Dropped it😂
It’s not for me now.
I am like you for now, not financially good.
That is why they recommend you AM and emperor first.
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Heh, yeah that’s what the Khan does alright.
Not much else to report. Social relationships are continuing to heal from My Little Darkage with Total Breakdown. Today is going pretty well, far more social and IDGAF then Ive been since starting the journey. There is a little washout recon today, nothing major, just a little twinge in the chest.
Pretty confident about dropping BL to focus my mental powers on Khan and physical shifting. Still thinking about rebuilding my physical custom to add a few more physical shifting modules.
I’m half considering adding something to help with self-love, but then again, maybe I should just not. There is always a temptation to fall for Shiney object syndrome, but maybe I should just ignore the urge. Heck, why can’t I just guide Khan to give me some self love? Sound like a better idea than running yet another title.
What I want from Khan is emotional freedom.
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Washout Day 5
Recon is intense today still committed. That’s all.
Love you all.
Might disappear for a bit again!
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Seems like everything is telling me to stay on Khan, but boy oh boy has today been a rough day emotionally. Like really rough. I mean, I guess I’m not being totally honest about why it’s been rough, some stuff happened…So I guess I’m actually dealing with it pretty well, hey! Today doesn’t need to be all bad. I’m dealing with a crappy situation better than I would have in the past. See, there is always a silver lining! Maybe I need to be more emotionally honest with myself.
I’ll stay on Khan, but I really need to rethink my approach to subliminals. Khan is tough, sure, but it doesn’t need to be THIS tough, I don’t think. So I’m going to start by dropping BL and cutting the listening frequency. It seems like there’s a graph with pain on one axis and results on the other, I think I want to decrease the pain part of the graph, even if it means slower results. Sometimes slow is fine.
So, tomorrow I guess I’ll listen to one loop of TR, then take a rest, then listen to one loop of Dancer.
TR
rest
Dancer
rest.
Cuts listening in half. Let’s start there.
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I think that is a good first step to reducing recon, you might find that less listening gives you more results.
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Dropping Khan bro. It’s actually been nothing but trouble. I’m going back on the programs that work and make me feel good. I just had one of the worst nights of my life, worst nights since I started Subliminal club. I’m raw, I’m emotional, I’m shocked by my behavior.
It’s just not for me. The program is just trouble for me. I’m walking a different path.
Now it’s time to rebuild and turn all this stuff around, and I’m not gonna do it with Khan.
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Update.
The Khan is dead. I have theories as to why this has been bad and I haven’t listened to myself.
" Again, be warned – Khan is not an easy subliminal to run, especially Khan Complete. You will become intimately aware of your innermost sides, good and bad, and you will likely become a polarizing individual – some will love you, some will hate you, but all will respect you. Your relationships will be changed for the better, but there will be tumultuation."
My experience and the sales page have led me to believe that difficulty is the point of the program. Which is fine, but that isn’t my path.
Khan has been hell since day one, and I really struggle to see many positives. In general, it seems like my life is getting worse. There have certainly been many less-than-desirable outcomes.
I’ll be returning to Emperor.
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Is this from stage 1 or have you run the other stages as well?
Damn, healing subs or stages can be rough as I thought and as SC warned. I really want to go on that journey someday though. Perhaps during vacation.
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Stage 1 and Stage 2. From what I’ve experienced so far, I would say that Khan is for very advanced users, who have the freedom and stability to endure some pretty dramatic and possibly frightening challenges. Waiting for vacation would be a good idea. I wouldn’t stack at all. Ideally, you want to have a very stable life that can endure a lot of turmoil. You need to have your daily routines on point. You need to have money in the bank. You need to either be single or be in a really strong and trusting relationship. It’s very serious stuff and I have no idea how deep the hole goes before you finally crawl back out. For me, this seemed to be a journey to rock-bottom and then rebuilding. I’m just not at a place in my life for that stuff. It’s too risky and too much damage has been done 
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This is Khan dealing with all the shit you have buried inside.
It’s working amazingly well on you, but it hurts. I’ve been there and given up too.
Now I’m going back to Khan because I still haven’t dealt with all this shit either.
If you stick with Khan, one year from now you’ll be absolutely different person than you are today.
Value is linked to difficulty, the more difficult the path is right now, the more “valuable”/badass your life will be in the future 
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Just ran a loop of Emperor to prevent myself from going back to Khan. Khan will need to wait, I’ve got a life to fix.
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Are you still planning on running Wanted?
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I’m not sure yet…I’m going to start with Emperor and go from there. Might just revise the good old-fashioned Wanted and Emperor stack that worked so well for me. Right now I need to turn some shit around. Might add in something to deal with anxiety and fear like Sanguine, True Social, or Daredevil. Probably Sanguine, it’s the most general and maybe the “easiest” and I’m pretty gun-shy at the moment…
Good news is that I’ve turned shit around before, so once Emperor kicks in, I’ll be able to start repairing this mess.
Did Emperor and Wanted not reduce your anxiety the first time around?
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It did actually. If I remember correctly, the anti-anxiety of Emperor was one of the reasons I ran it so long.
Wow yeah. Even during vacation perhaps you don’t want to spend that time with family trying to exorcise a demon 
But perhaps Khan is not truly what I need/want. Perhaps it’s exactly what I need. Nonetheless, I believe, with zero experience in heavy healing subs, that one should use a processing/release technique of some sort while using these subs. I think they bring forth or put a light on your weaknesses and dark aspect, past trauma and limiting beliefs, bring out painful/hurtful memories and so on. That in itself is tough experience, but this time ones goal is to process them in a healthy manner and perhaps one can’t changw, but learn to accept those dimensions of ones being.
But what do I know, I am just speaking of my plan if I ever go through one program, that I will use what has helped me in the past in dealing with light healing and trauma release. Perhaps this titles will bring out stuff that are too rough.
Maybe one should only listen again once they’ve dealt with the stuff that were brought up since the last listen.
So many possibilities and ways, and there is no wrong way of dealing with it the best one sees fit.
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I think you’re right about the processing/release thing. Any techniques that you could use would certainly help the process.
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I just need to figure out a good time and place. We shall see 
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@Risky You’re spot on about the processing and releasing part.
This post by @Skadoosh helped me out a ton when I was restarted my journey with subclub.
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Wow great post, thanks for sharing.
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