Geoff's Journal (Dragon Reborn)

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#302

DR Stage 3, cycle 2

Listening, day 9

LBHX - 7 mins. Stage 3 - 7 mins.

Develop your inner child from that of a “kid” to that of a mature, powerful “adult”

This has been executing in a big way this week. I’ve been a child internally speaking for 37 years and finally I’m starting feel that shift.

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I haven’t really interacted or spoken to anyone at work this week. I didn’t go to the break room the past two days either.

I’m putting more effort into my job, addressing the finer details too. Working in a machine shop, I’m changing/rotating inserts more often. I’m topping off lube containers, organizing more frequently and just taking tasks head on instead of previously avoiding doing the extra or letting the next shift deal with it. I’m also working 11 to 12 hour shifts still. Crazy how zoned in I am. I just show up and work then go home.

Still going strong with building better daily habits. Still haven’t gotten back back into working out, I’m too tense and sore. My job is strenuous enough right now. I need to address the tight muscles/knots. I might stop my physical custom until I can rebuild it in the newest version and go back to just paragonX on sundays for now.

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I’m seeing less outcome dependent thinking/behavior. I still struggle with myself internally but the outward behavior has been reduced. Basically people pleasing behavior, going back or amending things said in conversation when someone responds in an unexpected way. Not caring to join in or being left out.

I feel steady now, day to day. I’m realizing I don’t need. If I want to, I will. But I don’t feel needy. It’s a great feeling, standing strong within.

All that to say, I’m Internally Validated now :slight_smile:

The amount of sub execution this week has been amazing.

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#303

Maybe just go for walks! That’s amazing for reducing mental and physical tension, and assimilating subliminals. When I have a walking routine, I have way less recon, much faster results, and I realize most of my big “aha moments” during my walks. They can also turn into moments of jogging, ocassionally

That’s a life changing shift. Congrats!

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#304

I concur with this, some of my greatest realizations recently have been on walks where i literally talk to myself about things i need to do/work on and things that have happened to cement them and be proud of

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#305

Thoughts

LBHX

  • Contains a “protection aura” to ward off negative individuals and situations. Please note that no subliminal or subliminal-generated aura can 100% prevent bad things from happening, nor do we make any claims of the sort.

  • Release stress and tension, be fully focused in the present.

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DR

  • Release all physical tension in your muscles, promote total relaxation

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I woke up with a smile and a slight tension headache that’s gone now.

Relaxation and stress release scripting in both titles has got to be the reason for my current state. I used some herbal relief rub before bed and woke up feeling sore, still sore. The execution of scripting is showing me just how tight/tense I am. I knew the body held tension but this is more than I realized.

I’m literally having trouble accepting the physical release of tension. Between doing my job and the subs, it’s quite something.

As far as the protection aura of LBHX, I noticed a coworker displaying butthurt towards me. :sweat_smile: I’m the one who has reason to feel annoyed, not him however I’ve let it go and it is what it is. 🤷 but he won’t engage with me unless I speak directly to him(which I did earlier to wish him a happy birthday) but it seems that since he has a negative frame towards me, that he’s avoiding my path tonight.

Instead of owning his part in this situation, he’s obviously spun it in a way to make himself the victim and has been acting thus, so far. But I’ve not experienced any such hostility and I’m feeling quite good. There is no urge to go and fix the situation like I would have done in the past. I have no desire to avoid the awkwardness or anything. To stand in discomfort, to exist in tension without breaking, it’s a good feeling. I feel capable.

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As far as my energy and drive tonight, the 7 min loops got me some recon as I’m not as driven tonight and my soreness has me working a little slower. But nothing that won’t last forever. It seems I dip lower on listening days then rise up stronger the next.

Definitely going to walk this week and see how it goes. Great advice

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#306

I really wanna say how impressed I am with you and your journey…

look at how far you’ve come!

I’ll be honest, when I saw you start your DR journey, I had a negative belief around DR where it would just be a negative, never-ending spiral of recon and reflections from that state.

There are no “quick wins” from DR, making it a much less flashy sub than many others on this forum.

But your transformation has been world class and I’m so glad to see you making that leap for yourself, and amazed to see what’s possible.

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#307

Hey Thanks Billions!

It can be difficult for me to see the true progress at times, being in the thick of it. Sometimes it seems as if I’m repeating myself or being overly negative.

However, I try to just write honestly. For myself and others. It’s amazing how one day it feels like I’m stagnant, without growth then I wake up on a whole new level.

When I first started with CFW, I was anxious as hell, insecure, people pleasing, full of fear, emotionally unregulated and volatile with no self esteem and a pessimistic mindset.

I’ve grown so much already it’s hard to really embrace all of it as real. You were on of the first members to lend support and help me figure things out. I truly appreciate it.

For me, healing and transforming the weak, trashed foundation I had has been priority and once I culminate this program with a stage 4 custom, it’s onto building.

Super impressed with your growth as well, different areas but amazing dedication you have man. Truly inspiring.

Thanks for being a great human being and subclub brother!

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#308

Yup, resonating with this one. Couple of tips that I liked to give (and forget to follow myself lol).

  • Find a good chiropractor. they will release so much tension for you.
  • Take a massage if you have the money to do so. I prefer Thai massages because these little Thai girls have no mercy. That will kill those knots.
  • Do Yoga and stretching. I know it sucks, but try to love it. This one helps you the most.

And like @Billions said. Walking. I have not trained for 6-8 weeks now. Because I’m so stuck in my body of training 6 times for years without stretching. Since I have been walking, it’s slowly started to open up.

Very Powerful!

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#309

DR Stage 3, cycle 2

Listening, day 11

1 loop LBHX + Stage 3 @ 3 minutes each.

I thought about skipping today since I’m in such a great mood but felt 3 minutes would be good enough.

As I was getting ready to leave work and head home, my coworker was lightly giving me shit. I wanted to respond verbally but all that manifested was a full, light hearted laugh. Not a few mins later as I’m walking out, I catch him again and as he makes a remark, I laugh fully again as I pass him by.

This was the first time I fully noticed the laughter scripting from LBHX manifest. The laugh was more than necessary for the context and I felt like it originated from a place within me that I hadn’t experienced before.

It was good, I appreciated the opportunity to laugh.

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I’ve been in a great mood all night/morning. Seems the recon from stack hits on listening days and dissipates rather quickly now. Seems 3 mins to 5 mins are best. 7 is okay.

I didn’t not feel as sore today either. Maybe the relief balm I used did some good work or I moved past some blocks in tension release.

Yoga and stretching are foreign to me. Between Jim and Jcast, I definitely need to learn more about flexibility. Earlier in my journal I was doing the primal squat and couldn’t stay in that position with holding onto something nor could I stay past 5 minutes or so. I’m very structurally tight and out of alignment. I guess I really do need some external work by massage therapists and chiropractors.

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#310

DR Stage 3, cycle 2

Listening, day 11 cont…

Man, I woke up with my sheet and blanket all messed up.(this almost never happens) I was obviously thrashing around during sleep. I woke up slightly sweaty as well. No idea what I was thinking/dreaming, zero recall. Had a stiffy, hard as oak too but no expression of a sex dream.

I also feel very tired/taxed physically…on a deep level. Maybe I energetically released a past event/traumatic experience?

Energetically and physically release trauma as it happens, remaining unaffected by negativity

It certainly seems like it.

It’s interesting, 3 minutes vs 5,7,15.

The recon I get on longer loops is more mental/emotional and mood based.

Today, after 3 minutes, it’s all physical based. Mentally I’m just neutral minded. I’m beat physically, something was processing/executing while I slept and it really affected my body. Have a slight sick feeling that comes and goes as well, like I ate bad food. Almost like a detox effect?

Zp is crazy wild. Curious if this becomes a pattern at less loop time.

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#311

DR Stage 3, cycle 2

Day, 14

ParagonX - 1 loop @ 5 minutes. I felt a shift or realization at 4:30, So I took it as I reached the point of beneficial listening and stopped at 5 mins flat. I never got this feeling on OG Paragon.

Switched out my physical custom for Paragon this week.

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Tonight’s been about vulnerability, feeling tricked and betrayed. A relationship destroyed with both at fault.

Having to look at myself again, I see how there is still so much to deal with. Admittedly previously I was feeling good, thinking I’ve come so far…and I have in certain ways. But tonight showed me how my emotional relationship with females is still quite insecure. I have no trust with people, specifically women due to my past. What sub deals with romantic/emotional based baggage? Possibly wanted?

I’m a little annoyed facing the reality that I’m not as evolved as I was thinking. It’s like knowing/believing you got an A on a test, then being surprised when you see you got a C+, like what, huh? Yep, that’s me.

I’ve been executing a lot of script objectives this past week. I’m looking forward to a few days from now, seeing that tonight’s experience falls to the wayside and I’m not affected by it after a short reflection period. That’s the goal, to acknowledge and grow through it.

I’ll be honest and say that I am kind of happy to be alone once again. Alone in the sense of not having to engage with or respond to someone. Social responsibilities… the ROI was just very low and my suppressed good nature was allowing myself to remain available regardless.

It’s good that I walked away, it wasn’t serving me in any way. Nor do I have any interest in “just friends” with any female. There is nothing for me to gain in friendship when it’s not what I want. It’s always been an energetically draining experience but that must be a reflection of my internal state, since I attract the same type over and over. So I must own this and fix it. Not sure how yet but it’s on the list.

Boundaries are definitely stronger since being on DR. I’m definitely speaking my mind more as well.

I did notice that I’m self aware and intuitive but at the same type whenever I realize feelings for someone or just talking to women interpersonaly, I go blind and don’t seem to understand things in conversation. It’s like a need a female focused PCC sub or a decoder. I think I have a blockage due to sexual repression or unresolved traumatic experience with the feminine that’s causing such trouble.

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Who knows, I’m just babbling on about nothing. This is a new week with new opportunities.

Things I’ve noticed the past few days. The muscle soreness has reduced (since that thrashing/dream I talked about) but I’ve been physically exhausted, sleeping deeply when asleep but I’m waking up earlier and earlier which is unusual.

I am too easily affected, wearing my sensitivity on my sleeve…how can I become less emotionally sensitive? The “upset” doesn’t last as long these days but I’m too affected, I’d like to not be.

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#312

DR Stage 3, cycle 2

Listening, day 15

LBHX + Stage 3 @ 5 minutes/1 loop each.

Nothing much to say. None of it matters much…or does it.

Paragon sleep from my custom must be digging in, I’ve been mulling a new bed purchase for awhile and been looking into different brands.

About to the end of this 2nd cycle. 3rd cycle will be strictly 3 minutes.

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Inner world is shaken up, feeling restless and unsettled. Uneasy, conflicted and unsure. I realize im not great with change and i prefer secure routine. Been seeing some uncomfortable truths while struggling with uncertainty.

This too shall pass.

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#313

This is soooo Dragon. Ive been through that in various occasions and what always end up happening is huge inner transformation.

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#314

I think I’m familiar with this energy space.

(Unless I’m projecting.)

But it reminds me of the ‘energy-drawn-within’ state that I experienced a lot with Dragon Reborn.

At the time I compared it to feeling as if I was a bank or some other institution that was currently closed for renovations, but still maintained a provisional open counter to offer limited service to the public. Everything felt covered with tarp. And there were various workmen taking care of different projects.

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#315

I remember seeing that post. Everything feels distorted or under construction in the middle of transition. Services are still being offered but the entire substructure is changing at the same time. It’s a wild ride…to go from feeling solid to unremarkably scattered due to random situations and experiences shattering a once strong frame, only to change again.

Are there any modules that you’re familiar with that Excell with acceptance? Not resisting change and relinquishing control? Basically a module that embodies the Serenity prayer. I could use this kind of scripting.

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#316

I don’t know if this has been mentioned before, but it is interesting to ponder the difference in approach a manifestor using Dragon Reborn takes as opposed to a manifestor using specialized scripting tailored to specific goals.

For example: it may be argued that if a person uses Dragon Reborn exclusively and thus frees himself from all limitations, mental blockages, destructive definitions, etc. – then any and all manifestations come effortlessly because the conscious mind can easily redefine itself.

On the other hand, this may take longer than using the specialized goal-oriented subliminals (like Mogul, if wealth is the goal) which directly injects the new definition into the subconscious, surpassing conscious limitation and blockages. Yet it could also be said that the change couldn’t possibly be as deep since there’s still those blockages and mental self-definitions holding you back from true change and growth.

The same may apply to using Dragon Reborn + Love Bomb, as freeing yourself from all emotional trauma and experiencing pure love, cannot coexist with any lack whatsoever (at least some would say).

#317

DR Stage 3, cycle 2

Listening, day 17

LBHX + Stage 3 @ 3 minutes.

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I listened to 5 mins of my paragon custom yesterday. So the last 3 days have been listening days. But I’m okay with that since tomorrow is washout and I’ll be listening to only LBHX and Stage 3 next cycle.

All I can say is that I’ve depleted my dopamine levels and am below baseline. Coping behaviors, loss of clarity in my life right now. I’ve had some moderate negative self talk the past two days. Today I’m more listless(lacking energy or enthusiasm.) And less critical.

I’m holding onto one positive habit that I’ve been consistent with for about two weeks. It’s like everything else is, well not.

Been thinking about a lot of different subs, trying to use the future as stimulation. I notice my addictive personality will use anything to find stimulation. No wonder my motivation and inspiration is so wishy washy, it’s grounded in nothing.

Man, reality bites.

#318

Washout

Full of frustration and thoroughly disgusted with myself.

I am going in a circle, I’m seeing a pattern. I’m so full of this “what’s the point” mentality, it disintegrates any spark of change I try to implement. What’s the deal, where does it come from, what is it about and how do I kill it.

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#319

DR Stage 3, cycle 3

Listening, day 1

LBHX + DR Stage 3X @ 3 mins each/ 1 loop each.

This cycle will be strictly 3 mins. I experience too much. It’s hard to recognize when I’ve hit recon or overexposed. I don’t over listen but there are days when I feel mentally backed up or outright confused, which to me seems like being over exposed. But it’s never intended.

Today(before my loops) I felt full, confused and frustrated. I debated starting my 3rd cycle today or wait but figured I’d start now and cut the cycle short if needed. I debated dropping LBH this cycle, I’ve been listening for 3 or 4 cycles now, 3 for sure but here I am pressing on. Always sticking to the plan.

I don’t feel internal love noticeably but it must manifest in my behavior or actions. At the start of washout I was so fed up with my own behavior, how I treat myself. I’m at my limit. I just want to care enough about myself that I don’t make choices or engage in decisions that do not benefit me or that hurt me.

Let’s see how a strict 3 min cycle treats me, if I come out of this clear or still full of confusion. I seem to feeling less and less clear the farther I move through DR.

Edit: I noticed LBHX sounds like a loud trickle. And the Updated DR sounds more like a rain storm. Same mask and primer, but they sound different…why?

#320

Quick question for you, since you’re very focused internally, sometimes it’s nice to just have a balance to make sure you’re also showing the other side of your life some love.

Question is: what could be some examples of things happening externally, in the world around you, as they relate to you and your personal power/growth that would help you feel like your behaviors and actions are the type of actions that would make you happy?

In other words, the types of behaviors and actions that would come from someone who loves themself?

What would the material world of the life you want to live look like?

How can you take a step towards that? (Let your subconscious work on that, those answers are usually better than the conscious answers)

So that you can balance out the internal with some external reflections on what you want the world around you to look like!

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#321

DR Stage 3, cycle 3

Listening, day 3

1 loop LBHX + Stage 3X @ 3 minutes each.

I impulsively bought EB today, then through checkout I picked up EF at a discounted price. I’m not sure why I bought either of these. I was looking for perseverance and determination through struggle…I was looking for Spartan I guess.

Not sure what’s going on but I’m numb, confused and in this blank frame of mind. Going through the motions, nothing really on my mind. It’s like losing one of your senses. Taste goes and all food tastes the same, no flavor. Well my mindset is like that. I’ve lost…something.

I’ve been like this since/in washout. Is it reconciliation or just a pending evolution. It’s crazy how intensely I feel the fact that I know nothing. So much uncertainty.