High On My Own Supply

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#81

I get what you’re saying Fractal but if the stated aim of WANTED is to “be the man women chase” and I react in the manner of “no, it’s your self esteem actually”, then surely a self esteem sub would correct this in a more effective way? Besides I’ve took a week to think about this in case it was some kind of subtle recon.

But honestly I’m tired of it. Tired of the goddamn chase. Tired of having to figure out what I ought to do to maximise my own appeal to others. Tired of figuring out how to play the “game”. Most of all tired of externalising my self worth.

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#82

You’re not wrong and it all comes down to what you want to do. I just propose it doesn’t have to be either or you know?

These are totally valid concerns

But I do want to show you some of the objectives from the copy for WANTED. Because I find it interesting how your frustration aligns with the similar wording and concepts. I’ve never actually read it until now, but it’s really similar to a lot of the stuff you’ve been talking about

The Constant Chase

This module makes being approached by beautiful women a natural, ongoing part of your life. Instead of effort or strategy, women take the first step—starting conversations, seeking closeness, and finding reasons to be near you. Social spaces transform into opportunities where attention flows in your direction without prompting. You aren’t just noticed—you’re pursued, with women showing curiosity and desire openly. Being surrounded by beauty becomes normal, a constant reinforcement of your value and attractiveness. Each approach deepens the sense that you are the prize, and that women feel compelled to compete for your attention.

Seduction Without Chains

This module removes the rigid rules and expectations often tied to attraction. There’s no script to follow, no rituals or forced steps. Seduction flows freely, on your time and your terms. You don’t need dates or structured situations to create intimacy—connection can spark in any moment, whether casual, playful, or unexpected. Women are drawn to the authenticity of someone who moves without pressure, someone who is unapologetically himself. The freedom creates ease, and that ease amplifies desire, because nothing feels rehearsed. Life itself becomes the stage for attraction, where every encounter carries potential without obligation or pretense.

Wholeness in Connection

This module transforms intimacy with women into a source of deep healing. Every interaction, from conversation to closeness, dissolves old patterns of neediness, shame, or unworthiness. Instead of seeking validation, you feel complete, confident, and at ease in their presence. The company of women affirms your strength and attractiveness, reinforcing your value without effort. Moments of affection or desire become medicine for the soul, leaving you lighter, freer, and more self-assured. With each connection, emotional weight is released, and what remains is a steady sense of worth that no longer depends on approval.

Note – this is an extremely profound module. Tackling neediness, shape, desperation, unworthiness, etc., is important, but adding such direct healing would turn WANTED into a healing title. Instead, we utilize the natural healing energy generated through genuine male-female interactions to easily dissolve these issues, without any burden on the user’s system. Enjoy your interactions, and you’ll notice a wonderful transformation happening that will lead you to becoming more and more WANTED.

Also keep in mind that while WANTED might not be the most direct way to tackling self esteem issues, the NSE seems to have come about because external experiences carry a HUGE amount of advantages and sometimes the more indirect way can contribute to greater change than a head on approach.

I just want to say though I totally empathize on trying to figure out the right combination of things. It’s really tough. I’ve found that in moments of stress or feeling low I default to old coping patterns. I’m not sure how it is for you, but mine was always isolation and I’ll start gravitating towards subs that cut out the human equation which is ironically necessary for more growth. Life is strange.

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#83

Think you’re touching on the roots oof the blockage here. So much of the development still revolves around other people and their validation.

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#84

@Michel what I’m going to say next is just my perspective, so take it with a grain of salt.

Every time I read your post I’m like “damn this dude is processing the script on a deep level.” Yes, this is recon.

You don’t need another sub to cultivate self love, Wanted is doing the job already. Any other self love sub will probably take you through this same recon, till you integrate it. If anything add a sub that helps you navigate through recon.

  • Do something that keeps your body in slow consistent motion (eg cleaning) and be present while doing it.
  • Then go back and write everything that passed through your mind while moving.
  • Then read the sales copy again, @Fractal_Explorer has done a good job posting some parts. The underlying patterns behind this recon will jump out at you.
  • Then all that’s left is to be patient yourself and consistent with the sub.
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#85

You could think of it this way

You will cultivate deep self love and self esteem both for your “self” and physical form. Being chased is just the extra part of being that way.

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#86

:person_in_lotus_position: This is deep!

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#87

Jeez, looking back at the posts above and all of your replies, maybe something really deep is about to be eliminated. Your keeping me accountable which I don’t know how to thank you all for.

I have an idea of what the monster in the closet is:

It inherently feels “wrong” to develop my own sense of self, as if doing so is disagreeing with my inherent “badness”. Developing self worth feels like I’m being a “traitor” to the “superior” people who prescribed my worth in the first place. I must appeal to and please the “superior” people to get a sense of approval and hope that I get it, instead of “illegally” claiming independent self esteem.

This is all childhood narcissistic stuff. Who was in charge of my self esteem? A woman. My mother.

So this is why it hits so hard, a painful neverending search for approval when the “illegal” shortcut is easier. I’ll give WANTED another cycle and see where this ends up, but this is guy wrenchingly hard.

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