From the book: Courage by Osho - Part 4
There are many things to be understood - otherwise it is very difficult to get out of the rut of misery. The first thing: that nobody is holding you there; it is you who has decided to remain in that prison of misery. Nobody holds anybody.
A man who is ready to get out of it, can get out of it this very moment. Nobody else is responsible. If one is miserable, one is responsible, but a miserable person never accepts the responsibility - that is his way of remaining miserable. He says, “Somebody else is making me miserable.”
If somebody is making you miserable, naturally, what can you do? If you are making yourself miserable, something can be sone… something can be done immediately. Then it is within your hands to be or not to be miserable. But on you go throwing the responsibility out there on different things, the names are different, but the trick is the same.
A man really becomes a man when he accepts total responsibility - he is responible for whosoever he is. This is the first courage, the greatest courage. Very difficult to accept it, because mind goes, “If you are responsible, why do you create it?” It is easier to make someone else responsible… I am a victim you cry out!
I can cry about being miserable and become more miserable by crying about it. Everything grows - if you practice it, it grows… an then you go deeper and deeper.
Nobody, no other force, is doing anything to you. It is you and only you. This is the whole philosophy of karma - that it is your doing; karma means doing. You have done it and you can undo it. And there is no need to wait, to delay. Time is not needed - you can simply jump out of it!
But we have become habituated. We will feel very lonely if we stop being miserable, we will lose our closet companion. It has become our shadow - it follows us everywhere. When nobody is there at least your misery is with you - one is married to it. And it is a long, long marriage; you have been married to misery for many lives.
Now the time has come to divorce it. That I call the great courage - to divorce misery, to lose the oldest habit of the human mind, the longest companion.
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This segment of the book felt like it hit me hard today. I had a long and outdrawn dream last night, and efterwards I have felt tired and sluggish. This little piece reminded me of that I’m just making it harder than it has to be. I have all the tools to dispel the darkness with my fingertips.
Now time for some Metta meditation. I feel that I want to start doing it in the morning instead to really set the tone for the day. Also, felt that I used the 6 R’s when out walking today, usually I forget, but that’s the name of the game, to train myself until it becomes a habit. It literally is the best tool I’ve found to get out of thoughts and suffering.
I must say that I’m being torn between the spiritual and the general pgysical life in society at the moment. Finding that balance is hard, and near damn impossible in the state I have been in lately.
… wind blowing… occasional tumbleweed rolling by… hm… not found any so far 
