. ASBR - 50s .
. rest day .
Dealing with some deep nostalgic moments today. I guess it comes from EoG and the dreamlike experience I had this past weekend.
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. EoG - 25s .
Challenges. EoG is bringing up a lot of traumas and discomforts. It’s been tough. I’ve tried EoG in the past and gave up, but I’ll keep going, motivated by discipline. I haven’t had my own income for years, living with my father and a small savings I made in the past so I need to change and put some movement into this area of my life. There’s nowhere to run.
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. rest day .
Thinking about doing a ASBR washout. Yesterday, during deep meditation, I realized I’m working through issues involving a profound sense of my soul’s freedom—or its limits. I gained clarity that my focus cannot be scattered toward external people right now; whatever comes is a bonus, but I won’t actively pursue it.
I asked my Higher Self which sub would best support me in navigating these deep patterns—patterns tied to my soul and family-related blocks holding me back—and the answer was clear: A big red dragon.
By instinct, Dragon Reborn: Limit Destroyer came to mind. I will follow this guidance with love and compassion for my current state. Even though I feel a strong desire to connect with many people and explore my desires, there are much greater priorities right now, and indulging that desire would only lead to distraction right now.
Life as it is…
Anyway, DR:LD is on the way.
EDIT: I’m not letting go ASBR , It’s my long-term sub, but I’m still figuring out how the dynamics will work with 3 subs, if I can handle or not.
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Love this community so much, and the work of Fire and Saint. Forever grateful.
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New cycle!
. DR:LD - 15s .
. 2 rest days .
First loop of DR:LD. I had a big fight with my father and also went through a strong ‘therapy session’ processing my mother’s death. The fight was really heavy, and I’m still processing it. Thankfully, there was a music festival this weekend where I could release a lot of energy and receive some really good stimuli from other people and dear friends.
I also listened to a microloop of asbr to give me grounding and protection. The main focus now is to find a job asap so I don’t have to live in this coexistence with him anymore. Very painful relationship.
The positive side I noticed with Dragon Reborn is that when I listen to it, I feel like I don’t need to ‘perform’ any archetype. It feels like it works in me, with me, and totally aligned with who I am. Different from ASBR, which I feel directs me more towards an archetypal behavior.
Another very good thing I felt in the first loop (although short, since the fight happened right after) was reconnecting with the feeling that ‘I can achieve whatever I want’. In an integral way. I reconnected with my ability to achieve things by myself. It’s the same feeling I had when I got accepted into 3 public universities and also passed a public service exam here in my country. It had been 7/8 years since I last felt that. So, I already consider this a victory.
That’s it. The days aren’t easy, but I keep going…
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. DR:LD - 20s .
Heavy recon during the day, but nice feelings at night along with many insights that are really helpful for my growth.
Also, two nice manifestations of things I wanted.
The best feeling I’m getting with DR:LD is the same one I used to have as a child — when I had dreams and passions and truly believed they were possible.
Anyway, this sub is no joke. It feels like an avalanche of limitations rising up to be cracked down across many areas of life, with very fast thoughts and insights. The subconscious is working hard.
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. rest day .
Another manifestation this morning of progress in an area I’ve been focusing on .
Also, I’m also reconnecting with studies on quantum mechanics.
EDIT: I didn’t expect it, but DR is helping me work through financial blockages I hadn’t noticed before
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. DR:LD – 20s .
. rest day .
I’ve completed 7 days of SB washout and 9 days of EoG.
It’s been a very interesting journey with DR. At the same time, I’ve been reevaluating many things and asking myself what my real priority is.
I came across a study about Maslow’s pyramid, which says that most middle-class people get stuck in issues of relationships and sexuality.
I think that’s why I was intuitively considering buying Wanted — to live new experiences and reprogram beliefs about how I see myself in this area.
Those who resolve sexuality automatically step into the level of Power.
So, I’m thinking about go ahead and test my thesis about the correlation between sexuality and money.
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. rest day .
Yesterday, I experienced a major emotional release in therapy—the release of a deep pain related to an experience that likely happened in another lifetime. After that, I am feeling more clearly that I am free to move forward in peace. It feels like the pain I’ve carried for years has finally come to an end, and now it’s time to move forward with joy and lightness, creating my own life.
Today, I woke up with the feeling that I truly am a being of abundant nature, and this is a certainty I have carried since childhood, which had been “stuck” for countless reasons. But now, I am reclaiming it and returning to embrace this nature of mine and all the life experiences it can bring.
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. DR - 25s + EoG - 10s + Wanted - 10s .
. 3 rest days .
I’ve been thinking about changing the way I write and perceive situations. In the sense that: if I already were or were already living where I want to be, how would I think about a situation? Would I be complaining about certain things? I don’t think so.
So, even though I’m still accessing some limitations and inner layers, I’ll try to write about what I notice as good, and about the changes that are happening.
Okay.
I did this loop of these three completely on impulse.
I’m still processing it — it felt like too much information, almost “clogged” (assimilation was slower).
Things I noticed:
- More philosophical thoughts right after the first loop of Wanted, and a feeling of wanting to take better care of myself — realizing that it’s also connected to how I see my own worth.
- I received many looks, and some people’s romantic interest became clearer — including from those I wasn’t expecting. My attitude felt more selective too.
- At a party, I suddenly started talking to a foreign woman, and before I knew it, we were sharing that kind of mutual gaze.
- For the first time since my mother’s death, I was able to think of her as someone who can still offer me love — and I could actually feel the love she gave me while she was alive. This is completely new. I couldn’t think of her with any positive feeling in the past.
- I’ve been reflecting on what would truly bring me pleasure at work, instead of thinking that I have to “perform” a certain kind of happiness.
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. DR:LD - 20s + Wanted 15s .
So… I’ve been having very deep, philosophical thoughts about money these past few days.
Thinking about what I would do if I had the amount of money I wish for — and where I’d choose to put my energy.
Also reflecting on what I’d love to do if it were all about pleasure and contribution.
There’s also been some inner work regarding self-esteem, BUT I got a nice haircut and I’m thinking about reshaping my dressing style.
Oh, and a dancer from France who came here to teach a workshop and perform really liked me and my dancing — she even started following me so we can keep in touch.
So nice!
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. Wanted 15s + EoG 15s .
Wanted has been giving me a huge lesson on self-esteem — on a very deep level.
It’s making me stop and think about my life, my finances, and the very deep ways I look at myself.
I’m starting to perceive what self-care really means — the kind that makes other people feel drawn to me — and looking within for real reasons to be that desired person.
Not as a projected illusion, but truly embodying it.
Anyway…
External manifestations:
- A girl went to watch a play sitting next to me and was basically climbing on top of me. (I swear)
- The girl I’m interested in gave me a super open and warm hug that same day.
- A little kid I met at a waterfall kept swimming after me, following me around and doing everything to get my attention.
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. EoG - 20s .
So, I’d really love to be the kind of person who can listen to more than one subliminal at the same time and process them well — or run a stack of three and flow easily between them — but I’m not.
My mind honestly needs a more “horse-like” direction (by that I mean fewer stimuli and more focus on one core issue at a time).
I’ve had some interesting experiences with Wanted, and I actually like the inner state it puts me in — but after these three loops, I realized it still might not be the top priority right now — simply because I need to channel my energy more clearly to fully integrate Dragon Reborn and Ecstasy of Gold.
I’m back to this point:
and this point:
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That’s it. I’m really committed to DR:LD (by guidance) and to wealth-related titles (by discipline).
I’ll keep an eye on when it might be a good time to add a few occasional loops of Wanted.
Today also marks 15 days of washout from ASBR, and I’m observing how I feel without it.
I have to admit, I miss the effects and sensations of those loops. But that’s okay, just observing.
This week will be about fewer simultaneous stimuli and more observation.
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. 2 rest days .
I’ve been prioritizing some videos on how to update my LinkedIn profile to be more easily found.
I’m also going to update my résumé.
I managed to talk with my older sister about some of the challenges I’ve been facing, and she was really supportive — it made me feel more motivated to research the market and start taking new professional steps.
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new cycle coming!
stack priorities:
- DR:LD
- RICH
- Ecstasy of Gold (edited)
The journey with DR:LD has been intense — it’s the first time I’ve experienced physical recon (like stomach pain, diarrhea, etc).
I wish I had good news to share, but the truth is, I’m currently going through several deep internal restructurings.
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. washout .
I have to admit, I’m a bit frustrated with this next stack.
I’d really love to be focusing on romance and things like that…
But this was the guidance from my Higher Self for the moment.
There’s a lot of frustration about not having my finances sorted out — like I can’t fully move into relationships until that part is stable.
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That’s just a story you’re telling yourself for some reason.
I got engaged in the financially most insecure period and scarce period of my life.
Didn’t make things easier, but finding true love doesn’t care about your time table.
Funny thing though, two weeks before @CurlyGirl and I got together I decided it’s time to care for myself and my finances before I look for a relationship.
That’s why I say, finding love doesn’t care about your plans.
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It was nice to hear that and learn about your story, about you two.
It honestly feels really good to know more about you guys.
It makes sense — I must be telling myself that for a reason…
But the truth is, I feel really excited about the possibility of finding new love. s2
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Take a look at the new Dragon Reborn: Regeneration. You may find some value in it:
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