High On My Own Supply

[Michel]

The things I’m attributing to Chosen seem to actually be from WANTED, like the royal aura, inner sexiness, wanting to dress up, unhurried stance and the push-pull. Also self-care is taking root - today was a chill in the café and wander moment. No-one else, just me. I’m going to see if I can upgrade my wardrobe on a budget. That may well be the future - riches coming my way, abundance and deservedness, like my whole status got upgraded.

Today’s Wanted report:

It feels weird to be desired - but those are the blocks yet to uncover. I guess if you listen to titles called Chosen and WANTED, what else did I expect? But still… Whilst about, a young, rich woman walked past me by the docks and for a brief second she melted and gave me a look of "if only I had you right now", and I definitely would have, she looked sensual yet classy.

[Michel]

Blimey, 100 posts already…

Wanted and the confidence conundrum

Right now I am experiencing a Wanted self confidence boost, it seems real this time and I know why… Beliefs that popped up at the start of my subliminal journey have returned to be challenged:

"How dare you think well of yourself, who the fuck do you think you are?"
" You think you’re a big man now?"
“You were never loyal to this family” (Mafia vibes here)
“How dare you be better than mum and dad”
“How dare you want more out of your life?” You think you’re better than us?"

I knew my parents didn’t know what to make of me. But instead of trying their best, they chose to cut me down before I could realise the emotional control were putting me under. They’re my parents, they were “right”.

But Wanted seem to love challenging this childhood prison and start saying “so fucking what”.
What would happen if I just thought:

"I am the shiznit"

Would I be beaten, exiled, abandoned again for daring to challenge the gods?

Not anymore.

Because those that beat me, exiled me, mocked and abandoned me - are dead.

It’s now safe to come out of the wardrobe.

And women do see me. I’m getting lingering eyes and looks of lust, accepting it and deciding to experiment with it. How bloody dare I…

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EDIT:
Once again the results are still coming in thick, usually when I’m so serene and chill

• a blonde woman with headphones could not keep her eyes off me.
• My art store regulars were keen and happy to chat. Twice today I decided to just poke fun at their setup and they loved it. Both are blonde.
• I’m easing into being more flirty.

[Michel]

Wanted is straight up sorcery.

Awkward situations happen when travelling. Imagine you’re minding your business when something catches my eye to the right. All I saw for a second was a woman stood up, head turned away from her man, giving me “that” look. Then I realised something profound.

I am actually powerful.

No-one should have that much power 🫣

How does it feel to literally turn heads?

How does it actually feel to have women indulge themselves whilst tilting their heads and give you that inviting longing stare? When I can comfortably embody the push/pull archetype without shame or pretense?

This is for real. I get so frustrated with these subliminal programs as they initially give small results before hitting a brick wall so thick that I could never break down. Not one program ever gave me maximum results within a month or two. But I think this is the real deal.

I’m in uncharted waters.

[MAkh]

Ah yeah, the brick wall feeling is so real

It takes a lot resilience, discipline and self awareness to keep pushing through I think

Probably another thing is faith. Faith that these subliminals work. But I think that comes with experience on them

[Michel]

Ever get the feeling that women seem to float around you around in the supermarket? Then smile when you know she knows?

Or maybe when she deliberately blocks your walking path, then gives you “that look”?

How about when attractive women seem to just be there when you’re vibing by yourself?

That’s WANTED!

I almost want to believe it’s permanent and yet there’s a fear of it not lasting. That subconscious wall which blocked everything good is gone, but still… Results have been patchy until now but now since last week WANTED results are building up - to the point where I stop asking myself “is she smiling at me?”, “is it me she’s turning to face from over there?”

Of course it’s me she’s desiring, who else?

When she looks excited when seeing me and is actively trying to seek me out, it’s for real.

Now I have to get used to being that guy for the first time in my life and look and feel the part. Feeling sexy and fulfilled within is on point, looking the part can wait until spring. Turning on the charm is a skill still in development - I still would like to approach and get flirty (S&S might help).

Roll on 2026 and a very sexy new year

[Michel]

I’ve switched over back to the custom name embed WANTED from a few months ago (with Perfection Manifestation) and immediately I felt a wave of grounded presence and an increasing certainty in my own selfhood wash over me. Embodying the archetype is getting easier day by day. Couldn’t believe how fast this worked.

Another side effect of burning off approval is I’ve let go of pining over and fantasising over unavailable women. It was an extension of that fear of success coming up - if a woman actually desires me, then something’s wrong… But giving up the trauma chase mentally has freed up so much head space that can just allow that WANTED will bring in stronger, real interest.

Case in point, I caught a cute strawberry blonde giving a longing stare and she returned a nice smile. Meanwhile another cute woman in blue playing chess on her phone felt so comfortable as to subtly lean against me, tied her hair up and stripped off her coat. This is getting so regular that I’m ready for the next stage up - solid approaches ❤️‍🔥

[oloy]

Superb results.
These new subs r freakin OP.

[Michel]

Another short recon episode trying to convince me to stop playing WANTED and I almost did, because I could feel my inner child still crying out to be loved and feeling empty inside. I took the opportunity to finally address my inner child hunger having cleared that earlier subconscious block. It’s scary how much our adult behaviours are shaped before the age of 8 and I was forever looking and searching to be completed but now it’s done. Self love, inner child love is permanent.

Another WANTED report:
Following that I walked into my local shop for groceries, then in walked an absolutely stunning black haired shorty in her 40s wearing thirst trap leggings. But something about this was different - instead of the inner boy needing her love, I felt aroused and attracted to her. I looked her up and down at her tight self without apology.
Absolutely shocked that this encounter - fulfilled, not looking for women - produced a stunner so soon. Must be the WANTED/PM Manifestation. She was most definitely a sexual candidate in my local area.

Self love/inner child healing produces MUCH stronger sub results.

[NewLease]

What’s PM Manifestation?

[Michel]

Perfection Manifestation, the module

[NewLease]

Cool, thanks.

[Michel]

freeing the inner child

Underwent some more inner child healing - Within a short time I’ve gone from shyness fear of rejection terror and fearing being abandoned - to zero fear, calm with others and free to interact with other healthy people.

It’s an absolute miracle.

Not behaving like an emotionally defensive robot and being free to do whatever I feel like it’s such a freeing feeling. There’s no more performing or seeking, hoping, begging for anyone anymore because I don’t need to. Talking with others loses it’s awkwardness and actually being honest is a welcome change.

I’ve finally recovered my authentic self

That doesn’t mean I’ll get my lost years back though. Careers, potential positive relationships and friends, enriching experiences I could have had without trauma boy running the show. I got the opposite instead.

So forgive me for reliving my 20s now.

Digging out LBFH to absolutely lock in unbelievable levels of self love so that inner child can finally feel seen, heard and appreciated - whatever happens and whoever does or doesn’t come and go - I love me and that’s all that matters

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WANTED wise I’m trialling DreamBoi with the following ludicrous situations:

• A Blonde who I’ve seen before sitting facing me made a “indirect” approach. I’ll have to open her next time…

• Afterwards a younger blonde chose to sit right next to me (something happening more and more) indirectly pushing up against me. Then an older blonde woman sat opposite her, wrapped her legs around her suitcase and directly challenged her - for me. This was being watched by a third woman sat with her boyfriend but she’s blatantly ignoring him and watching the competition unfold.

But mostly I’m leveraging the authenticity scripting from this title to anchor further my “true self”. I told you I want to redo my 20s…

[Michel]

@Michel

Got followed on IG by someone local (real person, not spam) who does Onlyfans… My “stalker” student once again is going to hunt me down for next semester

Whilst buying some more supplies, I got talking with a woman who also went to the same university as myself and was my usual charming self. Obviously it went well despite my sleep starved brain going into standby because WDB is running and felt no pressure to “close”. She twirled her hair of course…

And that feeds my sense of ease in just being myself - it is actually welcomed in the social space, not reviled and rejected (as I was in the past). It’s not alpha, but it’s not soft, it’s that sweet spot of relaxed masculine eroticism.

UPDATE: another IG follow from another local chick on Onlyfans, hmm. Not sure what to do now, slip into her DMs? Is this Wanted DreamBoi Online working overtime?

If there’s any kind of “recon” it’s the weird feeling of being accepted, by myself and then by others. Also accepting that whoever new comes in, there’s self respect and no way I’ll accept a toxic relationship anymore.

[Michel]

@Michel

I think a couple of my peers are starting to bid for my whole presence. I make it twice today women have approached me - one younger woman has approached me to start a conversation (she previously sat so close to me that I could feel her leaning up beside me). Another woman, more my age who I rarely know also gladly introduced herself. It was all light and pleasant…

…apart from the younger chick, who does approach me in quite a stern way and I’m not sure whether that’s her way of letting me know that she wants me to make a move on her.

THREE! count 'em. THREE women lined up opposite me on the way home, but the one that strongly WANTED me was a total baddie. She hid nothing in her mind and I let her know that I knew

Soulfit really works for me because I clearly see how my clothes expresses as a whole, I’m smiling, even smirking because of the quiet confidence of a man who never needed to impose on anyone. And Dreaming of Me is so regular, it feels like a reverent gift. More followers online too…

Did I mention that DreamBoi may be my favourite sub?

[Michel]

WDB. It makes women suck the tips of their fingers and readjust their bras in public.

In fact WDB had revealed a sense of unease within myself. Because the sub generates a sense of ease, I can now hear and see my lack of proper self esteem - I’m talking myself down, neglecting body care and accept wearing unflattering clothes. So a dose of Love Bomb should do the trick. Right now I can feel it working and it synergises well with WDB.

[Michel]

Had a recon session. It’s full moon after all

Not sure why but a whole load of abandonment emotions came up - seeing everyone all happy, partnered up with children and I’m still single. Then in the café I had a thought that the world may be better off without me. This was all prompted by an awkward evening out to the pub, I knew no-one, tried to get talking to a few people, but I knew in the back of my mind that they would rather not have me there.

I left after 30 minutes I tried to cheer myself up to no avail. Then I remembered that I’m in a part of town where I could just go into another place and enjoy myself.

So I did.

The paint and rave place. I was still upset but in my element, painting an accurate portrait in record time. The compliments I always get are fantastic.

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I’m proud of turning my mindset around, even if no other fucker sees it. From escaping into another realm to remembering why I was here in the first place. So I guess the moral of the story is find your passion. Make it your core and walk through life with it. More Self belief.

[Parsifal]

@Michel

painting an accurate portrait in record time.

Just if you want to share some of your art, there’s an Art thread for Artists in the lounge.

[Michel]

The space before the kiss

Well not quite, as I had a tutorial with a new female colleague. Being a failed alpha I tried to set the theme for the session by giving her the task of compiling ideas, but she neutralised that pretty quickly.

So as with WANTED DreamBoi I stopped flexing and eased back into myself. I intentionality played with the gaps in between thoughts, I let the silence exist - and it felt like sweet soft erotic tension in the air. I had her melting into sensual rapture, numerous times she traced her lips with her fingers and ruffled her hair.

We had a good talk, she was very informative and sparky, however there were moments when I felt like I was qualifying myself to her (that needs to stop btw, I am good enough). On the whole even though it was a “formal” tutorial I felt confident enough to experiment with the DreamBoi features and let the pregnant pauses hang in the air and she responded like a motherfucker. It’s a shame she wasn’t available…

[Michel]

Controversial thought:

I’m so glad to be out of a relationship!

I mean, what’s not to like? More autonomy, increased freedom, more self love. Really am seeing the benefits of not being coupled now, which for someone who desperately wanted a relationship is some mental switch. Maybe I’m more comfortable with exuding love rather than hoping for it to arrive. Don’t chase it, Be it.
The idea of being WANTED is still weird to me, why are people sitting next to me, aren’t I a lowly piece of shit like society told me early on? People want to be near me? MAYBE the men still have a hard time letting me exist.

DreamBoi is still doing its work, a young alternative chick, with maroon hair, a bandana and yellow blouse sitting opposite me. I could see several women were relaxing into my field. At times she closed her eyes (the Dream of Me), even extending her feet wide outwards towards me to grab more. She also did that blouse breast rub to discharge all erotic energy…

Generally I feel more natural self love on this sub and permission to express myself more because it has my back. It also seems to piss off certain “males”, you know the ones - hateful, jealous… must be my dreamy energy.

[Michel]

More and more self love is pouring out from my heart and it was immediately recognised by other female commuters. WANTED DreamBoi is working not only for me but for potential new partners. I see and feel that more women recognise and appreciate my DreamBoi vibe, it’s getting regular that I get longing looks. leaned in, being shown erotic signs of interest and most times trancing in and out of dream state.

Case in point, an awesome young redhead punk woman with pink lipstick, tattoos and see through tank top straight away voluntarily leaned in straight away opposite me.

Another benefit of DreamBoi is recovering quickly when things are unexpected, like a heavy police presence at one of the stations and being searched, inside I was raging but managed to regain composure and self worth. I had a feeling of doom and being judged by a forces more powerful than me but that inner chatter is gone.

I remembered the Eleanor Roosevelt quote:

Nobody can take my self worth away from me without permission