The energy from khan black is potent dude. Gotta calibrate my practice so I don’t lose control lol
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That sexual energy transmution gone right is just something else dude.
The focus, the discipline, the drive and the fearlessness. It’s great. When it’s uncontrolled can cause some anxiety.
In a couple days we’ll go to stage 2 of KB. Hopefully more robust channels will help the energy flow better and stay integrated. Will work on that.
I must or else ST3 might get too crazy. Lol
I just thought you must use it. That’s how you ”transmute” it. Just do stuff. Then do more stuff. Then even more stuff.
Because it’s like drinking 10 cups of coffee and just sitting on the sofa. Of course you’ll go nuts if you do that. Of course.
Rain or shine, do stuff. Breath. Touch grass. Then do more stuff.
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Also I realized drinking 10 cups of coffee, then of course you’ll get sleep problems if you don’t spend that ”extra energy”… Do more stuff. Spend that energy. But also touch grass. Ground yourself. But live life. Anyway, thought about this when I thought about sleep issues that people reported on KB.
A blessed day of productive work or living equals a blessed night of sleep.
I hope so at least. Else I might go nuts.
The sleep issue is real. I’m hoping my body is adopting to this energy. That my mind is adopting to this increase in energy. homeostasis
For example I woke up dancing. Lol
The problem I worry about is if you’re very heady, that energy will go to the head and just breed more compulsive thoughts and add fire to that. So it’s important to be grounded as well. So I’m thinking this desire to dance in the morning is part of the solution. Throughout the day I’m sure I’ll do random stuff like that to embody it and use it.
I don’t know, just some thoughts.
To integrate and embody the energy.
Khan Black is fire!
This commute to work for a project everyday is not bad after all. I get forced to sit with the processing for an hour or two. Feel my level of compassion and self- love increase everyday.
DRR, trust.
Lovebomb, trust.
I’m definitely manifesting alot of cute and sexy ladies as well. Making me process associating my self-worth with sexual validation or just attention really. So intoxicating.
KB, trust.
Currently on DRR/GLM and KB stage 2. Oh and Lovebomb.
Bestie!
Noticed lately I like feeling recon or bad out of ”nowhere” because it means I will either learn something new about myself or level up soon.
I had a random thought today in the subway of wanting to challenge myself and actually go out of my comfort zone and feel discomfort to speed up this process.
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Love man, I’m learning so much about it.
I don’t know what love is, how can I love myself let alone someone else.
Lost in translation.
But it’s ok, I just need to teach myself it. Awareness and admitting is the first step.
Lovebomb is da bomb!
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Thinking part of my struggle with emotions have probably been being taught that emotions are not to be trusted. This causes a sense of resistance to emotions. Naturally when you don’t trust something.
But this causes more suffering and prolongs the emotions longer than necessary.
Uncovering layers dude.
Wanted to work overtime to compensate for my imposter syndrome but decided not to. Processed some and cried some.
This distrust has also affected connection with other people. When they display very negative emotions I either become super annoyed, uncomfortable, apathetic or think they are manipulating me.
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What exactly do you mean by “distrust” to emotions?
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I can’t explain it I think but here we go:
Imagine your kid is annoying and you are uncomfortable with emotions and you’re like saying “it’s nothing, why are you crying!?”.
You are basically teaching the kid to not trust their emotions. Like they are fake. Like don’t trust your faculties.
Now, yes, spiritually or with a different grown up perspective, there are no monsters under the bed. But it’s probably better to just make them feel emotions and thoughts are ok, because to them they feel real, they are real. Emotions are real. You feel them, you process them then afterwards you might adjust your actions/behavior/mindset after them. You grow. It’s complex. But just be there for them.
The problem I see is that this hinders/limits my perspective to process emotions because I resist them. My emotions don’t count, but everyone else’s emotions count. It’s complex.
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I am committed to KB, DRR/GLM and LB until I’ve run them at 15 minutes.
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what are your current durations?
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I’m at 3m while I’m running through KB. Currently on KB2. So I’m running 3 min through all stages 1-4. Then restart 1-4 but with 7 minutes. 
Similar to our past convo
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What are you running and how’s things?
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I’m finishing the cycle of The Stabilizer + RICH + Genesis Mogul in about a month. All of these are at 2-3m for me currently but I think I’ll probably be able to get to 5-7 by the end of the cycle. Or not, I’m not rushing it and not chasing higher numbers
Once I finish the cycle, I’m swapping out The Stabilizer and switching to Stark Black long term, occasionally rotating it with The Stabilizer. Like maybe for every 2-3 60d cycles of ASBR, I’ll do 1 cycle of The Stabilizer. Absolutely loved this sub, even though it’s hard at times, I’d say it was one of the most transformative ones so far
Other than that, it’s going pretty good, thanks for asking. Even though the stack is wealth focused, I’m gaining a lot of breakthroughs in seemingly unrelated matters (values, relationships, thinking models, etc.)
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Glad to hear brother. I’m feeling the same way about my current stack.
It’s funny how things are connected sometimes.
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that’s one of the reasons why I asked what exactly do you mean by distrust in emotions. One of my latest understandings is that I don’t have to trust my emotions and that they aren’t always correct. For example, I work and I dislike it. Previously I’d think that something is wrong with my work, that emotions are given us for a reason so I should listen to them, etc. - but that led me nowhere whereas just ignoring these emotions and keeping working led to the frustration tolerance adjustment and work stopped feeling as bad - I could work for longer, with more enjoyment, etc.
Like, you know you can have too much insulin and your receptors will numb and the same amounts of insulin would stop working for you and your body would need to increase its production? The same thing I had with emotions, though it was positive unlike the example. Endure the negative emotions related to work → the threshold increased → work feels good for longer, I’m not fatigued as fast, etc.
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Yeah, I assumed you came from that perspective and ended up just saying it’s complex in my experience.
I acknowledge the emotions and don’t want to add any additional resistance to them. I’m not ignoring them. But I’m not doing whatever my emotions telling me to do either.
I’m giving them space to be processed.
Sometimes work sucks. Some days it sucks. I just admit that and usually the intensity lessens and I can keep working instead of fighting the emotions like it’s a big deal. I acknowledge the feeling and approve of it. But I’m not an animal, once things have down I’ll take a rational decision based on the experience. Usually I don’t need to do anything, it’s just an emotion, come and goes like the weather. Other times it reveals things I need to reflect on.
Anyway, I just realized I can write for pages about this, but it’s hard to explain perfectly. But it’s just my experience right now.
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A dude at the subway looked weird at me, made me angry. Yes I’m angry. Doesn’t mean I’ll act on it and confront him. But I’ll let myself feel that and usually I learn something about myself. This is what I feel right now and I approve. I wish I was this Khan who is unfazed by anything. But I’m not, resisting this emotion or suppressing it won’t make me a Khan either.
That requires deep level processing. Deep identity change. Resisting or suppressing that emotion is a blockage to that.
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