Yeah, Lion answered you. It’s of course not the whole scripts, but part of it that fit with the StarkQ objectives. I don’t know how ZP is different though, but I think the other versions (Qv2) had some parts of the script as Lion said definitely.
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So far today did washing up without too much resistance, even though I had a quite depressive momentum I got out of it. Returned a book that I didn’t have time to read at library then got the idea to try and finish book zen and the art of motorcycle maintenance. Got through a chapter (philosophy grind). I was engaging with it a bit more than usual and able to concentrate while listening to deep techno progressive house kinda music. Starting a 3.5 hr shift in mini Italian pop up restaurant in just under an hour.
Very quiet at store only one Deliveroo order and a handful of normal orders. Went pretty smooth was vibing with chef. Also we were drinking some aperol spritz which was nice. His friends came and he was inviting me to a party (I haven’t been invited to one in years probably lol) and this is just after beginning subs. Got bad vibe from his friends so decided to meet with my bromance and we went out drinking cocktails and a beer. Problem is with my medication and weight it’s very hard and expensive to get drunk. Also I’m weary after good vibes drunk and the kind of out of it vibe drunk I get. Went to a bar/ club it was kinda boring. Some girls were hovering in front of us.
Overall from running richzP once and Q dare devil a few times I was more social today and even made a couple bouncers laugh. Nothing crazy but social momentum is good.
Think I’ll listen to daredevil Q on ultrasonic overnight. Oh also my libido seems to have improved a bit.
In bed too long today- I listened to DD the night before woke up quite late. Giving into laziness felt like going a bit depressive in mood. Was waiting for friend to come but he kept taking the piss and saying he fell asleep etc etc.
When I finally decide I’m gonna be a little productive early evening time I do a load of laundry which I’ve been putting off. While doing it I’m like fuck this I’m gonna go to x shopping centre to meet girls even tho it’s late it will still be open for a bit. Then I get really aggressive on my goal of getting gf and say I’m gonna go out everyday until I have one apart from when I have part time work.
This place was no good no girls I was attracted to. Oh and I went with my friend he literally turned up as I was leaving. It was good to not be alone.
Also I’ve been hanging with this friend quite often and feeling a bit dependent so that was another reason I wanted to present ideal girls the opportunity to meet me at the mall.
We ended up heading back to mine had some burgers and chilled watching Django unchained which is such a brutal but captivating title.
Been having a looot of urges to PMO today also. Sometimes when I get that I pop on sexual mastery audio instead of going to bad websites. Dunno if that’s making it worse haha
Work experience tomorrow at flowers shop in trendy socially buzzing place.
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Day 3
Woke up at a good time for work without much snooze you lose.
Listened to emperor ZP x2 loops
Get to florist early and get a latte (I’m very sensitive to coffee and it can make me go high lol) previous coworker said I can get hot drink free with work. But the guy is mentioning something about discount so I was confused but yeah ended up not paying for the coffee.
Working with a girl who usually sorts out weddings. She’s a bit at first and quiet. I have more banter than usual and I’m naturally touching her on the arm or shoulder in a friendly way a couple of times. It was a pretty dead day so by the end of it we are playing solitaire on the computer having fun lol.
For lunch I go to the Italian joint I’m working part time to say hi to my boss and hustle some free pasta lol. It’s alla norma spaghettoni and delicious. I’m only earning a tenner for lunch at florist coz it’s work experience so by getting free pasta at least I made a tiny amount. Emperor mind? Finances?
There’s a dude with this cool looking camera I follow him on the gram to checkout what kinda photos he takes he also reminds me of someone of my past. Cute girl comes in wearing Kyoto City hat and she buys something I don’t say much but nice to feel her energy.
There’s a guy who buys a vase and then I sell him on buying 3 cactus glass jars that are 12.50 each I say something like this is the ONLY time you will ever be able to buy these in a joking way. 5th work experience day over 5 weeks and this is the first time I’m being charming as a sales person which is dope.
My coworker also showed me how to make a bouquet and it was challenging but I was able to focus and actually make one which felt like a sense of achievement.
Also during my break I kind of befriended a guy at the pasta place and helped him pick what to order he was with his girlfriend and seemed very interesting peculiar and funny. Got him on gram saying next time you’re down here let’s get a pint. For some reason since starring emperor I’ve been having a flashback to a tai Lopez (lol kind of a meme I know) video where he talks about WORKING THE LAND.
After work my boss tells me about a final and it’s my team I completely forgot. And he’s like he might go to xyz pub so I’m like oh lemme know if you’re going or I check after work if he’s going but he says he’s going to his mates so I don’t push it. Instead I end up going to pub by myself lol and I’m walking around looking for a place to see tv and finally I get one by luck? It’s like musical chairs and I’m in perfect position. There’s a weird guy hovering behind me making weird small talk that doesn’t make sense he eventually leaves thank fuck! Then this lesbian woman with short hair and lots of piercings comes and she has her friends with her but they leave coz it’s cold also their vibe is a bit weird. THEN these 2 goddess Angelic females come and sit opposite me and I’m in my feels loool a bit speechless but in a good excited way. I had the thought… this is what makes successful men these beautiful women who have so much to offer a man. I asked for a cig and she offered to roll one for me but I needed a filter. I didn’t find one she made a roach but said she was a bit under the weather so I would have to lick it I thought she would hand it over but she brought it towards me and I basically licked in between her 2 fingers a bit of sexual tension but it’s all low key and chill- kinda like we have our whole lives so there’s no need to rush. When she gets drinks I talk a bit with other girl she tells me they are on a date and I’m in HEAT haha not really but it was like fuck yeahh feeling but innocent and pure. At some point 2 guys come and ask if they can sit and the girls are like it’s his(MY) table so ask him and here I was presented with an opportunity to make a white lie for them. I could have said sorry my friends are coming soon and we could have a warm cozy vibe between us without any creepiness or unwanted attention or just bitch don’t kill our vibe Energy. Lesson learnt and noted in ma beautiful miiiind. Also the girl I was less attracted to but was still super hot we both vibed on liking to play tennis. My intuition told me to play it super chill and downlow and not ask for their Instagram like every other guy and see if fate will let us meet again. Also I felt this kick up the ass from reality kinda like this is what awaits you so get on OUR LEVEL. They spilt a drink by accident which dampened the mood and left and said bye. Alsoooo the one girl I liked it was if she was doing covert NLP on me with certain words to tease my soul in a good way. Reminds me of the saying you attract what you are.
After they left I got really into the game and was super passionate like I don’t remember being this passionate in a long time. I was like the only person alone there and most people were getting pissed but because I had been working earlier talking to people I stayed in a relatively social mood.
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Friend came and I was in a loud fun almost angry mood lol but playful anger. He convinces me to take 10mg of diazepam and we went out i felt pretty relaxed and a bit drunk we got a couple drinks. Bumped into someone from my past. Said bye. Met one girl outside blonde from Australia she gave me a cig and when she left a big huuug.
I dunno if it was diazepam but had vivid kinda bad dreams. Also I was running rebirth Q* ultrasonic. I woke up after one of the bad dreams and turned it off.
One where I thought it was end of my life and a b(witch) killed me and everything faded to black. Happened recently too… second time diff scenario
Other was I was on twitch and had 21 views and I was happy coz it’s more than the 2 or 3 I’ve had in my first couple streams off my iPhone. But then it was glitching and I started to get super stressed lol.
Also before sleeping I was thinking proactively. I had intuition to just figure out a way to turn my cryptocurrencies into fiat currency so I can buy gaming pc for twitch. I have in mind 2000 dollar budget. What are your thoughts @KingEsh also I’m thinking of building my own pc even tho I’ve never done it. - could be a stream in itself.
It was a bit tricky to get all my currencies into pounds but I’ve pretty much done it now. Just have to do a few more transfers etc. I’m just tired of stressing out how volatile the market is and how I had 5k dollar portfolio that went down to 3/3.5k. Fuck crypto.com don’t use that shit. I advise Kraken 
This was battling against my recent procrastination around twitch in my head recently.
Also redownloaded bumble since my Vibey chica from yday was talking about it and hinge .
I’m experimenting with my bio lol so I put Please just don’t be weird… kinda taking the frame of the hot girl or prize rather than the chaser. Flipping the script.
Also on the rapping side of things I saw a guy on discord called ethereum and then realised it was my old online friend who was teaching me his process of writing rap songs and we were working on a song together but we got separated somehow so I scrolled up and tried emailing him today to reconnect and also joined a telegram group we met in but he seems to have left.
This was while drunk on diazepam so emperor seems to be making me more proactive no matter what my state.
When I woke up today (day4) it was super hard and I was groggy and tired for ages kept wanting to go back to sleep probs coz of the diazepam and maybe overload with the rebirth?
But I’ve not spent long time ruminating about it.
Went to my mums today and while there ate delicious food set up bumble account and did an hour of piano practice- which goes towards overall creativity music production rapping? Etc
I was doing a drill called seesaw and it was fun to get the muscle memory going up and down the keyboard.
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That sounds decent brother, you’ll be surprised how little you really need. 
Building one yourself usually means cheaper and therefor better hardware, but the drawback is YOU have to build it yourself and the stress that comes with that.
Here’s a legit and nice site for an idea of budget etc. As you can see you can get a quality gaming/streaming pc for under 2k.
https://pcpartpicker.com/guide/
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Yeah also I have a friend who could possibly help me he’s done it before 
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Another thing in general is I’m reframing my reality past present and future positively like it’s a movie and I cut out the bad parts and just start only living the true and good life 
(as I wrote that maribou moonstate dropped)
An example is my friend and I wanted to go some place it was empty the woman was like IDs and we didn’t have any so we leave but I go toilet first the woman comes in and is like THIS IS NOT A PUBLIC TOILET. So I finish up and get out to meet friend. Later we go to this place and get a pina colada jug and he’s like oh my god I can’t believe she gave you a handjob how was it?! in the toilet and we both burst out laughing. It’s like imagining stories in the moment that make us look cool but done in a self amusing way. He said it in a way other people could hear.
Turn vibe killing memories into funny memories and ‘inside scoop’ stories.
Also been having a couple Easter egg moments in this game played on Legendary called life where there is like a glitch in the matrix. Today it was on my phone lol.
Didn’t know you were moderator i got the impression you were a SC user!
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Day 5.
Soo i wake up around midday played rebirth Q night before i think on ultrasonic. Had some stress dreams / discouraging dreams i believe if i remember correctly. I believe dreams can show the subconsious but i also believe in spiritual things or forces affecting your dream. For example demonic dreams etc. Oh and now i remember it was a person from my past cant remember who who was attacking me in the dream.
anyways i think oh it’s tuesday the charity im with does social tennis but i look at the timetable and im already 45 mins late and it’s 2 hours and im a 30 min walk away. but im like fuck it and decide to go anyway so i walk there while listening to my ZP’s which i can’t wait to listen to. I think getting small wins early on when starting a sub affects how much the sub helps coz you are fully bought in and engaging with the content and believing in it. I accidentally listen to ascended chamber lol (sign?) On the way to tennis my mind is thinking creatively about money(one good unique way to make money that i note down) and loadsa synchronicities happening before my eyes. However i get there and no one is there! So I call up the charity and they say they sent a text saying it was cancelled so i asked them to put me on the text list for next time. Also with depression in past i literally have gotten so stupid and convinced myself im stupid when I’m actually really intelligent well I’m a jeen yuhs props to who ever gets the reference lool. But when I become happier and happier I actually start becoming more and more intelligent and using more parts of my mind.
I get home and i decide im gonna buy this bag it’s for spiritual reasons i also start scheming in my head and playing game like a game of chess while still being in the moment everything is flowing and i have almost dangerous amounts of energy. I get the back for 180 down from 200 and it’s original retail price is 625. I know i’m meant to be buying a gaming pc for twitch but im following my intuition here. Also on my way back home im practicising the finger movements from the piano exercise i did yesterday so im basically using my time as productively and awesomely as possible staying in dreamer renaissance mode def a sub ill prob buy in the future.
I plan to go to mums to practice piano but when i get to bus stop i start getting ill. Long story short i get violently sick and purge (i wouldnt call it this but i live in a spiritual reality so purge will make sense for people who aren’t as spiritually inclined) It was really bad and lasted hours so i never went to my mums to get that deliberate practice consistency. I’m grateful now just to feel normal again… Jheeeze
Partly became sick because i smoked some cigs on an empty stomach i think.
Also i’ve generally been thinking in a problem solving way for example i got banned off hinge for stupid reason and you need a number to sign up so i tried to get my other phone to work but it’s a piece of shit and a scam phone lol i literally put sim in and nothing happens but it looks cool and has new man so it’s kinda like a relic. then i had the simple idea to just use my mum’s phone number so i called her and she was okay with it as long as they wouldnt bother her lol. BAM another stream of potential chicks
Also yesterday called and messaged a guy about work in indian pop up store in the same market area as where i am doing the italian shop. He just rang me and said I can work around 9/10-4 /5 on thurs and fri. So thats more hours = more revenue
I was more relaxed on the phone than i thought i’d be it just felt smooth interaction no interview nervousness etc
Languages I want to learn
Mandarin
Japanese
Italian
French (already know some from school days)
Arabic
Also I’ve been reading things wrong by accident positively today. For example I saw healing point on a van but it was actually heating point (plumber haha) .
Other examples but I can’t remember.
Practicing the piano finger movements on my thigh while walking to the music I was listening to made we wanna learn guitar and I start dreaming of guitar.
Music production Band Rap that’s like a triple threat
Day 6 sleeping too much but recovering from being sick yday maybe but still I slept too much. Work at 10 am tomorrow gonna make it a bit hard to sleep/ wake up. (One of my current weaknesses)
One song comes to mind by DMX
I’m slippin I’m fallin but I gotz2getupppp.
I put my crypto’s back into BTC and been seeing my money go up but in my dream it crashed back down to £28k so basically I keep having negative discouraging dreams. But I also feel like I’m dreaming consciously while awake a lot of the time.
Going to mums now to practice piano (online course called Ridleymusic academy) hopefully I don’t get violently sick again at bus stop.
So I’m doing the twinkle exercise and I look at the comments and the latest comment from yesterday mentions as above so below and talks about his desire to attend a music school while he sleeps which he insists must exist. Maybe he’s in the the supper club too?! 
Went out tonight to weatherspoons got drunk from bubblegum pitchers tequila shots and pornstar martini pitcher. Put me in a very loud fun and laughter mood where I just felt like emperor enjoying life like Mwhhahahaha
Day 7 just finishing listening to emperor zp 1 loop before work at the Indian place. Was a real struggle to get out of bed this morning and was nearly late. Couldn’t sleep for a while last night oh well.
I think I will only do 1 loop of EZP today
Wow listened to emperor ZP this morning and then go to do this shift at Indian place.
Most fucking dreadful shift of my life.
Guy was abusive but I wasn’t having it. At the climax he was like go home gome shouting at me in public. I was like call the owner he told me to come 10-4. And I just stood my ground.
Also he was Indian and no racism but his communication was shit and his English wasn’t really good it was okay but it made things harder.
At some point it calmed down and he calmed down the little. Also I don’t know if this was because of emperor zp but when he was whining agaaiiin later on I said “SHUSH” and he was like what did you say. I was like I didn’t say anything I just said shush. He shut up a bit after that.
But yeah so much fucking drama guy expects me to be perfect on my first shift. So much drama for such a shitty job lol.
Coincidentally got a email from apple about career opportunities right as my shift ended.
Day 8 (rest day)
Wow freaking world war 3 at this trial shift at the Indian place. We start off friendly but guy quickly becomes the biggest of all time. It’s weird coz I’ve only ever really got into arguments with people I’m close with but this guy it pops off. I’m meant to be learning. The owner calls me when I’m washing some dishes and I tell him about yesterday and he’s like why didn’t you tell me about that yesterday I’m like I just wanted to get through both shifts. He’s like okay…someone from ‘real’ management might come down later.
Shift continues and it becomes like abusive the way he’s dealing with me. I’m not having it so it turns into a argument the guy is so fucking petty. Long story short owner comes splits us up and offers me to have a shift at one of their different locations in angel or Mayfair.
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Day 9 (listening to first loop of ZP emperor as i type this up) - previous night go out with friend to pub then nightclub but he’s feeling kind of sick.
When the club part opens we are chatting for 5-10 mins but he then says he’s going home coz he feels sick. I’m kinda deciding to head home but i had met a cool fun friendly guy in the smoker section who had given me a couple roll ups. He’s with a group coz it’s their birthday and I end up joining the group and having some good conversations. I’m also vibing with the bartender and he gives me like 2 or 3 free drinks throughout the night. I also came to the conclusion that a lot of girls will make up small lies all the time to place themselves socially where they want to be and not see wrong in it it’s just the social game. especially in a setting where there are new people meeting each other asking how do you know so and so. So if as a guy you lie about how you know so and so and stick to it then that is generally accepted. I’d even go as far to say some girls respect it coz they might be like im not sure if this guys story adds up but i respect his balls just to say that with conviction. Also in a social setting where people are trying to get along and have some kind of friendly fun rapport it’s kind of awkward if they call you out on it. I think as guys we can feel uncomfortable doing that but if your intentions are good it’s better than other guys who lie with bad intentions. I have to say i was getting nervous of getting caught out on my lie but it was fun like an edgy game. Even if the girls do find out about it by talking to each other testing your alibi it kinda makes you stand out from others and they will be like curious about you. Also it’s like what’s the big deal you’re probs never gonna see them again. By the end of the night i was in a lucid ‘good drunk’ mood. Recently I’ve discovered that if i start off drinking beers it puts me out of it and in a dull mood but if i start off with cocktails, possibly wine and spirits / mixers and theeeen drink beer after it’s good and the beer goes down easily. It’s a bit the same with smoking roll ups. PS. Only reason i lied was coz the fun dude i was with gave me the lie to say lol. it’s also a way of pushing your comfort zone lol…(first loop finished) (second loop Commenced))
Mostly bonded with a couple dudes that night. Oh also one girl invited me to party next week with the fun dude and her friends coming down from Birmingham.
Now i got home pretty drunk more drunk than i realised when i started closing my eyes lol but after a while i went to sleep. My dreams were extremely vivid and basically as real as waking life. I was in some kind of space ship with green lighting and it was like a shamanic dream. I was looking at myself in the mirror and then would experience some extremely unpleasant detoxification feeling. I was also aware of being in a different state so i was conscious that my body was asleep it wasnt a dream it was more an astral projection to a place in the non physical matter universe. I’m looking forward to going to places like this where i can have more joy or even learning…
Woke up late today i think because of the heavy dream life. The dream was more intense than waking life.
Oh also another funny thing of the night was fun dude did a review of my hinge and took it apart and also got another girl involved lol. This guy had game and i was just having fun kind of watching his interactions haha
I wake up and have thought to buy Wanted so it’s like an instruction from somewhere in my mind/spirit. So I’m about to buy it. Then my mum calls and she tells me the fancy high end famous restaurant she went to by herself are hiring and one of the things the guy asked is if i’m good looking lol straight after i was thinking of wanted. At my best I can be very good looking but i’m in bad shape at the moment. I’m already tall.
ZPE 2ndLoop Finished
BANG purchased wanted with Wanted ZP What’s the Solace Prototype anyone know? Is that a reference to Quantum of Solace?
Oh also karma moment from yday a guy from my old school who owed me 50 quid for drinks that i transferred him but he left and ive been trying to find him on social media. He’s sitting at the italian popup i work at and i just go sit down and have a nice convo to collect my money lol. Emperor Money Collection muahaha
1st loop ZP Wanted… needa clean up my place pretty badly it’s a mess.
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Day 10 Rest
Went out last night had bottomless margaritas but it got a bit too acidic checked out couple bars but wasn’t feeling it then we got a kebab wrap to share I was paying but friend kept asking for things but I was being assertive and shutting him down coz he’s playfully good at getting what he wants we also are kinda having this game to improve our ability to get what we want and he’s better than me at it but teaching me by testing me lol.
End up wasting 20 quid going to a club called moth. Sit down and people are all dancing but music is really loud and not feeling it so we leave. I get home he leaves pretty quick and then I finish source code before bed. Not the first time I have watched it.
Today I felt quite in the flow at work and natural and talkative with attractive co worker. After work The passenger by IggyPop comes on and I’m flyiiiing.
Got work now in a lil bit again (building my work muscle as my mum puts it - she also told me she listened to subliminal for 40 years and did affirmations she was also into Robert monroe stuff) and her results she’s worked with some of the biggest names of the last 100 years but now she’s chilling mostly.
I was in a good mood coming home and I left florist early because my co worker was like it’s cool and she knew I was tired from last night etc and had another shift. But then I showered and the water went extremely hot and burnt my back randomly so that has kinda dampened my vibe but let’s see if we can pick it back up.
Also was talking about fashion quite a bit with my coworker (wanted zp?). She got me to download Vinted to buy clothes cheap and also I was asking her how she stores all her clothes lol.
Interesting dream I remember someone commented on my journal saying you are taking so much action you are a winner. (Paraphrasing)
Going back to nofap- so can only have sexual release with real life women rather than pixels