Exactly! 
UPDATE:
The Lows: I spent around 2 hours just feeling tears drop off my eyes, thinking about everything wrong with my life (forgetting all the things to be grateful for), and all the things I want to achieve but how far off I am. Just being a little about it. Although I did not just cry, I was crying and learning about how to have better interactions with women.
The Highs: Suddenly, I felt a rush of power and positivity. And felt really in the mood to go talk to some women. So, without hesitation, I went and took a shower, put one some clothes and cologne, and went out determined to talk to 10 girls at least.
I went out, and I was enjoying myself. Girls reacted very positively although most told me they have a boyfriend. I felt in the zone.
The difference I noticed compared to PS IT: With PS, I am more a playful fire that is strong and warm and crackling with sexuality and fun energy. With Khan TB, I am more of a water whirlwind of sexuality and strength. I joke less, but my desire is stronger, and my dominance is more pronounced.
I met a really cool girl, we connected. We talked about our lives, our past, our hopes and dreams, with some jokes and some flirtatious comments here and there (this is one of the things I am implementing. I get too high of a flake rate, and now I discovered that I do about 80% having fun and 20% knowing about the girl and me, which seems to be too little. What i learned is I should flirt and play about 40%, and get to know her about 60%).
Funnily, when I was going home after (15 approaches! I went out to do 10, but was having so much fun, I went to 15 until I had to stop myself because I gotta do other stuff). Anyways, I saw this super hot girl dressed like a japanese teenage school girl standing in front of a grocery store, and she kept looking at me. So I went over, talked to her, and she was giggling. But little did I know, she just wanted to make her boyfriend jealous by inviting me to approach. And after a few minutes, this humongous piece of meat, a true muscle head monster came out of the grocery store and stood next to this tiny girl that was about 1/5th his size. I was a bit surprised, but recovered fast. I told him that he had a beautiful girl and he was lucky, and he laughed and wished me a good day. And we went our separate ways.
i love this. I am rediscovering my sense of life and sense of adventure.
Khan Total Breakdown is a beast. I am trusting the process. I know I will go through a number of lows and depressed moments throughout this month as it works its magic and cleans my limitations. So I am okay with that. This experience today of recovering and having fun after being so low that I was crying for 2 hours showed me that this is part of the process, a temporary setback, a much needed cleansing.
So to healing, success, and beyond!
I know it was not the proper way or the right thing to do. But I really really was not in the mood for games or bullshit at that moment. So I really just told her to go fuck herself and left her alone in the date.
In 2 months, I can meet cool girls who are down to earth and who won’t play games like that. Or if they do, I might be in a better mood to deal with it. But in that moment, the only response I had was to rage quit and tell her to go fuck herself. It was the first time I did it, but I felt so relieved, even proud of myself.
