Khan - A path less travelled

[Tobyone]

Short Paragon Review

I mentioned a while back that every year I get quite severe pollen allergy, and especially grass pollen which lasts usually for a month or a month and a half. So I played a loop of Paragon just before the season started and I have had minimal to none of these allergic reactions.

When I woke up this morning I actually had a bit itching in my mouth and my eyes were a bit affected from it. But after some washing of my face it all disappered again. At the moment this is the last week or so of this grass pollen before it dies out and I have not had any problems this year at all.

I have to mention that I also played one loop of CWON when it came out so that might have played a role in it, but overall I attribute this to Paragon. This has been a yearly thing since I was 16 years old and now I can happily say that it seems to be a thing of the past, AMAZING!

[lrw]

These are some of the most beautiful experiences I ever read about on here. You’re also a very good writer.

[Houdini]

@Tobyone

Some time later they were about to leave and he walked past me but it looked like he wasn’t aware of me at all. She walked out last but stopped by my chair again, and this time she was litterally clinging to me like we were glued together. I stared in to her eyes for a moment and said; in another universe it would have been you and me… and I would have laid you down on a bed covered in rose petals(long pause)… and the rest I leave for your imagination.

She completely melted and gave me a long kiss on my left cheek before leaving. I really hope that she can find a way to reignite her relationship with her man. All women are beautiful and nothing beats seeing a sad woman light up in the presence of a man that knows how to emotionally have a positive impact on her.

Lol this is so Khan. I love that about Khan it’s so tempting and seductive.

[Lion]

Truly an enchanting experience. Bravo

[Deadpool]

You could offer at least a threesome to her

[Tobyone]

Today I think I just died!! But who is this still typing these words? Got dammit!! Is it even possible to die? I’m still here… but honestly… If I whoever I believe this person typing these words is… a lot of I’s here… I must be schizophrenic… wait what? I must be dreaming… but why do I remember this dream as vividly as I do… does it even matter whatever I believe because I am just dreaming? This is fun… but why then do I feel bored of this illusion? Will I look back at all of this like it was all pre-planned? Have I been here before, and if… was it I who invented the word Deja Vu just because I was bored… is it even possible to be bored or (is) this just something I imagined in the first place? What’s so special if all I ever thougth to be real is just something that I forgot in the first place… We… there is just we?.. I… I?.. Beam me up Scotty… I know that guy… Ineffable… logic tells me that word isn’t even possible because of its true nature… I’m tired… Let’s go to sleep… only so I can rest and awake from the dream I’m already dreaming… I…I…wish I’m in love with myself… if so… what is polarity? huh… whooppa… shut up… I’m only trying to impress myself in all honesty… and its kind of cute actually…

[RVconsultant]

Are you feeling like you have been reborn? Or that your life before now was just a dream of someone else?

[Tobyone]

Nah just had a quite massive period of feeling like this matrix is just one big and very realistic video game. During those instances it is quite interesting to look at yourself in the mirror, because what you see looks like it is not you.

I guess I’m made more aware of this after having had my reality and beliefs about it changed so many times recently, so that I actually can see the blank that is behind all the transitions going on.

[Tobyone]

Think I have a lot of recon from Ecstacy of Gold St1. Today I tried the new version and it actually intensified the recon, but it feels like it comes sooner so I expect it to fade away much sooner. Nothing too bad but interesting to take note of.

[Tobyone]

The new upgraded Khan is finally here. I will play one loop tomorrow before going to a beach in the capital city to swim and do some sauna.

The recon I felt yesterday and the beginning of this day mostly from EoG St1 have subsided to almost nothing which is good. The type of recon on ZP and especially after the upgrade can still hit hard, but it feels more manageable and it never sticks around as much as it used to do in the past.

[Tobyone]

Stumbled over this video. I must say it teaches something very important to us subliminal users about the last step of taking action. Me personally, I have never found a tool before that is as effective at pushing you towards what it is you want as subliminals, now the question is just… will you take the neccessary actions to make it happen?

Ex-occultist discusses the 33rd Degree Knowledge and its HIDDEN MEANINGS

[Tobyone]

Ok i cheated a bit with 3 minutes of CWON… just one word… SMILE!! Nothing beats them smile when your mouth meats the smile angle of your eyes creating a circle across your face… makes me think that I need to open a spot in my next cycle for Chosen

[Tobyone]

New cycle incoming…

Khan Total Action will be the main subliminal for this upcoming cycle. Subclub does not make it easy with all these new releases But my second and third sub will be EoG St1 and Love Bomb for Humanity. I still need a bunsh of healing with EoG and I want to try at least one cycle with the new Love Bomb FH so Sacred Heart has to wait, and sadly there’s no room for True Sell either.

With the new release of LBfH I’m already planning later this year to upgrade my Sacred Heart custom. This means it will have two cores instead of one. It makes it just perfect to have one working inwards on love and then one aura based in the regular Love Bomb acting outwardly. Also this cycle I’m interested to see the synergy between Khan and LBfH.

Coming up because of circumstances I might move back temporary to Stockholm even though I don’t really like that idea. The big city is way to depressing in the long run but I’m not planning to stay there for too long, and its summer at least so people are a bit happier there.

During these last 6 months I have found it hard to find new friends that I vibe well with. Part of the problem is that the way I think and see the world differs so much from most people around me. This means that I have to actively be thoughtful with the activities I engage in so that I can find more like-minded people.

[Tobyone]

If you don’t become the ocean, you will be seasick all of your life…

[Vkluff]

I’m curious to see how well Khan will blend with ALBFH

[SwagKing]

Excited to see your Total Action progress. SC does not make it easy with its massive variety. It’s like the Infinity Stones.

[Tobyone]

Did one loop this morning of LBfH and it made me a bit tired but at the same time I felt very relaxed and at peace. I can easily see the link to Sanguine being in there. Later in the day I did one loop of Khan St3 but only 3 minutes not to overload myself.

Later in the day I felt a bit strange, not in a bad way but only like a perceptual thing going on inside me. I feel the presence of now a lot and it actually reminds me of the presence while on lsd. I walked around and realized how differently I feel compared to when I arrived in this cite about 6 month ago. Everything feels smaller and the lure of the city is not really appealing to me anymore, at least not at the moment.

Overall the feeling I have now reminds me of the times I have really gone into my heart area and things feels so calm, but at the same time a bit sad… just like I’m a bit sad to let go of certain emotions that I have been addicted to that did not really serve me. I cannot even say that this feeling I have brings up certain memories, it is just like a flowy sensation of a purge going on.

A comparison might be a bar or nightclub. Imagine going there in the evening and it is prime time. Everything there is pumping, the lights, the people, the music and so on. You really get the perception and the vibe of this place in that moment.

Now imagine going back there tomorrow during the day. Everything looks brighter in the day light and you can see dust everywhere. The music is low and the bartenter looks tired after a long night yesterday, and there is no people almost in there. It looks different even though its the same place…

It is as if you watch a movie and everything is set up in way that is immersive… but if you are there at the studio when they record the movie, then it looks staged and you can see outside of the camera lense. In a way it is not more or less fake than in the movie theatre, but your mind is not romatizing the idea and picture that the movie is trying to portrait.

This makes me think of media and especially main stream media, it just never look like they portrait it as if you personally go there. This has happened to me many times during travelling, and sometimes I think we learn from an early age to romanticize how the world should look like, so we never see what actually is happening around us.

[Tobyone]

Awakening is kind of like waking up from anaesthesia. When you first regain consciousness you have no idea where you are and you don’t recognize almost anything around you. Slowly but surely after that you are slowly trying to put everything together in your head to make sense of the world around you, and time does not seem to exist at all.

But all this confusion gives you a small break of peace in which you can actively decide to change the way you see things… that is until you get too comfortable again and the process starts all over again. Ultimately the sunflower is always facing the sun and the human spirit is always searching for truth.

[Tobyone]

Been reading that a lot of people has crazy results on the new LBfH, but also some experience a lot of reconciliation. I don’t experience a lot of that from my heart center, but I do feel that it is spreading downwards to my lower centers. The heart is in the middle for a reason and love truly heals all… whatever is blocking you can always be brought up in the presence of love and be resolved.

I believe that the last couple of years I have done a lot of healing in my heart center, so if I had played this only 2 years ago I would most certainly had a rough time on it. This makes me even more certain that Khan must continue because that is where most of my blockages are currently.

[Tobyone]

The Three Stages Of Becoming A Kid Again:

Primera Etapa:
You are pretty tired of your life that you are living and you wonder why you cannot just feel free and don’t care what other people think of you, so you start browsing the web and stumble over some self-help groups. Then after that you go out to a club and start drinking alcohol… as you go out on the dancefloor and start dancing, you look around to see who’s looking at you as you are dancing? Even though almost no one is looking at you, you decide to go to the bar and have 3 shots! After that you dance and jump as you scream-dance all night long without seeing three meters in front of you before the bouncers throws you out… The day after you wake up hangover as never before and you start feeling anxious that someone you know might have seen you last night on the dancefloor…

Zweite Etage:
After years of emotional and mental work on yourself, you start realizing that no one cares what you do, and slowly you are starting to actually enjoy the small things in life again dancing your way to buy some new socks at the supermarket. At the supermarket your favorite song starts playing and you start to do the robot dance as you are walking down the aisles… But soon you feel a bit uneasy and starts to look around you and several people are staring at you with that; what a fvck are you doing?? You stop dancing and tell yourself that the world has gone crazy and that no one is having fun anymore. When you finally get home… you hop on your favorite forum and start complaining how lame most people are!

第三段階:
You are in a constant flow to the point where you almost feel retarted and senile if you ever would find the mental capacity to ponder about it. You dance, you find small funny things and engage with birds and dogs in a fun way as you pass by. Everyone you meet you give your full attention to if you look at them and just see past them deep down into their soul… You smile for no reason at all and talk to yourself as you are just having a blast with life itself. You genuinly do not care or notice if anyone is looking at you, but if you look at their way, you see them marvel over how free you seem to be and you just smile back at them… Life is just a game of wonder and rollercoasters and you don’t even remember to take life serious anyways… All in all you are in your little bubble seeing about three meters in front of you(who needs alcohol for that.)

Beep beep Beep…

I guess I’m oscillating between the second and third state because I wouldn’t be writing this if I…! But today was one of those days where I almost felt retarded in a way, but man I just felt like I was back at kindergarten again.

It’s only there if you are looking for it I guess…

The song’s in my playlist that popped up today: Wirtual insanity, Just an illusion, Flashdance what a feeling, You get what you give, What is love, In the summertime, Vamos a la playa, and more…