I think I spiritually awakened. Need some guidance

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#1

I think i have awakened coz i feel trancendent peace at times and:
My awakening (i think) makes me able to project thoughts to others mind.
The problem is this happens all the time. So, no thought of my remains private.
Before u say, go to the doctor, I did go to the doctor. And after talking to them a while I directly asked them the question: “can u hear my thoughts?”
Their answer was: “there is absolutely nothing wrong wid u from the blood tests and the limited time we interacted (30 mins). And on the question of can we hear ur thoughts, we can neither confirm nor deny it. I have prepared a report for u, take this to other hospital. We are not qualified for this.” I’m going to another doc tomorrow.
And obviously i can see people react to my thoughts: some do the exact opposite of my thought, some get shocked at what i am thinking then quickly hide it, some of my thoughts r so stupid that they laugh out loud etc.

Now, unfortunately my family is emotionally abusive. It is really easy to pile on a guy when u can hear his every darkest past history or thought.

And another issue is my empathy has sky rocketted. All my life i’ve never known if the emotions i were feeling were mine or others, but there was tons of emotional trauma preventing whoseever emotions they were from making the brain run. But now, those traumas are gone. I just end up thinking extremely dark thoughts when my abusive family throw negativity at me. I can control my peace but my shadow side is so bad that it keeps taunting my family (via my thoughts and irl) and even showing them how exactly to break my peace.

I have a theory on why this happens (but idk what to believe anymore, my family are straight up making me doubt my sanity): i think i think my purpose is to dig out evil then heal it (coz i am so awesome facepalm). So i just keep taunting people to attack me energetically and emotionally. And trying to help them. (But they just keep on attacking more and more the more i show them how i think)

Also, i complusively draw energy from people (while making them feel trancendent peace). I realized today that i do this and i should draw energy from nature instead, but my family has figured out (wid the help of my shadow telling them) i instinctively connect wid a person (to help them) if they show any kind of vulnerability. So anytime i try to draw from nature they just hijack my energetic channel to make me dependent on them for the energy which means they can control my thoughts and actions by controlling their emotions.

I think sanguine would help for the peace, but it still doesn’t fix the me drawing energy from people issue and how easy it is to connect wid me.
And i would like to control this thought projection, alchemist sounds good for both these issues. Or maybe dragon reborn. Recommendations guys? Subs or otherwise.

And the interesting thing is i think i can survive no matter what happens to me. I have no idea how but there is a deep trust in myself, the universe and subclub.

Im running pheonix + love bomb btw (kinda overexposing tho: i do pheonix (microloop) + lovebomb (microloop) everyday. I was doing maximum 3 microloops of pheonix everyday past month. So my anguish might be recon, but my life situation is getting worse everyday (so i might need to rely on sanguine or smthing for a while for the time being): the more i grow and achieve peace the more devilish ways do my family find to attack me. Its like looking at complete darkness and lack of humanity)

Even tho my life situation is getting worse coz im getting attacked, i have never felt more myself. Peace, happiness, kindness, reintegration of all my suppressed emotions etc etc… i cant even mention them all.

I’m also thinking of going to a buddhist monastery and getting help going through this awakening (its that right?) and my new power to talk to people directly inside their head (its a blessing right?) (i can only project my thoughts tho, i cant invade other’s privacy, but i can viscerally feel their emotions).

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#2

Focus on your actions more than on your thoughts

What do you want to build and do in this life?

Thoughts are the seeds; actions, the fruit.

What fruit are you growing?

Don’t worry too much about awakening. It’s actually not that big of a deal. :muscle:t5:

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#3

Thank you malkuth. I’m sure i’ll understand the wisdom behind ur post someday in the future.

But i still need to fix this thought projection issue and my empathy being so high people can directly pump negativity into it (via my energetic channel) (they can do it coz i know i’ll help them… But some end up just keep pumping negativity into me instead of listening to my guidance, and this makes me think these people need the healing the most and i don’t break the connection coz i want to help them).

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#4

That’s not an awakening issue; it’s a weak boundaries issue. I deal with it sometimes.

As far as subs go, you’d want to play programs that strengthen your boundaries.

Ascension
Emperor
Khan — if you’re ready for that particular odyssey; (I’m not)
Dragon Reborn (yet another doozy)

And so on.

If you don’t see the connection right now, trust me. The issues you’re describing are very much connected to taking action in line with your values and goals.

Might sound less sexy than Awakening; but it’s actually closer to it.

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#5

Thank you again malkuth.
Can you give me more advice?
Even if i run emperor, i’ll still end up connecting wid people and drawing energy from them.
So, its like i will play the status game and win then in the end ask them: it was all a game… Now do u love me, i care about u soo much? (So maybe emperor + lovebomb)
My ego is absolutely rampant. Everytime pheonix heals something, I think i’m absolutely better than everyone else, but i still care about them all (but i’m still better) facepalm. At the same time, i can feel trancendent peace for hours. Then after that i think I’m so goddamn awesome. And everyone can hear my thoughts bragging about how cool i am.

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#6

Opinion:

Your problem is not that you’re connecting with people and drawing energy from them. That is natural and happens all of the time.

Your problem is that you’re getting overwhelmed by connecting with people and drawing energy from them.

It’s stimulating you and causing you to lose your sense of balance.

Build up your inner strength and structure, and you’ll see that what you’re describing is Interpersonal Influence. You just happen to be sensitive to the psychic aspects of it.

How do you build up your inner strength and structure? By exercising and practicing Will and Intention. Which is done by? You guessed it. Taking principled action.

(It’s actually done by taking any intentional action; but principled action is a pretty good variety of action, so might as well go for a good one.)

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#7

Do not worry you have definitely not spiritually awakened, you’re just having experiences, and you need to focus on your heart more than anything else to balance yourself out.

#8

Did you ever try to set up boundaries to thus phenomenon willingly?
Like visualizing a golden sphere, or one of diamond around you with the intention, that it block all outgoing signals you don’t want to send?
I remember a similar case from my coaching class, and that was an advice that helped.

#9

Sorry to say that but that doesnt sound healthy. If you are convinced of it, it sounds like a serious mental illness. Thought transference is one of the core symptoms of schizophrenia and psychosis.
You should urgently get this checked out by a doctor who specialises in mental health problems.

Maybe you are just overly sensitive at the moment and need to relax a bit. I wouldn’t listen to any more subs until this condition has subsided and your state of health has been fully clarified.

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#10

My abusive family breaks any visualization immediately. The way to break a visualization created to control energy is to dump similar feeling energy into the person while simultaneously triggering fears and other negative emotions. The visualization will stop working cos ur brain begins to associate the visualization wid negative energy.

Thats my hypothesis.
Thanks tho. It could have worked. I’ll keep it on mind.

#11

Fair point. I will consult wid more qualified docs and institutions.

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#12

I wish you all the best and hope that everything will be fine again.

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#13

I know it will, i might have to live wid the monks for a while tho… Haha until i can fix the thought projection and hyper empathy.

(If multiple docs deem that this is indeed real and not happening inside my head)

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#14

It’s really tough to deal with that level of empathy, especially when you’re in an emotionally abusive environment. Have you tried any techniques or practices to help you stay grounded and centered? It might also be helpful to establish clear boundaries to protect your own mental and emotional health. I hope things start to ease up for you soon.

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#15

Honestly, i’ve just been freestyling on my limited info (coz i had / have no idea what i’m going through). I did buy a kindle book on dealing wid narcissists as empaths but amazon temporarily barred my account. I’m not buying it again.

What techniques do u recommend?

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#16

I don’t know much about you, your circumstances etc, but if you’re living in such an abusive environment, did you ever consider moving out?
If you earn any kind of money, or can somehow make enough to survive on your own, I would imagine leaving the bad influence behind would help your healing process immensely.
Even some shelter would probably help.

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#17

Getting a job and moving out is a good idea. Here are my rationalizations for not doing it:

  • its normal living wid parents here. (But obvi, the situation changes for abusive ones).
  • i need to know: is this darkness i’m facing my own darkness reflected onto me? It might be the case. And if it is this: then my darkness was gonna pop out sooner or later. Better fix it now.
  • and there are certain comforts wid living wid parents. And i might just be lazy. (I’ve never lived away from them all my life).

But i digress. It is a valid solution. And i will keep it in the back of my head.

#18

Absolutely correct (Thought insertion - Wikipedia).

Not that Wikipedia is a way to diagnose yourself - only with a mental health professional.

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#19

So, I’ve been quite energy-sensitive since childhood. Then, in the early 2000s, I got into the Xtreme Mind forum and further honed my sensitivity. Not sure if that was a good idea or not, haha. I’m so attuned to energy that I can sense even subtle fluctuations. I find it necessary to take breaks from people and limit prolonged exposure to their energy fields. This has led me to pursue a career path where I can work independently, now running my own business. Over time, managing this sensitivity becomes easier, and coping mechanisms do develop.

Meditation, walking barefoot in nature or your backyard, and using grounding mats indoors can all be helpful practices. Engaging in creative activities like painting and music can also offer some relief. It’s a good way to release some of that energy. It’s crucial to establish clear boundaries with others, especially toxic individuals, even if they’re family members. While maintaining some level of relationship, distance can be necessary for your well-being.

Energy is felt through the nervous system, making it essential to understand how your nerves transmit energy throughout your body. Exploring harmal and its effects on energy purification by means of fumigation may be beneficial to you. In moments of crisis, I occasionally rely on gabapentin, which helps numb the nerves and increase tolerance to energy. Consulting a doctor about its usage could be worthwhile.

An interesting aspect of my sensitivity is being able to sense charged items like talismans or digital sigils by simply placing my hands over them. Additionally, i can feel when audio has been imbued with energy. :wink:

Hope this helps.

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#20

Everything makes sense now. Great response, lol.

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