Glory to the BUILDERS! (Malkuth)

Journals - Custom Subliminals
#41

I was thinking earlier today about a three-part framework for my vocation/life work.

There’s the ‘intellectual’ component: anthropological and psychological perspectives, phenomenological perspectives, religious and philosophical perspectives. Just trying to learn responsible, grown-up, and sufficiently accommodative frameworks for contextualizing and ‘making sense of’ things.

There’s the contemplative, experiential component. The ongoing deepening, expansion, exploration, and development of felt experiences of being alive in the world as a consciousness. This is the meditation part.

There’s the healing and therapeutic part. Developing the skills and knowledge to support and facilitate wellbeing in other beings where possible.

I was noticing that these correspond fairly well to Ken Wilber’s notions of Growing Up, Waking Up/Cleaning Up, and Showing Up.

And I am continuing to think about how to build, arrange, and approach my life and my interactions so as to make a proper space for these parts of my version of a meaningful, engaged life.

Just want to put this in my journal before I forget what ‘insights’ I was specifically referring to in the previous post (as sometimes happens).

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#42

I lead a group of 10 people through a kind of training/learning experience on Thursday nights. Tonight at the very end, I asked them to break into 5 pairs.

As I watched them earnestly and intently working together, I felt this warm sense of being moved. I felt a warm pride in their sincerity and the value embodied in their attention and altruism. It just hit me now a couple of hours later, that that was love.

Love Bomb.

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#43

Heightened dream activity and recall every night this week.

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#44

A flow of ontological, ‘spiritual’ shifts happened for me in the late 90s to early 00s. That was just before I got married and started a family. They started to slow down and drop off after that. Understandable, as the emphasis was now upon stability and solidity. Contemplative practices can sometimes be like ingesting hallucinogenic drugs. Not always the best combination with family building and householding.

The period of 98 to 99 was particularly intense in its way, and one of the really pivotal and important openings happened then. There was this moment of perceiving that there is nothing non-miraculous and that we do not actually understand anything. We can describe repeating patterns, which is essentially what we have done, and to great effect, but beneath that, around that, above that, is a fundamental unknownness.

Was going to write something else, but the idea’s gone for now. Maybe it will come back later.

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#45

Eventually, I always come back to Cesar Millan videos. It’s hard to think of a better example of someone whose money is where their mouth is.

His career is built in the No Bullshit zone.

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#46

wow!!! I love this so much : D

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#47

Played the third loop of PHENOMENAUT Genesis this morning.

Rest two days, and then Tuesday resume with BUILD.

Time for meditation.

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#48

Useful shifts and clarifications this morning related to my overall life goals and projects (the ones being supported by my subliminal stack).

In my case it tends to be more about confidence than about knowledge and insight. I generally have some version of ‘the answers’, but:

  1. I have that Cassandra Complex situation going on, where you are doomed to accurately prophesy but to not be (sufficiently) believed (by myself in this case). Or less metaphorically, you have a tendency to see possibilities, but to lack the certitude (and courage) to act upon them.

This is why Genesis is one of the program cores in my flagship custom.

  1. My HSP, Taurus/Ox self is often a very gradual mover.

The subs et al., are helping with that. I can feel the shifts happening and I am aware of a clarification and solidification of my perceptions and vision.

Got an insight that, in the short-term, my MVP (minimum viable product) is actually a service and my approach to that service. Later, we’ll progress to actual products.

Projects:

  1. Clarifying my service-vision
  2. Writing

Those are actually feeding into each other, ouroboros-style.

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#49

5 min 30 secs of Love Bomb played as I’m on mass transit right now.

Seems normal enough so far.

Just watched Oppenheimer with my daughter. Interesting movie.

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#50

Okay. That’s Monday. Just finished last meeting of the day. Second rest day almost over.

Did not meditate this morning. Will do it when I get back home.

Tomorrow it’s back to BUILD.

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#51

I’m somewhat trapped in a narrow spectrum of stimulatedness/arousal. I don’t go above a certain level of tension; but I also am not going below a certain depth of relaxation.

Interesting.

Probably just need a greater amount of vigorous exercise. It’s been a while.

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#52

1 55-second microloop of BUILD today.

Leaning into this experiment.

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#53

As stated, I played 55 seconds of BUILD this morning.

Had a meeting from 12:30 to 1:30 pm. As we were chatting at the very start, I found that I started talking about business ideas/prospects with the person. About low-cost, convenient mental health/emotional processing resources for people who cannot currently afford to work with a therapist.

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#54

After a bunch of night time meditations, for the last two days my body has been waking up early. Early enough for me to meditate before my son needs to wake up to be ready for school. So, early meditation today.

Just now, I did ~2 minute loop of BUILD QTKS. More precisely, I played from 0:53 to 3:14. I’m playing the track on my iPhone directly from Dropbox and it tends to open the file at the last played position. So today, when I pressed ‘play’ it just continued from where I’d left off, and I opted to go with that.

Results:

Book Blitz

My sister has been telling me for a while of a practice she’s doing of reading 5 pages a day from a particular book with which she wanted to walk for a while. She thought to herself, ‘if I read 5 pages each day, then I’ll have read the entire book in [X] days.’

Now that I’m reflecting on it, I realize that her telling me about this was already the beginning of a result in itself.

But today, I realized that I wanted to do something similar. Probably with several books simultaneously.

One of the books that has been neglected on my table is The Social Animal by Eliot Aronson. I made a commitment to read it 2 years ago, and after a strong start, I left off. Now, I’m going through it systematically and from page 1 to page 429.

I saw that if I read 5 pages a day, I would have completed it by June 14. Less than 2 months from now. I’m adjusting the method slightly. Divide the book into 5-page segments. Read at least one 5-page segment per day. But possibly more. So, this morning I read the first 10.5 pages. Which just happened to be chapter 1.

Another related book is Robert Cialdini’s Influence. I will begin that as well. And I know that I have about 65 other books that I would also like to read right now. This is one reason that Book Blitz is in my BUILD custom. I also read a page from William Miller’s and Stephen Rollnick’s Motivational Interviewing.

The point is that I’m noticing Book Blitz starting to work. And that’s after my 53 second microloop two days ago on Tuesday. (Fine. Fine. Plus all of the loops I had done before that.)

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#55

56 pushups

with:

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#56

cultural background does not just include the things that you like; it’s also the things that you hate but are/were willing (or forced) to live with. Those things are all part of you too.

Another way of expressing the same thought: When someone bonds with you, they get the light and the shadow.

This is one of the reasons for true shadow work. People who deal with you are already dealing with your shadow. The question is just how aware you are of it. You don’t ‘remove’ your shadow. But the more that you take responsibility for it is the less you need to be shocked by it.

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#57

WOAhhhh!! Youre strong!!! Good job man : )

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#58

The plan today was to play 2 minutes of BUILD. But I lost track of time and ended up playing 5 minutes 40 seconds.

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#59

For the coming week’s play (on Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday), it looks like I’ll be playing both of my subs on the same day for the first time. PHENOMENAUT Genesis and BUILD.

Up to now, they’ve always gotten their own weeks.

I’m ready for the next experiment: Micro-loops of both programs.

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#60

We’re wired to internalize norms, rules, and patterns. (Language is the quintessential example).

As to which norms, which rules, and which patterns; that is left almost completely open.

Our language centers, for example, will adapt to whatever languages are spoken around us and to us; absorbing, integrating, and, most importantly, normalizing it.

Nature/evolution does not tell you which language to speak, but it does demand that (as a human) you must speak a language. At least one.

At birth, we are like aliens in some science fiction movie. We land in a particular locale, absorb the conditions of that specific environment, and then, setting it as our norm, move around the world from that home-base reference point.

We have VERY little critical perspective on this process. Generally, we don’t get much farther than using the norms, concepts, and conditions that we’ve internalized to make sense of the norms, concepts, and conditions that we’ve internalized.

As lacking as that approach may be on an intellectual level, taken from a practical, functional level, it’s probably what works best most of the time.

Second-guessing what you’ve learned as normal inevitably precipitates destabilization. Destabilization = Learning. But in the short-term it equals incompetence.

Just thinking about the growth and change process.

Alright. Enough of that. Time to continue on.

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