New In-Between Stack:
So I’m currently one week into my new stack that consists of Primal Seduction, Wanted, and Ecstasy of Gold St1. So far I have played 2 loops of WZP and PSZP, and playing my first loop of EoGZP today.
I messed around with playing only 7 minutes per loop last week and it works like a charm to me. The way I see it right now is that I go by feel each subliminal listening day, and if I feel there’s still a lot going on up in the headquarters, I just play less minutes of the subliminal that day.
I decided to try mixing PS and Wanted together because they represent opposite sides so to say, Wanted is more passive attraction and PS is more go get em style. So far I like it a lot and they seem to gel together nicely. So far I notice women staring at me more and when in conversation they often forget what they were doing and become a bit clumsy. With PS I notice myself naturally being drawn to observe the feminine and engage with it.
WZP PSZP Observations:
- More stares from women in general.
- A female friend texting me out of the blue saying she’s going to set me up with her friend and arrange a mingle event.
- My female friend studying here wanting to grab a beer and wearing red lipstick, I have never seen her wearing lipstick before.
- Women at checkouts loosing track of what they are doing when I talk to them.
Funsies:
Last Saturday I joined a friend who studies at one of the big campuses in the city. It was outside in a big party tent and it took over a half an hour to get in, and the weather was really chilly. I had played a loop of Ascension Chamber before I went out and was in some kind of flowy and meditative state.
As I left my place I remembering thinking that I might need ID to get in, but I currently don’t have one except my passport which I don’t like carrying around. Also, I can’t remember the last time I had to show it except for maybe an airport, I have just become so relaxed and certain when it comes to security guards.
But this was a student place so they had security there and they checked everyone’s ID. I told my friend that I did not bring it and she started to worry that I might not get in, but funnily enough in my semi-meditative state I said don’t worry I’ll get in.
The guards ware surprised when I said I did not have an ID on me and said that it’s a must to get in. I just calmly replied that first off I’m not a student and that I never show ID anymore when going out. All in all I just framed it like it was how my world worked and I told them with a calm and steady gaze how old I am. Just pure honesty with a frame of I’m not that kind of a person that needs an ID to get in to venues.
They both looked at me for several seconds and I just gazed back at them holding eye contact, I had no tension or negative thoughts, and after that they said okay and let me in. This is something I’ve noticed lately in how I operate, I just tell the truth and stay present, and that way I don’t try to hide my agenda.
The party itself was awesome, they had a DJ and people just danced all over the place. But as so often when I go out, people drink so much and I feel a disconnect after a while. It’s just not attractive with drunk women, you can see the distortion in their eyes, like their awareness has just flown away on a pink unicorn…
And on top of that I found myself in an euphoric state just dancing along to the music. But as I got more tired I decided to leave the party and head into the city and my favorite pub.
When I got in I was greeted by one of the bartenders there, he’s a really good guy. He looked at me as I ordered and put forward his hand to shake mine and said; you know what… from here on every time you are here you’ll get 10% off on everything in this bar. I was a bit surprised and thought to myself that it must be the Wanted aura.
It didn’t take long for this place to be packed and everyone was dancing to the guy singing there, but just as with the student party, alcohol levels made people so unattractive in my eyes. I’m beginning to wonder what Swedish people do for fun except get shit faced?? Looking back at my adult life almost all events whether it be with a company, sports, friends, or similar they always turn to alcohol for fun.
I’ve noticed that the more I work on myself that I don’t wibe well with a lot of women anymore. Maybe my standards has risen a lot, and most certainly a lot of women with lower self-esteem are just simply disqualifying themselves. That is why I’m pretty sure that I need to find better places to actually meet women, places where women generally has a higher self-esteem.
Physique:
The one thing I do miss with not living in Stockholm anymore is playing lacrosse with my old teammates, it was a good way of building up some physique because I don’t run that often anymore.
Wanted has for sure had an impact on my body over the last week, its amazing how quickly the physical shifting works. I have been doing pushups and squats for a while now and I have noticed I have lost a bit around my waist and hip. Not that I had much to start with but I notice my tight t-shirts fits better without rolling themselves up. Also my chest and arms looks more defined.
For maybe a year or so I have noticed my eye sight has changed. Not in a way that I see better, just in a way of focus and importance. I see more peripheral and less focus, although if I focus it is fine. It’s just like a camera that has not zoomed in yet at what it is looking at and it’s all dizzy. In a way its awesome because I feel more loose and care-free, but some days like today, I just feel completely lost and not in the seeing world almost.
Woop Woop:
The world looks different and it looks less real since ZP came out for me. They way I used to live and when I look around at times looks completly mental to me now. But, it is just the same as it has always been. The only difference is that as more light enters the room, I can see more of the dirt and cobwebs, and it’s always been there, it was just too dark in there for me to actually see it.
Lastly, reflecting on all the commotion and lalala’s in the world and people going crazy over the news etc… Isn’t it funny when one just disconnect, opens the door and walk into nature… the world is just fine again! Like nothing is ever changing, it’s all perception…