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Goal →
activate the process →
resistance/conditioning surfaces →
process it →
capacity expands →
learning and opportunities become salient → action emerges →
continue until either the goal is achieved or your relationship to the goal genuinely changes.
I’ve stopped reading books, I’m only reading wanted journals now. That feels sus, and probably a new recon coping strategy has emerged.
I’m so focused on internal growth I don’t notice external results as much until after the fact. Makes be wonder if I’m just engaging in internal mental PMO or actually achieving my goals lol.
Dear subconscious, let’s get better at it. Let’s get it.
At the same time I’m doing more internal work now. But but…
I read too much on this forum, I’ll be honest. It’s a problem lol. But it also makes be see patterns in people’s journals. I can see myself in them and find out if those patterns exist within me and whether I think I want them or not.
One is switching stacks just as it gets good or right after the deeper growth occurs, like recon. Always. I don’t like that in me. I don’t want to do that. That’s why I think it’s important to just set a stack for x of time and stick with it no matter what. Because, sure, you change your perspective after while and perhaps get clarity on what you really want. But what if it’s recon? I just know the mind is crazy good as rationalising really bad decisions and I don’t trust it when it comes to recon.
Stick to x stack for y time. No matter what, then switch. Never switch mid stack or before the decision. You can keep it easy, say stack A for 1 cycle. But I bet you’ll notice that recon hits usually after the first week and you’ll be on your stack switching mode before even one cycle is done. One cycle is nothing bro.
Now this could be just me. But that’s me being polite and corporate. You should ask yourself if this perhaps can be the case for you.
Right now I’m on my time to switch to wanted mode. But lately I’ve started believe more and more that something in my stack is working on something I think wanted can fix. But the current stack is already working on it. So I’m instead trying to be a recon ninja, understand, what is it working on and process it.
Boom
And I’ve had a couple subs I want to switch to. So different areas.
Also, just because I’m not running Wanted doesn’t mean I can’t buy perfumes and get on a face routine! Why do I have to switch?
Mind games bro.
That’s the reframe that I’m using as well, and it helped me to stay on my stack countless times
I mean, you can even see it in my journal haha - I always come up with a “I’m switching to X as soon as I finish this cycle!!!”, and that X changed like 4 times already
I believe it was pointed out by Jouissance first that if something comes up and you want to switch stack, it’s actually a result of your current stack
I think that’s absolutely true
A wise man. Yeah I’ve read his post and your post. It’s a pattern bro, it must be a common misunderstanding of what the subs are trying to do, because multiple people have noticed it.
Thanks for reminding me.
Regarding the sexual validation, it got reduced significantly. I’ve actually also been on a SR practice for 2 weeks now too.
That’s thanks to not switching.
Like saint once said, the pattern is visible, but will come back in more subtle manner.
Yes Saint, I’m not only sure of it, I’m expecting it. Sleeping with a katana under the pillow.
Don’t let the tool define you, you define more of who you are using the tool.
Definitely, on emperor I was doing a face routine. lol
This stage will strengthen your energetic core, providing you with the resilience and stability necessary to withstand the immense power that lies ahead. As your energetic channels become more robust, your charisma, magnetism, and presence will grow, drawing people to you like moths to a flame — and this is simply a positive side effect of the development of your energy channels, for the actual building begins in the next stage.
As this stage focuses solely on strengthening your energetic channels (and especially the sexual channels), this will be incredible for anyone who is into any spiritual disciplines, or you’re looking to simply skyrocket your sexual charm.
Alot of catching people staring at me. Especially woman. A lot of eye contact and smiles. I feel a magnetic polarity. People looking is nothing new, but there’s this tension or polarity going on, something magnetic. Like a magnetic field.
I don’t know what’s going on but I also don’t feel the kick I used to feel when drinking monster energy drinks. I think my baseline energy has increased by itself. So I started drinking regular coffee or tea instead. It’s free at work, might as well if the energy drink don’t do nothing.
This is ST2, looking forward to ST3. I think this is firing hard because I’ve run KB for ages and also I have a proper SR practice in place.
I’m glad you’re getting recon. It makes sense. You’re blessed.
I’m worried you want to escape recon without actually growing from it.
Tsk tsk
Posting again from the inspiring videos thread. Good reminder of the journey. Persistence, commitment and willingness.
Imagine there are different pools of water and each one is getting progressively colder than the previous.
You jump into the first, feel a small shock. You sit there until you got control over your breathing and the pool feels comfortable. Tension down. It doesn’t feel cold anymore.
Jump up and go to the next one and repeat. Sit there until it gets comfortable.
The cold is recon. The progressively colder pools is progressive microloops.
Staying in the first pool won’t make the jumping into the next pool easier. You’ll still feel discomfort for a while and the initial flinch/shock.
It’s Friday.
I’ve shaved, done with the beard. Looking good.
I’ve booked a meeting with a doctor to check on my elbow, I have some inflammation of sorts there that messes me up in the gym. I need to get it fixed if I’m to get back on a proper weight lifting plan. Currently just doing endurance running or HIIT.
Khan Black ST2 - 03:00
DRR/GLM - 03:00
Now that I’ve hit my goal weight I want to get more serious in the gym and build muscles. But first things first, get my elbow fixed. I think it will be shockwave therapy and some rehabilitation exercises (I hope) for a month or two.
Streaming, i processed my anxiety, and I still stream, but I don’t have the same ”need” for it. It’s truly feeling like just a hobby. Which is nice.
Processing some stuff around:
Run healing subs if you need to and live life. Heal in the crucible of life. If recon tells you need to become fit and stop with the healing and switch to Wanted or LOTS, then listen to it with one ear.
You don’t need to switch subs. You don’t need to stop living life.
Played some wow classic era. My recon told me switch to Khan. I said no, but I rolled as a Warrior orc in WoW instead. I’m Khan already, sheesh. Now watch me farm these Zebras. I’m building a house out of the hooves.
Committed
Recon is crazy, but I might be onto something. I just need to let go and ride it out. Consciously I know. But the resistance is deep.
I’m here until I figure it out.
20 day PMO free.
2026-08-30
Log 1:
Had a intimate session last night. Resets my SR run but it’s fine. However I feel a stronger energy in my pelvic floor, so perhaps I was stagnating anyway. We go again. This time trying to circulate more.
Recon today, one of those I don’t where this recon is coming from type of recon. I listened to Lovebomb and just try to relax.
Bought some sweatpants today to cozy it up.
I get to effing heal and feel like crap.
Had a nice results day, besides the recon.
All good opportunities and results.
I felt frustrated from not knowing any of the pop culture quizzes (after work activity). I thought I was down with the kidz, but apparently my pop culture is not today’s pop culture. Lol unc stamp?
I also got frustrated feeling tired af. Then got frustrated that I got frustrated even though I had a ”great” day. The inner work and healing is tough dude. Makes me not even appreciate the results and take them in. Also feeling frustrated that I had great opportunities and results today yet at the da same time I feel like I underperformed today. It’s weird.
Another frustrating thing is that some people get ahead in career by just being confident and just do guesswork, a thought. Is this cope?
You don’t want to prioritise and don’t want to say no because that means making a decision and taking a decision, and that means you might in retrospect you realised you’ve made the wrong or less optimal call. And that causes failure or bad feedback. It’s fear, but the added stress and pressure and inauthenticity you don’t take into consideration. The cost of that.
This is what I’m processing right now.
Also, had a session with a naprapath and got shockwave treatment, red light therapy and some scanning. Booked a follow up and got some pointers to deal with the inflammation. Looks like I can just hit the gym with some caveats. 
Also said no to recruiting this year (technical interview). Practicing saying no I guess to my PM.