Can you elaborate on that?
Mulling over an album like a fine wine. Meditating on the lyrics. Potentially bringing up the song lyrics and reading them while listening. Really trying to listen to the words being said and what the artist is trying to say and the different concepts. Also if you try and actually rap you kind of appreciate rap more because you know a lot goes into it.
Why is your name seeking what you seeking? @Seeker
Also being present with the whole song and letting it transport you into the rappers world.
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Interesting. Thank you for expanding on that.
Day 14 rest.
20 min meditation.
Day 15
Runnining emperor zp
Itās confusing to do these 3 titles and then swap one out every other day.
Kinda just wanna run all 3 at once every other day keep it simple.
Very unproductive day
Howās your experience of difference of the vibe between the different subs?
Hmm Iām not really sure. I think Iām gonna remove emperor since Iām not really in that phase. Just wanna be creative and learning. Also itās hard to tell as Iām pretty much running all 3 at once.
Ah, alright brother. Renaissance man and StarkQ has been amping my creativity alot lately.
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Thatās great to hear man. Has it opened you up to any new paths of creativity? EG you are doing twitch but start doing photography
Day 16 rest
Drum lesson was fun I got the rhythm of 2 bars and wasnāt as robotic as before.
Afterwards joined a songwriting class with a cool girl and we made a song way quicker than I ever have haha. I really need to learn how to speed up process of making songs.
Practiced keys for like around an hour. Becoming totally familiar and automatic with major and minor scales. 24 scales total.
21 min meditation mind seems to be getting quieter when I sit down to meditate.
Day 17
Emperor and then had one on one studio session. Made a new beat with 2 chord chord progression. Drums that I played on keyboard and recorded. And a melody using interesting sound. Definitely the most productive Iāve ever been using Logic and definitely pushed past a creative barrier I had in me. The idea of the beat is down in the DAW which is great.
If I could make just one beat a day Iām sure I could improve so much.
Afterwards played stark. Heading to practice keys soon.
On the bus just wrote 16 bars topic was my time at prep school.
Also today is a lot more productive because I actually planned what I wanted to schedule in the day before.
Did nurturing flow hotpod yoga
Day 18
Rest
21 min meditation done.
It really doesnāt seem to be helping like it used to be. My hypothesis is because I canāt reach a meditative state with the medication I am on. Things like running exercise or dancing might be more useful. What seems to bring me most in the moment now is music. My life is like one big music video lol and I keep seeing MTV on numberplates.
Woke up late today itās a recurring theme and I hate it. Itās partly the medication has a sedating effect but I also have to take responsibility.
Also spent way too long after waking up on āreelsā 3% inspo 97% garbage
Closed eyes focusing on breath sometimes body scanning.
I meant to say medication not meditation.
Day 18 continued
Today was awesome. Did some flat cleaning itās starting to look just about acceptable not yet lol.
Went to hip hop dance class me and like 7 girls lol but they were very young. I nearly completely got the choreography which was a confidence boost. It was good cardio and I liked the choreography i also feel like the work ive been putting into rap and drumming is making understand the counting in of the choreography more than when i used to go to dance lessons and understand the phrasing of the music and hopefully one day iāll just be unconsiously counting the beat/bars.
After I felt like a billion dollars. Even before i had one cute girl smile at me. After i had some girls checking me out. Also I got āopenedā twice this evening in Leicester square lol. First girl was blonde attractive bit old and drunk and i think she used me to skip the queue but she was a Smoov Criminal. Burger King was ā¦ PLANT BASED AND VEGAN ONLY>?! Did a story on ig on this and then posted to tik tok just to get used to the idea of being a social media whore.
Then bumped into some busking friends and watched a few busking āshowsā and was singing along. I also was getting some girls checking me out when i was singing and due to bipolar iām feeling the music a lot. There was also this 11 year old kid freestyling on the flute jamming Krishna style was dope. I wanna pick up the flute n guitar.
Right now im back in burger king finishing up my first song which ive been sitting on forever and trying to think how i can improve but i think itās time to let go of my baby and release her into the world. This will free up creative RAM for new projects and I need to start upping the frequency of the output if im gonna get to the top and develop my unique style. Best part of the song is probably my vocals and also the lyrics have deep meaning but itās more a spoken word poem than a rap or flow/ rhythm of words.
I think i gotta start coming to central and working on music around people i like to be around extroverted energy.
Wrote around another 12 bars on train home. Then on bus and once back at mine made a aesthetic chill music visual for the song. Itās called Future was forgiven
I felt like I was a lot more charismatic today and funny and joking around a bit.
I combined this with still being on my purpose and being productive with focused powerful creative energy.
Day 19
Had loads of energy today went to a dance class. Loving my self to super high levels last couple of days. Reconnected with old friend. Self amusing free spirited open vibe.
21 min meditation done actually felt a bit of meditative states maybe I just have more thoughts than I used to so I have to be more patient and consistent to take the holy chill pill
I feel like Iām falling in loveā¦ but not to a girl. Iām falling in love with music.
Also not sure I mentioned I got a Himalayan salt lamp my philosophers stone muahahha
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I have two. Love them.
I saw a video where you can use them with a spinny magnet thing to power things like a tv or lights and with the plasma electric glass thingiemabobby.
Bit of reflection on the whole girls thing.
I think often the reason why girls have chosen not to be with me is because they saw that I had so much potential to become an amazing man and if I were to enter into a relationship too early I wouldnāt have been able to grow and become who I was today. Itās nice to have the subs to speed up the process and make sure all ideas and visions are aligned in the right direction and gaining momentum.
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