded suburban train, a family with tweener kids, all several girls between 9-11. However there was a very awkward moment when the more confident girl of around 11 started standing up right in front of my face…
NSFW
she started displaying the most blatant sexual behaviour directly to me, including hair flipping, hard eye staring, displaying her chests and armpits and… well let’s leave it there for a PG-13 audience!
I didn’t know where to look or even to look. The most awkward thing was her father was sat opposite watching the whole thing unfold!!!
I’m not wanting to be put on some offender’s register for noncing, so I waited until they all got off. Which they did, after the father playfully spanked the girl’s ass.
WTF?
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So, I lost my shit again…
I lost my shit at being stretched to breaking point: extremely tired at working 14 hour shifts tired at a dhopp where things do not work smoothy, customers criticising how I’m working, taking on their anger at me and taking their criticism personally. The pressures at work built up and I took it out on several objects including a trash can outside.
This triggering event was my hidden wounded self being uncovered. Following this uncovering of unresolved stuff (which I thought I dealt with), I’ve decided to have a look at Dragon Reborn ZP as suggested by @RVconsultant.
What set me off were things that I had no control over yet I was being blamed for, being told that I am incompetent, extremely rude people and trivial things making others mad. Does that sound a lot like my childhood upbringing? For sure.
So what messages am I still telling myself that need to be taken out with the trash?
- I am stupid
- I can’t do anything right
- I am lazy
- I am fat
- I am irresponsible
- I am useless
- I am worthless
- I am responsible for everything that happens
- Everything I do is wrong
- Everything I do is stupid
- I cannot do anything right
and all the other dark messages that I can’t find.
Stacking my custom with Dragon Fire. The custom will reinforce the objectives of Dragon Reborn:
Become more assertive and prevent others from abusing or misusing you
Create strong boundaries against those who habitually and intentionally attempts to “cross the line” with you
Detach from the views of others — be true to yourself
Discover exactly “who you are,” what you believe your life mission is, and how to overcome all obstacles preventing you from reaching those goals.
Develop your inner child from that of a “kid” to that of a mature, powerful “adult”
Develop your internal self-image from negative to positive, and from unattractive to incredibly attractive
First impressions is that of a chilly wind blowing up my legs and a fire in my lower belly, probably long standing issues with relationships, sex and creativity (the sacral chakra). I’ll need to keep an eye on how I react again in a stressful situation.
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You got this, bro!
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Mixed bag this week
Somehow I’m working a full 35 hour week and still fitting into my schedule my art practice. I have a mindset of “this needs to be done”, doesn’t have to be someone’s idea of “perfect”. I make my own food, I paint and upload on Instagram, I organise my time and I do it.
The flipside is I’m still automatically trying too hard, trying to do too much with no thanks and trying to please miserable customers and a boss who is a complete ingrate.
I messed up on the job by stupidly trusting a colleague, which backfired. Difference now is acknowledging my mistake, learning from it and saying no more.
DTA Don’t Trust Anybody.
So Dragon Fire + Nice Guy custom hopefully should nudge me towards a direction of hold back, slow down and take back your energy.
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As you look back on your life, do you think there is a pattern of people taking advantage of you?
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Big time.
“Friends”, workers, people who I don’t know. All have screwed me over to varying degrees:
- I work to a high standard, others look at me like “you’re a sucker”
- I’m “nice” to women, that gets me the friend zone
- I promote others in art, that gets me ignored and left behind.
It comes from being raised by two narcissist parents who look at me like an object, who forced me to accept that lying, backstabbing and deceit was acceptable and normal, along with being their child counsellor and weighed down with excessive responsibility. So I as a person doesn’t exist. That makes me as an adult “narc bait”, “easy to manipulate”.
- I can’t tell anyone to cut it out (I’m not heard or believed anyway)
- I’ll keep it to myself (no one will listen to me anyway)
- I can’t be real (no one will validate it anyway)
- I won’t reveal myself (it will be dismissed, mocked and ridiculed)
- I won’t express my emotions (no one will respect it)
- I won’t trust anybody (as trust was broken with zero fucks given).
So it’s a basic lack of respect I’ve grown up to accept as normal. But Dragon Fire will change that.
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This is what I think stood out to me the most. Your supervisors should feel grateful you are there.
Agreed.
Have I mentioned the book “When I say no I feel guilty”.
As of this moment, are you using anything with Code of Loyalty, Fenrir, Ebon Maneuver, Limiting People Remover, The Commander, GLM, The Boundary, Fearsome, Codename: Umbra, or Eventide?
[I’m thinking protection and… something with a bit of a bite for you.]
Perhaps even Ascension, LBfH, and Sanguine. Maybe eventually Khan.
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This is very inspiring and it is challenging coming from an origin that may have not adequately invested in your potential. Though I see you have risen to the occasion and are consistently empowering yourself. I hope you find bliss 
in your Northern Empire, King 
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Your recent posts have been hitting me–since I can relate to almost EVERY derogatory and demasculating statement you’ve made about yourself. It’s honesty which packs a punch.
I would like to thank you for being willing to air that stuff. You know, the stuff you always (or often) think and feel…but don’t admit since it’s felt too often (like about every hour). It touches me since I thought I was the only one who had such negative programming. It gives me courage when you or others share this so easily.
That thinking has led me to a lot of poor decisions and directions in life. I’d like to hide in non-truths about my life, but it’s those little choices (like hiding, specifically) which pang me with shame. This leads to more hiding, then more shame, and the hole is dug deeper. At the very least, I can admit to it here.
I did Emperor and LBFH yesterday, and today I feel weak and emotionally soft. So hiding it is today.
I got stuck after writing that last sentence, and I realized I’m looking for old hideouts, like looking good, sounding good, pretending I’m confident, etc., and it’s all BS.
I feel kind of low today since my normal hideouts (being busy, etc.) aren’t on my list of needs today. I’m just feeling stuff, real and raw, and I don’t know where to go with it. Writing in my journal seems to get ignored, so yeah, I hold it in. Sorry to lament in your journal.
Just…thanks. It took some balls to air that stuff.
EDIT: I’m going to go suggest a module or sub which focuses un on seeking some attention while healing. Avoiding that messes up everything for me while actively trying to heal.
EDIT2: I made an official request for this module on the roadmap.
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