High On My Own Supply

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#107

Another short recon episode trying to convince me to stop playing WANTED and I almost did, because I could feel my inner child still crying out to be loved and feeling empty inside. I took the opportunity to finally address my inner child hunger having cleared that earlier subconscious block. It’s scary how much our adult behaviours are shaped before the age of 8 and I was forever looking and searching to be completed but now it’s done. Self love, inner child love is permanent.

Another WANTED report:
Following that I walked into my local shop for groceries, then in walked an absolutely stunning black haired shorty in her 40s wearing thirst trap leggings. But something about this was different - instead of the inner boy needing her love, I felt aroused and attracted to her. I looked her up and down at her tight self without apology.
Absolutely shocked that this encounter - fulfilled, not looking for women - produced a stunner so soon. Must be the WANTED/PM Manifestation. She was most definitely a sexual candidate in my local area.

Self love/inner child healing produces MUCH stronger sub results.

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#108

What’s PM Manifestation?

#109

Perfection Manifestation, the module

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#110

Cool, thanks.

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#111

freeing the inner child

Underwent some more inner child healing - Within a short time I’ve gone from shyness fear of rejection terror and fearing being abandoned - to zero fear, calm with others and free to interact with other healthy people.

It’s an absolute miracle.

Not behaving like an emotionally defensive robot and being free to do whatever I feel like it’s such a freeing feeling. There’s no more performing or seeking, hoping, begging for anyone anymore because I don’t need to. Talking with others loses it’s awkwardness and actually being honest is a welcome change.

I’ve finally recovered my authentic self

That doesn’t mean I’ll get my lost years back though. Careers, potential positive relationships and friends, enriching experiences I could have had without trauma boy running the show. I got the opposite instead.

So forgive me for reliving my 20s now.

Digging out LBFH to absolutely lock in unbelievable levels of self love so that inner child can finally feel seen, heard and appreciated - whatever happens and whoever does or doesn’t come and go - I love me and that’s all that matters

WANTED wise I’m trialling DreamBoi with the following ludicrous situations:

  • A Blonde who I’ve seen before sitting facing me made a “indirect” approach. I’ll have to open her next time…

  • Afterwards a younger blonde chose to sit right next to me (something happening more and more) indirectly pushing up against me. Then an older blonde woman sat opposite her, wrapped her legs around her suitcase and directly challenged her - for me. This was being watched by a third woman sat with her boyfriend but she’s blatantly ignoring him and watching the competition unfold.

But mostly I’m leveraging the authenticity scripting from this title to anchor further my “true self”. I told you I want to redo my 20s…

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#112

UPDATE: another IG follow from another local chick on Onlyfans, hmm. Not sure what to do now, slip into her DMs? Is this Wanted DreamBoi Online working overtime?

If there’s any kind of “recon” it’s the weird feeling of being accepted, by myself and then by others. Also accepting that whoever new comes in, there’s self respect and no way I’ll accept a toxic relationship anymore.

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#113

THREE! count 'em. THREE women lined up opposite me on the way home, but the one that strongly WANTED me was a total baddie. She hid nothing in her mind and I let her know that I knew :kiss:

Soulfit really works for me because I clearly see how my clothes expresses as a whole, I’m smiling, even smirking because of the quiet confidence of a man who never needed to impose on anyone. And Dreaming of Me is so regular, it feels like a reverent gift. More followers online too…

Did I mention that DreamBoi may be my favourite sub? :joy:

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#114

WDB. It makes women suck the tips of their fingers and readjust their bras in public. :smiling_imp:

In fact WDB had revealed a sense of unease within myself. Because the sub generates a sense of ease, I can now hear and see my lack of proper self esteem - I’m talking myself down, neglecting body care and accept wearing unflattering clothes. So a dose of Love Bomb should do the trick. Right now I can feel it working and it synergises well with WDB.

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#115

Had a recon session. It’s full moon after all :full_moon:

Not sure why but a whole load of abandonment emotions came up - seeing everyone all happy, partnered up with children and I’m still single. Then in the café I had a thought that the world may be better off without me. This was all prompted by an awkward evening out to the pub, I knew no-one, tried to get talking to a few people, but I knew in the back of my mind that they would rather not have me there.

I left after 30 minutes I tried to cheer myself up to no avail. Then I remembered that I’m in a part of town where I could just go into another place and enjoy myself.

So I did.

The paint and rave place. I was still upset but in my element, painting an accurate portrait in record time. The compliments I always get are fantastic.

I’m proud of turning my mindset around, even if no other fucker sees it. From escaping into another realm to remembering why I was here in the first place. So I guess the moral of the story is find your passion. Make it your core and walk through life with it. More Self belief.

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#116

Just if you want to share some of your art, there’s an Art thread for Artists in the lounge.

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#117

The space before the kiss

Well not quite, as I had a tutorial with a new female colleague. Being a failed alpha I tried to set the theme for the session by giving her the task of compiling ideas, but she neutralised that pretty quickly.

So as with WANTED DreamBoi I stopped flexing and eased back into myself. I intentionality played with the gaps in between thoughts, I let the silence exist - and it felt like sweet soft erotic tension in the air. I had her melting into sensual rapture, numerous times she traced her lips with her fingers and ruffled her hair.

We had a good talk, she was very informative and sparky, however there were moments when I felt like I was qualifying myself to her (that needs to stop btw, I am good enough). On the whole even though it was a “formal” tutorial I felt confident enough to experiment with the DreamBoi features and let the pregnant pauses hang in the air and she responded like a motherfucker. It’s a shame she wasn’t available…

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#118

Controversial thought:

I’m so glad to be out of a relationship!

I mean, what’s not to like? More autonomy, increased freedom, more self love. Really am seeing the benefits of not being coupled now, which for someone who desperately wanted a relationship is some mental switch. Maybe I’m more comfortable with exuding love rather than hoping for it to arrive. Don’t chase it, Be it.
The idea of being WANTED is still weird to me, why are people sitting next to me, aren’t I a lowly piece of shit like society told me early on? People want to be near me? MAYBE the men still have a hard time letting me exist.

DreamBoi is still doing its work, a young alternative chick, with maroon hair, a bandana and yellow blouse sitting opposite me. I could see several women were relaxing into my field. At times she closed her eyes (the Dream of Me), even extending her feet wide outwards towards me to grab more. She also did that blouse breast rub to discharge all erotic energy…

Generally I feel more natural self love on this sub and permission to express myself more because it has my back. It also seems to piss off certain “males”, you know the ones - hateful, jealous… must be my dreamy energy.

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#119

More and more self love is pouring out from my heart and it was immediately recognised by other female commuters. WANTED DreamBoi is working not only for me but for potential new partners. I see and feel that more women recognise and appreciate my DreamBoi vibe, it’s getting regular that I get longing looks. leaned in, being shown erotic signs of interest and most times trancing in and out of dream state.

Case in point, an awesome young redhead punk woman with pink lipstick, tattoos and see through tank top straight away voluntarily leaned in straight away opposite me.

Another benefit of DreamBoi is recovering quickly when things are unexpected, like a heavy police presence at one of the stations and being searched, inside I was raging but managed to regain composure and self worth. I had a feeling of doom and being judged by a forces more powerful than me but that inner chatter is gone.

I remembered the Eleanor Roosevelt quote:

Nobody can take my self worth away from me without permission

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#120

Hey man I love reading your thread!

Just wanted to tell you that your posts here and on WDB thread are important to all of us.

It looks you just get this better with each cycle!

Can you share if women on Wanted vs WDB suggested taking you home or private places and such as well?

Thanks

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#121

Well if yesterday was any indication, a pregnant woman on the train almost did. Followed me home until she realised what she was doing :innocent:

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#122

Feeling into the DreamBoi vibe so intensely and at the same time so chilled. I realise that the nervous system based confidence is revealing something interesting about feeling open.

I love this sub, I love being down to earth and “authentic” (crap buzzword), however the world still pushes their masks onto others. I’m not interested in macho bed notching shit, I prefer deep connections and even though I find that at work and play, some are wearing masks of deceit. Not everyone wishes you well, in fact some are just crabs in a barrel. I haven’t felt the need to push back against this… up until now. Maybe I’ve been too passive and not taking up my rightful space in life. Let’s see…

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#123

I’ve joined a dating app.

What in the actual fuck have I done? 🫣

Said I’m open to a short to long term relationship. Don’t know who or what prompted this info to credit for this unexpected step up.

Edit: now I’m looking at the bloody instruction manual and it specifically states:

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Open pathways to romance: join dating apps.

Now I’m spooked out.

Exactly. All results are good results.

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#124

Now you’re on a dating app. Can you describe the sudden shift in confidence, self esteem, and your over all mental attitude? Also how is WDBs belly fat physical shifting compared to Ascension?

#125

Easy - self love.

If you want a more precise answer: I am deserving of self love and I believe I have something of worth to give, where before the goal was to fill my own cup.

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#126

lol. Nothing to offer on the physical shifting question?

And you attribute that self love to WDB?