Joie de Vivre (Daredevil/Love Bomb/Sanguine)

[Joa23]

Im struggling with an issue over this week, it isnt something new in my life, whats new its that I dont feel the levels of guilt I used to feel before. In fact almost none.
Im trusting more in the belief that something better will arise from this, just keep moving forward.

In other areas of my life theres seems to be a strong force keeping me away from bad decisions and kindly “forcing” me to get the lesson.

Strangely now that I’m writing this, I feel like those 2 experiences are nothing more tham the 2 sides of the same coin.

[Joa23]

Half way in this AoH and ME cycle… The idea of going Khan is gaining momentum.

[Joa23]

[Joa23]

What a dream I had before waking up, as usual I listened to my stack at about 6am and slept some more.

I was in an old apartment, it was fully remodeled and being deeply cleaned. It was very modern and filled with light, a lot of wood and glass.

My mom was helping with the cleaning and my ex was there too. I share that appartment with her in real life and also a lot of good and some awful moments too.

I woke up feeling very light, the dream is in full alignment with the revelations Ive been getting from my stack and some emotional clearing exercises I did before bed.

Reframing of hurtful past experiences, grief and loss. Reframing of my life and my self concept.

[Joa23]

Last night and an hour ago Ive done the Heart Coherence meditation, it was ok I guess. Im gonna do it for a couple of days maybe to give it a chance.

Today after the meditation, the Microcosmic Orbit came to mind after almos a year, did it for like 30 minutes and I felt 3 points of blockage getting released, followed by a strong energy flow.
Lower back, Upper back and Crown.

Feels like Microcosmic is resonating better with me.

[Joa23]

Feeling good

Trauma Release Exercises - TRE

Ok… Im bare footed in the grass in a park close to where I had my TRE session… just relaxing and integrating the experience. The reason for booking a session is because I have a chronic inflammation in my left sacroiliac joint, for about 2 years now. Ive tried a lot of different approaches with all kind of results. The things is Im far better that what I used to feel, no more pain crisis, but Im not good, Im not healthy. I still have some weaknesses and a soft but constant pain, that sometimes …

[Joa23]

I did a Heart Coherence Meditation again last night, a different video this time, the effect was more evident and profound.
Between that, AoH and TRE Im feeling open to love again, to love a woman and build a beautiful relationship? Yes, but most importantly opened to love myself more, to love life more.

More layers of pain, abandonment and sadness have been washed away and healed.

The fun part? This doesnt feel like I need to heal and keep healing out of being overwhelmed by negative emotions. This feels like just a step to move forwards into a better life.
My focus has shifted from running away from past pains, into enjoying the present, while being fully present in the process of building up into a more pleasant and happy life.

[Joa23]

@Joa23

I decided for what I call a transition stack, AoH and Minds Eye.
It will help me develop and polish essential life skills while I come to terms with a more definitive stack.

My idea is working better than what I originally intended.
I have a crystal clear vision of where to go and how to get there.

[Joa23]

Almost at the end of the cycle and all the ideas of what to do next pale in front of Khan.
Weird cause Khan has never been really an interest of mine until I started AoH.

The things is I dont own Khan and for now my budget for more products is exhausted… Well see how things turns out.

[Joa23]

Well today I ended this cycle, cant remember a cycle go by as quickly as this one.

AoH has been quite a treat, gave me a deep paradigm shift, show me lots of beliefs and behaviors that were detrimental for my levels of happiness and gave me clear nudges where to look for answers and opportunities.

I finally ended up understanding that in order to get out from where I was and fully reach where Im going, I needed to dissolve and rebuild my Identity, how I look at myself and how I came to those conclusions about myself. Reframing my past was a neccesay part of the equation, although not the most important one.

I decided to fully invest in what I perceive to be the most important change I can do.

To identify myself as a man who can completely transform himself and do anything thats necessary in order to become the man I want to be.
The kind of man that can easily accomplish whatever it is that I desire, whatever it is that brings me joy.

At some point of this cycle I realized that I no longer fear to be alone, I no longer crave company… That in fact I really enjoy to be on my own, if I decide to add company at some point of his journey, she must add a lot of value to it.

[Parsifal]

@Joa23

At some point of this cycle I realized that I no longer fear to be alone, I no longer crave company… That in fact I really enjoy to be on my own, if I decide to add company at some point of his journey, she must add a lot of value to it.

This experience I had three and a half years ago. Two months later I met my soulmate @CurlyGirl

[Joa23]

@Parsifal

Two months later I met my soulmate

Congratulations to both!!

Personally I believe in SoulmateS lol, not necessarily because Im looking for relationships with multiple women, but because Im almost 50 years old and Ive been around for a while, accumulated some adventures on the road and felt like Ive already had some soulmates before.

[Joa23]

TRE

Trauma Release Exercises - TRE

Went for a second TRE Session yesterday, it was very different in a sense. The tremors started in my pelvis as usual, but after a while they moved exclusively to my left leg. I started kicking for a while, then I had a tingling sensation all over my skin, warm, electric and very pleasurable, it made me laugh a lot. The weirder part was that just after that, the tremors moved to my jaw, my jaw went crazy, then it all stopped. It was a shorter session and I ended up feeling really expanded, rel…

[Joa23]

Things keep shifting and changing in curious and unexpected ways… yet Im looking for it, working for those changes to manifeat. Thing is life has a way to surprise you with things that are way better than you can even imagine.

Im going back to a stack that appeared to me as a clear vision some weeks ago and then left it forgotten. Only this time I clearly understand why this stack is so important for me now.

The first time was an unconscious nudge, an impulse, something I couldnt explain to myself, after a couple of weeks of exploring, digging and revelations in between, now I know why.

Well Im being too mysterious…

Im going with AoH and HS. Revelation of Wealth will be the 3rd player as soon as it is released.

[Joa23]

@Joa23

Im going back to a stack that appeared to me as a clear vision some weeks ago

Lol it was just over a week ago… Well time loses all its meaning when you are on a mission.

@Joa23

You know what… Im stacking AoH and HS next cycle and Im calling it 7HS

[Joa23]

AoH has done good for now, but the true challenge comes after priority checking.
Im gonna be building on top of what Ive accomplish till now and focus on whats more important.
So AoH is out and its time for me to give a fare opportunity to Paragon.

Lets go!

Heartsong + Paragon starting now!

[Joa23]

I had some minor recon today in the form of mild headache, it faded away while practicing Systema.
I did 5 minutes of Heartsong and 5 of AoH.

Something is feeling different, but cant quite put my finger on it yet.

[Joa23]

I woke up tired and with the same kind of headache that I had yesterday. After a shower, a walk and some pineapple, Im feeling good.

Just processing HS…

[Joa23]

So I just listened RoW for the first time (2 minutes) alongside HS.
Lets see how everything goes.

[Joa23]

First thing… Some very mild pressure in the forehead as in a lowe level recon.

2nd… Took a 30 minutes walk to my TRE session and in the road I found myself reflecting on other people strong emotional reactions to short term news and decisions… How they easily shift from hope to panic. At that exact same time I realized that Im feeling really peaceful and focused on the long term game.