Geoff's Journal - Reflections of a Hero

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#182

Cycle 6

Fri

Hero Origins - 5 min

Reflections - 5 min

Mindset is the focus. Regardless of all the reasons why, my past ect my mindset is not the best it can be. Ive been getting in my own way for too long. The world makes it seem like the battle is out there but the battle is truly inside. Its challenging to monitor and guard your mind but needs to be done. I want to give myself the best chance for success.

During washout and my time on vacation, whenever I went out there was definitely more attention on me by others. I had a few small interactions with some females workers at this food spot inside another store and I could definitely pick up on how they seemed comfortable and how I had a calm presence. Seems like the auric effects of Hero.

Internally, the past 2 weeks have been tumultuous ranging from increased sadness, doubt and aversion to strong realizations about my own operation/mindset and my view of myself and capabilities. A lot of Truth being reflected back to me. It seems Rom/Ros has been digging, I just have to improve my ability in accepting what comes up instead of reacting so poorly to it, seeking to run from it or find relief.

Adjusting to normal days still seems incomplete. Physically I still dont feel right, still getting sleepy in early afternoon. Appetite is leveling off finally, no longer overly hungry. Sleep is still full of tossing and turning, I dont wake up rested. I honestly wonder how long its going to take to feel normal, its been 1 month by now. 10 years on nights give or take 6 months, maybe 1 month is not enough and I should give myself a break. I just tend to compare myself to others. That coworker I mentioned months ago was on 3rd for 3 years yet he had amazing changes pretty quick and is doing really well while Im over here just waiting. He is also younger so I should just relax.

One day at a time, the more I try to forecast or plan the future, the more anxiety I trigger which then creates doubt in my mind. This is not helpful. Focus on today and do the thing.

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#183

Two days back at work. I am still sleeping like shit. I go to bed by 8pm and keep waking up around midnight, sometimes 11:30pm. I toss and turn half awake until 4am when its time to get up. Its just not getting better. Im strongly considering Paragon sleep but after reading it, it doesnt seem to cover circadian rhythm disruption, or realignment. @Fire Can you put in scripting to the updated Paragon Sleep regarding Fixing circadian rhythm disorder/disruption. Realignment to the correct light cycle. Scripting to fix/solve tossing and turning, stress and anxiety surrounding sleep?

I could really use the extra support.

Im sleeping 4 hours, I lost color today and look pale. Doesnt matter if I take sleep aids or not, the same results occur.

On a positive note, I am doing better than expected at learning the job at least so far even with the brain fog, tiredness and poor concentration. Its hard to gauge sub results when everyday feels like a blur in one way or another. Im only doing 1 loop of my stack every friday, no point in pushing a tired brain. So 3-4 loops per cycle until something changes.

I review the 7 attitude diseases every few days and it helps keep my mind away from negativity. A positive mindset and self-image are definitely the foundation and im more and more convinced that without them, results are slow and dont stick very well.

Edit:

Tues

Paragon - 15 min

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#184

I had a better day today. I definitely still woke up early but didnt actually look at the time and seemed to have semi went back to sleep before getting up but I did get up before alarm this time.

Only two things I did differently was Paragons full loop and double my melatonin gummies so I cant be sure but I think Paragon did something good. Im not as sleepy today. Im hoping the positive impact continues and it wasnt just today.

On a side note, my mindset has been really positive but also I am full of enthusiasm when at work. Im just not used to this and find myself in awe over the general jow I have been experiencing. I think I made a decision internally to stop complaining and letting pessimism in on top of psycho cybernetics. I was thinking of adding some modules to my planned Hero custom soon specifically for mindset but now im not so sure I even need them. Who knows if itll change or last but mindset is really good.

My transition adaptation to a different schedule is stillproving challenging but im learning to relax about it and just focus on being grateful for all this positive change as well as just focusing on being better than I was yesterday. I really enjoy having the opportunity to choose, to decide to pursue virtue and righteousness instead of chasing worldy crap. The more I invest in myself, the more amazing things happen and the higher the quality of life I experience. Compared to the old me when I focused 100% on the external, chasing or pursuing outside of myself. What a bad way to live.

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#185

It seems that full loop of paragon gave me one night of 6 hrs sleep, which was great but the last two days have been right back to 4hrs broken sleep. Frustrating to say the least.

Yesterday at work I lost respect for my supervisor and my whole perception of my new job dropped, Im fighting to stay in a positive frame this morning. Since using Hero, Ive become super sensitive to dishonesty and deceitful/covert behavior. My supervisor basically offered all of us an opportunity and when we accepted, ended up cutting half of us out after the fact but in order to do that per policy, we had to have agreed in the first place. So it was a premeditated trap. I feel much disappointment over the situation. Since reaching 5 mins, a lot of the objectives in Hero are becoming more obvious to me. In a way I thought Hero would make me more tolerant/resilient of things yet theres this deep feeling of offense that Im trying to process this morning. I am very much in favor of transparency, honesty and full understanding vs this shady behavior. Ive gone from enthusiastic and motivated working with what felt like a group of friends/colleagues to now working with an adversary and feeling like I have to watch my back from now on. That is not an environment conducive to anything good.

Woke up with headache, actually went to sleep with it last night and it stayed. Later today Im supposed to listen to my loops, I am hoping today turns out better than it started.

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#186

Fri

Reflections - 6 min

Hero Origins - 6 min

Well, for once my day got better after a rough start. Apparently what my supervisor did was to my (and others) benefit so I was able to let go of most of the bitterness I had. While I still do not agree with the lack of transparency and the way it was offered lacked integrity, the outcome was positive in the end. I am grateful not to feel bitter any longer and today was good overall once that information came out from a coworker.

Since I am only listening once every friday, Im increasing by one minute each week to gause how I handle it. Having 6 processing days is like doing a washout every week lol. I do feel results are getting clearer this week for me with such processing time. Usually by 24 to 36 hours the recon hits but by day 3 I am doing well.

I received my Remplenish Myonozzle/ Water bottle today. Got it set up and man, my mouth and tongue feel like they went to the gym. Ive got high hopes for this. I bought to help strengthen my tongue to see if it will help with breathing and sleep apnea. The majority of ppl who snore, mouth breath ect have floppy tongues that dont stay up in position. It corrects your swallow as well.

Theres only 3 things all my symptoms line up with. Sleep apnea, Mold toxicity and Circadian Rhythm disruption. I figure why not get a mold test, buy the Myonozzle water bottle and see what happens while I just wait for Circadian Realignment. After a few weeks I should notice something with the tongue/mouth training.

Relentless evolution and self-improvement, symbolizing an unwavering commitment to the mastery of your skills and talents. - From Hero. I am really going hard on changes lately, pursuing things I left by the wayside for years. Engagement with my life and lifestyle is way up.

Embrace a philosophy of continuous improvement that permeates all aspects of life. This one as well, its all coming together.

Its been a long time coming. I’m finally starting to feel empowered, like I can do things and things matter.

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#187

“Do the best you can until you know better. Then when you know better, do better.” :slight_smile:

Maya Angelou

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#188

The 7 key points to the law of sowing and reaping from Jim Rohn seminar, 1981:

  1. The law of sowing and reaping is negative, meaning if you sow bad, you reap bad.

  2. The law is also positive, meaning if you sow good, you reap good.

  3. You do not reap what you sow, rather you always reap much more. It works both positively and negatively.

  4. There are many ways to sow and reap.

  5. Anyone, can sow and reap. But will you.

  6. You could lose.

  7. If you dont sow, you dont reap.

Being on nights I felt so held back, a huge loss of opportunity. Since changing I feel much more opportunity. Lately I’ve been learning, absorbing and very much focusing on the opportunity to develop self. I really enjoy this seminar Im watching from 1981 when I was negative 3 :grin:. Its so basic but thats whats so great about it. I tend to dismiss the basics and overcomplicate stuff then wonder why my life has been the same for years.

Everything is a choice, life is simple but not easy. Mindset and thought is where it starts. Im feeling quite empowered lately as if I suddenly became able to understand just how much ability I really have.

One thing I knew deep down but always avoided was goals. I let goals die years ago and stopped setting any. Goal setting is something I want to start working on again. Apparently there is an art to goal setting I dont know about but ill be getting into soon however first I have to figure out what I want and I think most of what I want is internal or self focused. I used to think of goals as external things to obtain but now its more apparent that its internal development and refinement. I want to be proud of who I am, now what I have/own.

Its important to have awareness and pay attention to everything you sow, that you might reap good things throughout your life and not bad. I realize Ive been really slacking in this for far too long. The beautiful thing is that I am aware now and waking up everyday with a sense of desire to continued change. Having spent decades in stagnation, I feel much gratitude for this opportunity.

This sub stack Im on is facilitating profound growth, theres moments where Im just in awe over the transformation of my mental and Spiritual landscape. Even though its Saturday and I tried to sleep in, I got up at 5am with such an upbeat mindset that I made breakfast and couldn’t watch anything but positive messaging landing me eventually to this 1981 seminar where I am learning all the basic truths of success mindsets. What was I doing 3 months ago? Quite a change.

Everyday, invest in yourself.

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#189

"Setting Goals:

Here’s what can easily happen if you dont set goals. Its easy to let life deteriorate into making a living instead of designing a life.

Its easy to get trapped by economic necessity and settle for existence rather than substance.

The best way out of that trap is learning to set goals."

Damn, that hits. Its like he just described the last 40 years of my life lol. No wonder…

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#190

Jim was fantastic. Earn Nightingale is another fav of mine.

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#191

“The understanding of self-worth is the beginning of progress.”

Probably my favorite line in Jim’s full seminar.

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#192

On the way home from barbers, I stopped to get groceries. As I hit the exit ramp stoplight, theres was a guy on the side standing, begging and I without hesitation rolled my window down and gave him the $10 cash in my wallet then headed to the store.

Im writing about this because I heard nothing, no thank you. When I blessed him I said “man its cold out here, take care of yourself” and he said “yep, yep” took the money then went back to standing still like a statue.

For some reason it really bothered me. I prayed for him and not soon after parking at the store, I heard in my Spirit “it is better to give than to receive”. I did not give expecting to receive anything consciously yet I felt resentment or offence for not receiving some kind of gratitude. Its troubling being such a lowly human. I keep wondering what the message is. Why was I so attached to this expectation.

I think that maybe I am judging that absence of gratitude as entitlement and that causes me to be offended since I didnt have to do anything. But who knows what he was going through and why the interaction seemed so numb, so robotic and indifferent.

We as a society, myself included take everything we have for granted and how many of us express thanks to God for everything we have access to. I wonder if this experience was to show me how The Lord God feels towards us. He gives and gives and provides for all and we dont think twice, hardly appreciating anything or worse yet complaining! (I myself am very guilty of this)

Idk for sure but there seems to be a larger lesson in situations that seem ambiguous or common. The important point here is what could I have done differently, what am I supposed to learn from this.

Everything I have in this world is a blessing and not owned by me and therefore why should I feel entitled to anything whether that be a thank you, water to drink or even a job to support myself. “The Lord giveth and The Lord taketh away” and if I am honest, I do not deserve anything I have. Maybe this experience today is just one big lesson on humility and gratitude.

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#193

He has lost all gratitude or positive emotions coz life banged him hard. He can’t afford to feel these emotions coz he has no hope that it will get better.
Feeling bad that he didn’t respond is human. But understanding that he can’t feel it is wise.

Best wishes.

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#194

Damn, 11 days ago I had listened to both Love Bomb’s. I completely forgot and was wondering what caused such a positive mindset and enthusiasm all last week.

Today, I woke up a little cranky, maybe annoyed and less at peace. The recon definitely shows up about 36 hours after my loops. That got me thinking about last week.

I gotta say, theres no subs outside of LB’S that make you feel like you’re vibrating at such a high/joyous frequency. I felt like I was bursting with positivity at moments ready to just explode. I had noticed a lot of coworkers interacting with me, jokes and sharing laughs. Makes me wonder why I bother with any other subs, I mean operating on such a high level like that, it feels as if you’re lacking nothing and can do anything.

Im pretty sure it was the LB’S that drove me to psycho cybernetics and jim rohn now that I think about it. Im listening to another of Maltz’s book right now as well. All about Self-Image which again I dont think was Inspired by Rom/Ros or Hero…in fact looking back beyond 11 days, I was quite depressed. Was it from my current stack or just me adjusting to a whole new lifestyle.

I cant believe I forgot, it all makes sense now. Its crazy how much better I operate with LB’S, looking back it was like flipping a switch. Im curious to see how this week goes without that influence being renewed. Will I stay positive and enthusiastic or will it fade and the old patterns reappear? I hope not.

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#195

Repressed parts of myself continue to come back to life. Its like my life was previously a house with all the lights turned off and now, slowly some lights are being turned back on.

I find myself looking back at my past for clues to things I used to enjoy. Digging up positive memories of buried experiences, separating the good things in bad ones as well. A refocus of the timeline, extracting authenticity and utilizing it in the present.

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#196

I bought Paragon Sleep tonight. Listened to 3 min.

Hopefully this helps, Im really getting tired of sleeping 4 hours and tossing and turning rest of night. Probably going to add it to my stack for a cycle or two.

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#197

I went to sleep at 8pm last night, woke up at 11:57pm (checked phone). Tossed and turned, broken sleep until alarm at 4am. So no extra sleep but I feel a stronger tiredness this morning compared to before Paragon Sleep and I feel more ‘sore’ in the body, even though I did not sleep more maybe other things happened.

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#198

Slept at 8pm again, woke up at 11:53pm. Broken sleep until fully woke up at 3:30am. Idk, Paragon Sleep seems i effective for this issue. Its only been two nights sure but so far, no helpful changes. I do feel more tired in morning since starting Paragon Sleep but thats about it so far.

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#199

Feels like I am outgrowing. Outgrowing what, I dont know. Theres just this sense of evolving that is projecting intense contrast and Im feeling this weird level separation.

Evolving beyond the standard. I read the forum, I hear conversations at work, I observe regular people living life and it all feels foreign to me. This isnt coming from a position of ego, rather its like frequency incoherence. I feel like I am operating on a different frequency and cannot relate to the rest.

Reading comments on the forum seem ridiculous to me, the comments seem so mundane and I feel very disconnected and have a hard time understanding why ppl say what they do. The same at work, its all so basic, ignorant and low level, typical. Theres nothing new under the sun. Everyone’s talking about women, money and power…like what? I dont even know how to connect to that anymore.

Since starting to Revelation titles, Ive become a bit of an over thinker, not in the obsessive ruminator way but in a thinking deeper about everything’ capacity. Questioning the why behind words and intentions. Im always hyper focused on context and seem overly concerned with philosophizing whatever comes up. This makes me feel alone because literally no one around me wants to hear depth or engage in meaningful conversation.

Im trying not to come off as judgemental because I dont mean to be but deep down I am frustrated with how everyone seems so profoundly dumbed down. Im no genius myself but isnt there more to life than pursuing a hole between a females legs, sports and the pursuit of exerting control over others through power and wealth? Im so tired of it.

I feel like the black sheep, the odd one out. I always have but its just gotten more and more apparent lately. I wish I knew where to find ppl like me. Everybody is groupie and its such a turn off. Herd mentality is lame.

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#200

I think Rom has been instrumental in my ability to make good progress(according to my trainer) on learning my new position. The Raikov scripting I think has been a great help in learning the new system software to processing inventory in one aspect of my job. Even with the poor sleep and brain fog Ive been able to pick up the basics and perform consistently. My short term memory continues to be below average for now and I tend to struggle with confidence in myself because sometimes I cant remember a sequence or step in a alternate process but over all I seem to be making progress and Im thankful.

Rom is also shining when it comes to picking up on things, perception performance is good, better than expected. There will be times something will be explained to me and ill finish the guys sentence or understand his point and basically explain it back to him, Yet struggle with actually executing the action itself. This is hard to understand for me, how can I understand what he’s explaining yet struggle to actually put it into practice? Maybe its just the brain fog and thinking through it, who knows.

Most days I feel smart and retarded at the same time.

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#201

Light in a box moving throughout a timeline = my existence in this system.

What would be the most important thing to do.

I was once one, only to be split in two upon arrival.

Is this life a gift or a punishment? A blank check or a last chance?

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