Hello,
I’ve been reading up on this forum and store page the last few days and feel like I am ready to make a purchase but would like some advice on what to start with.
Simply put, I am a broken person and I know it. I have depression and have had it since I was a child. I am taking medication but it does the bare minimum of keeping me functional enough to hold a job. A job that doesn’t pay me enough to move out so I live with my parents at 25 yrs old. I hate them for giving birth to me and they hate me in return. I spend a lot of time hating myself too. I am overweight and have terrible self- image. I have tried therapy too but all the psychiatrists do is just blankly nod at you and offer useless suggestions while raking in the cash. I have no friends and the only social interactions I get are at work. They are nice enough but I know everyone just puts on a front to facilitate getting the job done, not because they really like me or anything. The only thing I really don’t want to do is kill myself (i wonder if thats the meds talking), I do want to get better but I just can’t make any kind of plan or even understand how to begin fixing myself.
So now my question to the community, where do I start as far as a sub? After looking at the “healing” section of the store I see Dragon Reborn, Sanguine, The Elixir, Regeneration, and Rebirth. Considering how fucked up I am, Dragon Reborn seems like the best measure to take, but I’ve also read that multistage titles like that are for “advanced users” whatever that is.
Thanks if you read the rant.