I have a vision of love ♥️

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#22

Day 1 ~ Love Bomb solo cycle has begun

I listened to a full loop, but I’m going to see how I feel each listening day and adjust the time accordingly, if necessary.

Sometimes around 10 minutes I have a light cry with certain titles, so this may be my sweet spot.

I invited someone to join me for coffee and yoga and they declined. This triggered me for a moment &then passed. My mind went to reasons why they would decline.

I looked at myself in the cafe mirror just now feeling beautiful and noticed myself thinking more lovingly about my appearance.

On the drive here I felt super relaxed, almost sleepy like.

I hope today’s yoga class goes well. Sometimes my inner critic starts critiquing the teachers pace, tone and sequence flow. Being a yoga teacher myself, I find I can’t help it sometimes. She is a lovely teacher, but sometimes I question how her class is titled “gentle yoga” when she has us go through sun salutations / vinyasa flows. Some of the sequencing has hatha elements weaved through at least.

I love a good balanced class.

Edit: One of the cafe workers just said, “your tattoos are stunning.” :heart_eyes:

Edit 2: yoga class was perfection! I even did some self-reiki on myself during Shavasana.

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#23

Loving this journal keep up the good work.

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#24

Day 3 ~ LB full loop

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#25

A friend reached out earlier offering to pick me up and take me for dinner wherever I wanted to go.

I ran into one of my spiritual teachers at a cafe and she gave me two hugs. :smiling_face_with_three_hearts:

My son’s dad was super friendly at drop off.

It seems like my days are filling up in more lovely ways.

Anything not of good rapport seems to automatically fade away from my consciousness, but not in a suppressing sense. It’s like positivity takes its place.

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#26

Day 5 ~ LB

A cat walked in my door just now… I opened the door to spend a moment with the sun and noticed the neighbours cat just chilling. She loves coming over to my property even more lately.

I woke up to a message from a female asking if my boobs are real and that they are nice. :laughing: Seductress baby!

I got a compliment of my butt last night.

It’s natural for me to reinforce the objectives from Seductress at this point meaning I still take daily actions from it and credit the sub for its help.

“Of course that would happen.”

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#27

I realize how much this song and album means to me because it’s a way I connect with the little girl with big dreams within me.

After I finished my full loop of LB I put this on and began to cry as I sang my heart out. I have it on repeat. I used to think this song was all about my relationship with my ex fiancé. It was the song I wanted to walk down the aisle to at our wedding I eventually called off out of fear or maybe out of love and not settling? Right person wrong time or wrong person. I dunno. I keep dreaming of us though. Last night it was him and I with our daughter a few years older.

I pulled the gypsy card from my one oracle deck which triggered the tears at first. How is a mom of 3 kids with different dads able to be in her gypsy spirit? Travel between worlds when I sleep? :laughing:

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Before kids I dreamed of what this card entails but I’m not so sure how to do it with the way my life has turned out. I love my kids but I don’t enjoy the feeling of being stuck in ways.

How do I break free within/without and have it all without any sacrifices? Where everyone’s happy and content? My bag of mixed nuts family. :heart:🥹

I made things pretty complicated. Why?
Why did I choose to incarnate here this lifetime with such a mess? It’s a beautiful mess, but still very messy.

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#29

I’m a cry baby today :laughing: soo many tears. I’m not depressed or anything.

At yoga I noticed how much my hips are balancing out more and opening up deeper in asanas like pigeon pose and deer pose. (Yin)

Normally when I switch from right to left I have a little tension, but today the switch was so graceful. I’ve dedicated 3 days per week to classes for awhile now. It’s definitely working.

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#30

Day 6 ~ rest day

This sub is hitting me pretty deeply.

I’m feeling disconnected from the man I spend most of my days with lately. I don’t feel the romance. I feel suspicious.

I don’t feel like we are on the same page or even the same chapter or book sometimes.

He has BPD and ADHD along with active recovery from Kratom. It’s like I’m on guard waiting for the relapse to happen. Sniffing out lies or inconsistencies.

I know better than to continue picturing someone in an unloving way. I know I have the ability to imagine differently, to perceive differently.

What I picture in another reflects something back within me that I keep giving life to. In Dr. Joe Vitales book ‘Zero Limits’ he shares of a time when Dr Hew Len used the following question to aid healing through Ho’oponopono. “What’s going on in me that this came up in them? How can I be 100% responsible? Thank you. I love you. I’m sorry.”

It just seems like I’m becoming detached from the possibility I can move past what happened. He seems fine but I most certainly feel like some bs is gonna happen again. Maybe it’s just that I don’t accept who he is and that’s fine too. I can be pretty harsh with my commentary towards his actions.

I’d like to be kinder.

I also have my hang ups with my ex fiancé.

I’ll continue to focus on loving me and going after my dreams. Expansion. Growth. Highest timeline.

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#31

If you ever should need the perspective of addict that lied to the love of his life about his addiction, you can ask me :grimacing:

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#33

Day 7 ~ LB full loop

Had a brief cry while listening to Mariah Carey after LB listening.

Pulled the vision card from my one oracle deck.

Here’s some highlights I wrote down from it:

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I have many abilities and the capacity to do numerous things with my talent, time and energy.

I have a meaningful and focused purpose.

Love makes all things possible.

Vision is a state of consciousness, a way of being that enables access to that reality.

I can tap into what that vision feels like to me anytime.

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Day 8 ~ rest day

I keep seeing things related to LOVE everywhere right now!

Past couple days have been calmer in my home.

While driving my youngest to school yesterday there was a man tailgating my Jeep. I had a turn coming up so I moved into the other lane to let him pass me quickly and my whole coffee dumped into my cup holders. I didn’t even get mad!

Someone cleaned out my Jeep for me a couple hours later in my driveway! :metal:t2::sunglasses:

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#35

Hi @TheEmpress i know that you are using LB however based on your personal experience how does it compare to LBFH ?

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With LBFH, I noticed a lot of people opening up to me about their problems. A lot more focus on other people than myself which I didn’t really enjoy.

I only listened to one cycle of experimental LBFH and one cycle of the upgraded version.

With LB, it’s more internal with a focus on myself. I feel no guilt about taking care of and putting me first. The love I give myself radiates outward but it feels organic and without any overwhelm.

Similarly, I have people being generous and friendly with me. I was receiving a bit more gifts and freebies with LBFH than LB though.

On both titles I hear people expressing their love for me.

I love how with LB it’s more self focused for me.

Edit: I experienced more laughter with LBFH.

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#37

I’m noticing myself reflecting back on the experiences I had when I first listened to SC subs.

I understand that the subs just help bring out what’s already within me.

I attracted many male suitors and used seduction effortlessly. Sometimes I didn’t understand why men would basically drop to their knees worshipping the ground I walk on. :flushed: After some time this was no longer appealing for me and quickly shut that down.

I was able to confidently speak my mind and let people go from my life or establish new boundaries and honoir those boundaries.

I became more attuned with my emotions understanding wtf is going on inside of me.

My manifestation abilities became more direct and focused. Better use of visualization utilizing all the senses.

I have become a stronger and more balanced yogi.

Deeper connection with my shadow self. My internal parts that were neglected and denied are more harmonious. It feels like I’m becoming more deeply connected with my higher self while also acknowledging my humanness.

I’ve stepped it up a notch with the awareness about being raised by an emotionally unavailable and hypercritical father who also turned to me about marital problems with my mom. This created multilayered intra/interpersonal issues for me throughout the years. This made it quite difficult to work as part of team or group.

Typically when you are raised with that father-daughter dynamic it creates a core wound that leads to perfectionism, emotionally disconnected relationships where you play the saviour and fixer and over sharer.

I attracted partners to play out these experiences but now I’m no longer interested in playing those games. It’s time for fun and enjoyment.

I truly enjoy being alone loving up myself. Giving me all the things I tried seeking externally yet never felt complete.

Sharing these experiences without emotional intensity feels so liberating. From this new place I am better able to support my clients and be a better mom, friend, leader, etc.

Little me is thankful I finally gave her the love attention and care she needed…… :black_heart::heart:🥹

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#38

Sweet story!

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#39

Sorry if I ask something to obvious, but sometimes I’m still not so sure about wording 🥲(English being my second language and all).

Did you mean martial or marital? :sweat_smile:

#40

Typo hahah
Marital ****

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#41

Day 9 ~ full loop LB

I noticed myself thinking about Genesis the other day and today DR Phoenix. Not sure if that’s recon or intuitive nudging, or maybe LB is helping me pull up the scripting from those titles in my subconscious from previous listening.

I have been thinking a lot about my purpose and my fears that have held me back.

I feel a lot of healing going on within my bladder/kidney meridian. I am peeing more again like I did with experimental LBFH.

I am reading about my rising sign in astrology which is Libra ruled by Venus. Venus was the Goddess of beauty, relationships and love. Pleasant and diplomatic. Elegant and charm.

I am apparently seen this way by the outer world.

I have been crying lots.

Yesterday I was rocked to the core while celebrating my 11 year olds birthday. I somehow managed to pull it off. My teenage son told me to be happy and think positive like I always tell him to be. :laughing:

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