. 2 rest days .
I’ve been prioritizing some videos on how to update my LinkedIn profile to be more easily found.
I’m also going to update my résumé.
I managed to talk with my older sister about some of the challenges I’ve been facing, and she was really supportive — it made me feel more motivated to research the market and start taking new professional steps.
new cycle coming!
possible priorities for the next stack: DR:LD, RICH, or Ecstasy of Gold .
The journey with DR:LD has been intense — it’s the first time I’ve experienced physical recon (like stomach pain, diarrhea, etc.).
I wish I had good news to share, but the truth is, I’m currently going through several deep internal restructurings.
. washout .
I have to admit, I’m a bit frustrated with this next stack.
I’d really love to be focusing on romance and things like that…
But this was the guidance from my Higher Self for the moment.
There’s a lot of frustration about not having my finances sorted out — like I can’t fully move into relationships until that part is stable.
That’s just a story you’re telling yourself for some reason.
I got engaged in the financially most insecure period and scarce period of my life.
Didn’t make things easier, but finding true love doesn’t care about your time table.
Funny thing though, two weeks before @CurlyGirl and I got together I decided it’s time to care for myself and my finances before I look for a relationship.
That’s why I say, finding love doesn’t care about your plans.
It was nice to hear about your story, about you two.
It honestly feels really good to know more about you guys.
It makes sense — I must be telling myself that for a reason…
But the truth is, I feel really excited about the possibility of finding new love. s2
Take a look at the new Dragon Reborn: Regeneration. You may find some value in it:
. washout .
Feeling the blooming effects quite naturally today — it’s the 5th day of my washout.
I found an interesting meditation on YouTube that’s been really helping me anchor my new, lighter self — freer from some old limitations. I’m feeling really good doing it.
Also, I genuinely feel like I’ve turned the page regarding my ex, and now I’m even more open to other connections, including friendships. That’s been really important for me.
Some interesting synchronicities happened today too. Good encounters with people who remind me of certain paths.
It also felt good to notice this growing sense of confidence even outside the active listening cycle.
(( new cycle ))
(( sed - 15s ))
I start a new cycle today. I was more honest with myself and realized I want to give Seductress another chance 
official stack: DR:LD, Seductress, and EoG.
I found it curious, but right away, I felt a strong urge to organize my computer files.
I’m doing that now and feeling excited about it.
(( rest day ))
I found it interesting — I think that with the previous work from Limit Destroyer, I was finally able to open up and access deeper layers of Seductress, like the parts related to self-worth, finances, and so on.
Back in May, when I listened to it more actively, I couldn’t really reach those aspects of the script — only the seductive layer. I’m happy about that change.
Also, I’m feeling once again that same connection I had during my first experiences with it. To me, this sub brings a very deep alignment with my inner self — my truth — my intuitive side — and invites me to be more honest with it, and with the feminine truths I carry within.
I haven’t been in many social settings yet to notice how it plays out externally, but this time, it’s bringing me a new sense of inner focus and self-care.
It feels like I was genuinely missing this feminine aspect of myself — and Seductress is helping me reconnect with it.
(( sed - 15s ))
I went to a really fun Halloween party hosted by a friend yesterday. I felt genuinely good and was warmly welcomed by everyone there.
Besides that, I had a romantic experience with a guy I already knew, and it really helped me reframe some past experiences. Our connection was deeper — he was very kind and kept complimenting me the whole time, truly treating me like a queen.
It was both nice and interesting — I effortlessly received the affection and attention I’d been wanting to receive from others, romantically, for weeks. 
(( rest day ))
Realizations and meanings of this shift:
I noticed how the care that comes from my feminine side had been so tied to others that I ended up abandoning myself.
From this point on, my true desire is to keep honoring myself — to stay free and keep channeling that care into my own life.
The feeling is: "I missed myself"
(( EoG - 20s ))
I watched a lot of videos over the weekend about systemic movements and family constellations.
I’ve been questioning my sense of self-worth and the experiences that led me to take on roles where I keep reinforcing the ideas like “I’m not important”
(( rest day ))
I think I’ll be watching this video daily for a while — it really reminded me of RoW.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-kDvz3tRh6E&list=WL&index=6
(( limit destroyer - 22s ))
I’m so pissed off because I made another investment in a trading bot and funded the account, and the fucking bot is almost blowing it up. I’ve lost count of how many losses I’ve had in trading. There’s some serious belief work to do around this. That’s so shitty. Still wondering if this is really for me.
(( rest day ))
Yea, I’ve lost the account — the DD reached its limit. I felt bad about it for a while, but I was able to reframe it.
Mostly because I had such a beautiful and insightful day at my Core Energetics training. So many insights about my power… the way I use it — or don’t. About the things I keep expecting from the outside, when deep down, only I can give myself permission.
A lot of shifts happened today. Somehow, I’m at peace now. I wasn’t earlier, but I gave myself space to feel it — to really feel the part of me that sabotages my finances when it comes to trading (trying not to judge). And then, I had this clear sensation… like I’ve been waiting for someone to come with me. Like a partner.
And suddenly, I saw the image of my brother. It was like I had been waiting for him… I don’t know what comes next, but this realization felt important.
(( sed - 20s ))
I’ve been going through a 5-day intensive immersion in my Core Energetics training. Everything we do and access there has such depth that we don’t even call it “therapy”; we call it an “evolutionary process” (maybe the closest term that gives it some sense).
But the truth is, the deeper I go, the less I know — and the less I see things as something that needs a quick fix. And somehow, I’m becoming more at peace with that.
Anyway, I’m really happy with the last testimonial on the EoG forum — honestly, it made me feel so good.
Funny how many people are mentioning the 9-month mark. I kinda hope I don’t need that long, haha.
Just kidding — but it’s really inspiring to see how committed people are.
(( two rest days ))
I really like Seductress and the places it invites me into. But it’s curious, because it activates my intuitive senses so strongly (energetic sensitivity) — sometimes it’s even too much for me. I feel a lot of things from people and my surroundings. It puts me in a kind of training state.
I think that was one of the reasons I held back from using it in the past. Anyway, I’ll just observe and see how I complete the cycle.
(( EoG - 30s ))
EoG is really going to be my main priority now — meaning, I’m going to give more space for its loops.
I’m also thinking about doing a few occasional loops of RoW this cycle.
(( rest day ))
Feeling really at peace today. A sense of serenity.
today’s video:
Is Your Nervous System Ready for Next Level Wealth? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nV6n0ZrBOWA&list=WL&index=12
