Hey everybody, I’m brand new to this, to all of this, but there really is something going on here and I’ll get to that in a second.
*TL;DR: I used to think Subliminals were BS, but the more I learned about math, science, and the world, the more I realized that almost nothing that we take for granted as “facts” are as stable as we want them to be. We don’t even know what math and logic are and they are two of the most important things for our modern lives.
*I was led to subs slowly. Over the many years of college and life experiences, I slowly learned that almost nothing that is “common knowledge” is on stable ground, it is arguable how much is known about anything at all–like what even is math? How can these non-physical things (numbers) be so damn powerful? What even is logic? Think about it, you can’t reach out and touch logic, it’s what? A mental construct? There is nothing physical about math or logic, yet, math and logic (two things that are may not exist outside the brains of advanced life forms) directly make the computer I’m typing on possible. How is it possible that two of the most important “things” for modern life (math and logic) can be used to create the physical, yet they don’t exist in any tangible sense. Then you could ask, are math and logic (two sides of the same coin, really) inherent to reality and discovered or are they invented by the human mind. I used to believe (without any good reason) that Subliminals were BS. If I had to put my finger on why I thought they were BS, I’d say it’s because I was really into magic as a kid–Criss Angel, David Blane, Penn and Teller, the whole nine, which led me to become a “skeptic.” By “skeptic” I mean an obnoxious person who doubts everything on first encounter and demands proof for the smallest, most inconsequential claims, I don’t mean a level headed perso. I also probably believed they were BS because “common knowledge” says that subliminals are BS.
So, here I am. I’m running Limit Destroyer ZP, Emperor ZP, and I’m building a custom ZP title today to complete my stack. I’m following the 1 day on, 1 day off protocol, as the doctor ordered and so far have listened for 3 days on–I literally just started.
Day 1: 1 loop Emperor, one Loop Limit Destroyer
The very first day I listened, I hit what I think was mild reconciliation. I was at work and started getting pissed (very, very, very out of character for me. I’m the guy that people accuse of being “too calm”). I felt like everyone around me was disrespecting me. My coworker (funny guy, a bit of a trickster type) tried to play a harmless practical joke on me by stealing my stocking cart (a daily occurance, nothing out of the ordinary) while my back is turned. I snaped around and said his name like a stern, disapproving parent “John.” He, clearly a little taken aback by my response, replied with my name “praisetheurdtree,” and walked away. It was a small moment, but completely out of character for me on about 10 levels. Me and John mess with eachother everyday and have for months and I’ve never reacted to him like that before. After that, I realized that the sub was doing something, so I took my break early, smoked a cigarette, and read up on reconciliation, deciding that the symptoms fit. I go back into work, and I’m trying to use my innertalk to calm myself down. I’m going about my buisness and a 10/10, beautiful woman, exactly my type, locks eyes with me, I smile through my face mask, she looks away, pretends like shes about to go down a different isle. I get back to work. A few seconds later, she’s standing right beside me, grabbing a bag of frozen fruit, lingering in the freeze beside me, then she’s gone around the corner. An old lady asks where the eggs are, I show her, and guess who I see? Ms. Beautiful, we lock eyes for a solid 5 seconds, I eventually break because I have to be professional.
Looking back, I KNOW I shit the bed. She was trying to approach so I would talk to her, it was obvious as could be. If a girl isn’t interested, you’re either invisible or avoided. Girls don’t lock eyes for prolonged periods of time with dudes they aren’t into. This day, the first day, was honestly shocking. There is no way the subs aren’t doing SOMETHING to me. This is not my ordinary day.
Day 2: Rest day.
More reconciliation, another girl? Work was hell! Very out of character for me. I work at a grocery store (while I’m finishing college) and I almost always have a good attitude about it. I go above and beyond not because I like to impress, I do it because it makes work more enjoyable. Normally, I gamify work, and generally have some fun while doing it. Today was different, and I’ll get to that. One of the girls from another department (Jane, 6/10) was standing near my department, she took a selfie, so I walked up behind her and gave her shit, “I think the cameras saw that, Jane” I said (I can’t remember, I was a bad student and didn’t journal on the day it happened). She laughed, and literally fell into me–deliberately exaggerating her movements in order to physically touch me. I let it happen, laughed with her, and fell into a deep contemplation. What the hell was going on!? How much more clear can it get than that!? This event was so shocking to me (I played it cool in the moment) that I spent the next several hours thinking about what to do next. I checked her out from afar, seriously considering if she was someone I was going to pursue, and a voice from my innermost parts said, “no, don’t bother, you can do better.” She’s pretty, she’s nice, but I’m not the kinda guy that’s gonna pursue just because some girl is interested. I’m not gonna mess with my coworkers, and on some level, I felt like she wanted things I can’t give her, and that she isn’t what I want. The only way to be a good dude is to disengage so nobody gets hurt.
Following that, work became hell. Remember how I said I normally enjoy work? For the last several hours of my shift, I was waging an internal battle with myself. I was seriously considering just quitting (super out of character for me) or asking my manager if I could just leave (also super out of character.) Toward the tail end of my shift (an eternity later) I got the random thought that I should apply at a specific company. So, I went home apllied, and…
Day 3: Emperor ZP, and Limit Destroyer ZP
I woke up to a voice mail asking if I wanted to do an interview. I called back, scheduled an interview, and that was that. Never had such a quick turn around, also, this is not an easy company to get hired at.
I then got an email from my college soliciting inspirational stories from the graduating seniors, so I wrote a draft.
The rest of the day was pretty uneventful and I mostly felt like trash emtionally.
Day 4 rest day:
Pretty uneventful, except I was super vocal in one of my classes, pretty much carrying the discussion. There was also a group exercise and a group of dudes invited me to be part of their group–that’s NOT NORMAL FOR ME! I’m typically a wall flower that doesn’t get invited to anything or anywhere. It was a small thing, but had huge implications.
Day 5: Limit Destroyer ZP, Emperor ZP
I’ll be honest, I stopped keeping a personal journal, so these entries are getting shorter because my memory is lapsing.
Interview day. I get to the place and I’m literally shaking nervous. Do the interview, feel okay about it, my inner voice is saying “this is just a limit to over come” that makes me feel better. Go across the street after the interview to buy a pack of smokes, have a cool conversation with the cashieer (her daughter has my birthday) and go home. I get home and get a call asking if I want to schedule a second interview. WHAT!? Yeah, that’s cool. Rest of the day is pretty univentful. Worked out for the first time in months, killed it, procrastinated on homework, broke my diet, but things ARE changing. It’s weird.
Day 6 rest, current day:
More to come, got some stuff to do.