Day 5
Started off the day scrolling through twitter while listening to music. Though, I noticed a change. Listening to music didn’t seem to trigger the daydreams anymore. Like usually, when I listen to music I constantly daydream about multiple scenarios (most of them being centred around grabbing attention), which then leads to me feeling excited. But this time, none of that happened. As a result I didn’t find the listening experience enjoyable. Got bored and cut it off in 30 minutes.
Next I felt the urge to go out jogging. I haven’t jogged/exercised in months. I needed to expel that “lazy ass energy” you get when you stay indoors for too long. So I went out and jogged for about 30 mins, probably would’ve gone up to an hour if I wasn’t wearing the most uncomfortable shoes of all time. Got back to my room and did some pushups for about 30 mins. Currently following this extensive workout guide by https://www.reddit.com/r/bodyweightfitness/ since I don’t have access to the gym at the moment. After I was done with the workout, I cleaned up my room.
Tried listening to music later in the day and it was the same experience I had earlier in the morning.
Dreams
This one was a bit scary. I was paralysed, laying in bed in this pitch dark room, with moon light shining through the window. And then there was an ape, hanging on the window with one hand, staring at me. I couldn’t move, I was in my head, thinking in fear if it was going to eat me or not. That’s all I can remember.