(( rest day ))
Realizations and meanings of this shift:
I noticed how the care that comes from my feminine side had been so tied to others that I ended up abandoning myself.
From this point on, my true desire is to keep honoring myself — to stay free and keep channeling that care into my own life.
The feeling is: "I missed myself"
(( EoG - 20s ))
I watched a lot of videos over the weekend about systemic movements and family constellations.
I’ve been questioning my sense of self-worth and the experiences that led me to take on roles where I keep reinforcing the ideas like “I’m not important”
(( rest day ))
I think I’ll be watching this video daily for a while — it really reminded me of RoW.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-kDvz3tRh6E&list=WL&index=6
(( limit destroyer - 22s ))
I’m so pissed off because I made another investment in a trading bot and funded the account, and the fucking bot is almost blowing it up. I’ve lost count of how many losses I’ve had in trading. There’s some serious belief work to do around this. That’s so shitty. Still wondering if this is really for me.
(( rest day ))
Yea, I’ve lost the account — the DD reached its limit. I felt bad about it for a while, but I was able to reframe it.
Mostly because I had such a beautiful and insightful day at my Core Energetics training. So many insights about my power… the way I use it — or don’t. About the things I keep expecting from the outside, when deep down, only I can give myself permission.
A lot of shifts happened today. Somehow, I’m at peace now. I wasn’t earlier, but I gave myself space to feel it — to really feel the part of me that sabotages my finances when it comes to trading (trying not to judge). And then, I had this clear sensation… like I’ve been waiting for someone to come with me. Like a partner.
And suddenly, I saw the image of my brother. It was like I had been waiting for him… I don’t know what comes next, but this realization felt important.
(( sed - 20s ))
I’ve been going through a 5-day intensive immersion in my Core Energetics training. Everything we do and access there has such depth that we don’t even call it “therapy”; we call it an “evolutionary process” (maybe the closest term that gives it some sense).
But the truth is, the deeper I go, the less I know — and the less I see things as something that needs a quick fix. And somehow, I’m becoming more at peace with that.
Anyway, I’m really happy with the last testimonial on the EoG forum — honestly, it made me feel so good.
Funny how many people are mentioning the 9-month mark. I kinda hope I don’t need that long, haha.
Just kidding — but it’s really inspiring to see how committed people are.
(( two rest days ))
I really like Seductress and the places it invites me into. But it’s curious, because it activates my intuitive senses so strongly (energetic sensitivity) — sometimes it’s even too much for me. I feel a lot of things from people and my surroundings. It puts me in a kind of training state.
I think that was one of the reasons I held back from using it in the past. Anyway, I’ll just observe and see how I complete the cycle.
(( EoG - 30s ))
EoG is really going to be my main priority now — meaning, I’m going to give more space for its loops.
I’m also thinking about doing a few occasional loops of RoW this cycle.
(( rest day ))
Feeling really at peace today. A sense of serenity.
today’s video:
Is Your Nervous System Ready for Next Level Wealth? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nV6n0ZrBOWA&list=WL&index=12
(( EoG - 30s ))
(( rest day ))
Observing how Seductress puts me in a very deep state of refinement. Even regarding the energies of people in close circles — before, I used to be more open to interacting and receiving anything. Now, not so much; I feel a clearer boundary, and I can sense that others do too. So, even though there’s greater receptivity, I notice I go less into the “good girl” mask when the energy doesn’t feel good for me. It’s been five days since the last loop, and I can still feel it.
(( sed - 30s & limit destroyer - 22s ))
I’ve had a few small confirmations that the way I see work and money is changing. I noticed it more clearly during my therapy session yesterday. Basically, I realized that I’m truly becoming more flexible in how I view work and responsibility. I’m also more committed to my core energetics studies.
I received payment for two presentations I did in the past.
I’ve reached a point where I’m genuinely excited to do a loop of RoW, with a good intuitive feeling about what might come from it.
(( rest day ))
The 21-day cycle will end next week. I plan to keep Limit destroyer and EoG.
At the same time, I’ve been thinking about the third sub. I really like Seductress, but it makes me a bit too passive about certain things — so I might use something to counterbalance that.
(( eog st1 - 45s + revelation of wealth - 10s ))
I decided to try a RoW microloop alongside EoG to notice the difference — and wooow. RoW hit completely different areas of my brain. I thought EoG would be my main wealth sub next, but RoW could be an option. Curious to see what unfolds.
Something wild happened: for the first time, I could see my survival-mode mind from the outside, realizing it’s not real reality. It lasted just a few seconds.
Another very strong feeling that’s been coming up is: “I’M A LEADER.”
I came here to lead. I’m a leader — and I want to act like one and be recognized for it.
It feels like my life’s mission is just beginning.
You know, just some sensations.
(( rest day))
Huge emotional release today
(( washout days ))
I’ve been thinking about how often I come here and how to keep journaling over the next few weeks. I say this because I’ve been reflecting on the energy it takes to write daily updates, and also on the amount of time I end up spending on the forum.
At the same time, I tend to change my mind a lot (it’s just in my nature until something truly clicks). So I do feel a bit embarrassed sometimes when I say I’m going to use a certain sub and then end up changing. I’m still learning to feel comfortable with my own shifts without judding and without worrying if anyone is judging me. 
I think I need to be a bit kinder to myself about this. If it’s already challenging on the inside, maybe I don’t have to say it all. Idk, just some thoughts.
One thing I do know: when I finally get the results I’m aiming for, I will write a full report and share which subs were truly key for me.
(( washout days ))
I started the washout earlier this cycle — my mind really needed it after the EoG + RoW combo. I’m definitely not planning to listen to both together again lol.
Anyway, these rest days have been really good. I received spiritual support at the place I go to, and I’ve been feeling more creative, giving myself more space to express it — singing, drawing, writing. I wrote two “poetic” texts in just two days. I’m proud of that.
Pre-stack:
EDIT: I switched DR:LD for DR: Regeneration
EDIT: I decided to turn the experience with this titles into a kind of ‘pre-stack’ to figure out what the best long-run playlist is for me right now. Maybe Genesis might not be something I’ll keep long term but I’m going to follow this pre-stack until I’m clear on which ones I want to use.
. genesis – 30s .
. rest day .
day one:
rest day:
. second rest day .
. genesis - 20s .
. rest day .