Day 11
Listen to ezp once then wanted once as I prepare mentally for apple retail interview. I get a healthy? Smoothie and cappucino but when we get on call it’s terrible so he says he will call I rush out restaurant to look for quiet place.
Interview was interesting he asked some interesting questions that made me have to think back and my experience was able to help me answer them. For example he would ask for an example of when you made a customer feel a certain way etc.
Bump into old really good friend who’s like me in a lot of we are kind of mirrors ways and he’s super charismatic and when we are together it’s like a supercharge.
We agree to meet this Thursday. Worked on my cv with this work help person for the restaurant mentioned before. Got home and ate then kinda went into a depressive funk. And keep feeling fucking dehydrated today. I start listening second loop of EZP get mad and start cleaning while getting into this primal mad gorilla alpha lion dawg state and start listening to DMX. Made the kind of mistake of sitting down which breaks one of my rules if I’m on the 10-7 productive regime and went back in funk a bit but I’m tired. Ezp 2nd loop brought out all kinds of emotions this evening mostly anger. I have a lot of suppressed anger due to countless betrayals and abandonment from “fake friends” there was also depressive and sad feelings.
Planning to get early night tonight compared to last couple weeks.
Social Tennis 12-2 tomorrow
Maybe walking football?
Also they mentioned this football 8 week course which maybe will get you into a team which is something I’ve been trying to manifest as I think it’s a fun competitive way to keep fit socialise and make mates.
Quite a few videos I watched on my phone this late afternoon and evening had personal meaning.
Feeling tired today didn’t sleep well.
Also I kinda view lying down feeling depressive as a spiritual attack so I fought back by doing some cleaning and purging emotions and blowing off steam.
Also while on sofa saw book called money on my window sill and it made me think to hire cleaner so I don’t get into this state of messy place messy mind.
Saw about the Custom ZP builds just got excited about the potential and added 11 items to the cart for when I’m ready to build my first custom.