You ran khan full or just st. 1? How was vs. DR st. 1?
It’s not so much how I look, but how I look interacting with others. I’ve accepted that I’m short, small and basically limited vs the whole 6ft. 6 pack, 6 figure deal.
But yes, introspection isn’t easy. Looking at my past was challenging but looking at myself feels cringy and I don’t know why. It’s pretty difficult to be honest.
Khan stage 1 removed a ton of nervous ticks i had. I honestly think i should of played it more. I kinda had a “movie trailer effect from it” The first day i played it i was very charismatic and outgoing, then it died down after. So maybe should of stuck with it to bring it out in me. But from what ive seen dragon was the smarter play at least for me. It seems to be addressing my childhood trauma way more.
I’ve accepted that I’m short, small and basically limited vs the whole 6ft. 6 pack, 6 figure deal.
You can change 2 of these 3 things bro… Height no. But why not 6 pack and 6 figures?
I’m working on it. The $ is coming, and I’ve been sticking to my diet the past 3 weeks approx. So if I can just get out of this fog I’ve been in since weds, thing will get back on track.
Thanks for the support bro
Something to consider btw and this is what im planning on doing after healing. I have a Khan stage 4 custom and Spartan custom i want to roll out. This covers everything from seduction to money to gym and body. Could be a potential power play for you down the line as well since it seems we have similar goals
That sounds intense. I look forward to following those journals. I have yet to even look into customs, zero knowledge on that front. I figure I’ll stay focused on one thing at a time and move as I’m healed.
Good stuff man, really impressed with your results.
Listening day 15 continued,
The past 4 hours since I’ve been at work, my anxiety has increased and I went back and forth wanting to order food from uber eats. The craving for comfort from food is a big sign. Some increases in compulsive behavior/actions due to the anxiousness.
These subs must be working on something deep since I ran ascension chamber weds. I’ve been tired, edgy and anxious and the more I reflect, the more I realize my subconscious is triggered. It hasn’t been brought to the light yet so I don’t know what it is but I’m nearing the end of my cycle and I hope this gets released or I might have to stay with this stack until it is dealt with.
Definitely emotionally irritated…
Rest day 16,
12 hour shift on Sunday (my sunday) double time. Gotta love it.
I don’t feel as groggy today, but I do feel a little aggressive or hostile. I found out my neighbor wants me to let his boy mow the lot I have next door if not my whole property because he “needs a job”
Now normally I’m all about helping out but I felt myself get angry over this. Why?
Part of me feels like I’m tired of being nice and accommodating. Part of me is tired of other people looking to me to solve their problems.
I’m probably over reacting. I just had a guy take care of mowing all last year and it worked good so why should I change everything just because.
What is the deeper issue here? I know it’s not really about this situation. I don’t have any issue with my neighbors.
I’ve been tense since yesterday. I noticed my teeth are a little sore…so I must have been clenching and grinding. I’m feeling like I want those around me to phuck off. Am I running away or trying to hide 
if so then what from.
Maybe I’m just working too much and have hardly any time to do much else. A lack of time to myself can cause stress for sure.
As @Sub.Zero describes recon, the anger you’re experiencing now might come from a profound gap between your old self and your new self. Your old self would’ve loved to help. Your new self wants to put up a boundary and say no, because your mower is already doing so well. So part of you is saying “no!” and the other part of you is saying “well, maybe!”
If you were 100% this new person, or 100% the old person, the problem wouldn’t upset you. You would just do what you always do - always self-sacrifice, or always set up a boundary, and never give it a second thought.
But now it sounds like you’re in a situation where you know what to do, and you know that it’s the right thing to do, but you haven’t exactly figured out how to do it. The subconscious mind is telling you to execute based on beliefs it has, but those beliefs are new, it hasn’t practiced ACTING on those beliefs. The subconscious mind is AHEAD of the conscious mind.
So you’ll need to practice being the new person you are, saying no, standing up for yourself, seeing how that feels, and then building on that experience by using it as a memory that reminds you setting boundaries has positive effects in other areas of your life, as well.
If not, if you go back to old ways and relent, you could seriously damage the subliminal process, because you’re teaching the mind that even with these new beliefs you now hold, AKA better beliefs, the conscious action and response to those beliefs is the same as the old action/response to the old beliefs. And then all that will happen is you’ll have different beliefs about yourself, but the exact same external circumstances, and life will be only moderately better.
Wow, that’s one hell of a reply.
I read that 3 times so far. My mind kept zoning out reading that last paragraph, weird. This is very accurate I think, it made perfect sense when I read it. I’ll have to take the action.
There’s no recon in the traditional meaning of the word anymore but something I called “transgression” which is switching between your “old self” and your “new self”. If there’s a huge chasm between both we experience regression (we feel sad, even hopeless and anxious) or we experience aggression (getting angry or even violent). We just need to wait it out or if it was really severe do a washout.
Seems like that’s what’s going on the past day or so.
Been craving comfort food, motivation at work dropped by half, I don’t feel bright and chipper and my moods been flat with anxiousness and irritation. Though it’s coming from within, it’s not externally created.
Getting this, I just want everyone to step off and leave me alone, feeling a Lil overwhelmed kind of state tonight.
I have two more listening days then wash out. So I’ll just keep grinding.
If this is transgression, is it wise to continue the stack another cycle or run something else? Am I on the cusp of a breakthrough/realignment or is continuing same titles counter productive?
Thanks @Voytek
What you want to run next is totally up to you. Healing subs are most demanding and these:
are typical reactions to deep healing. If you think you need more healing just stick with your stack but be ready that those reactions may come back during the next cycle. They’re the main reason some people don’t want to run Dragon Reborn or healing subs in general. Personally, I think that’s a fair price for deep healing but if you have some important projects that may be imperiled by your “underperformance” just postpone the healing for some time by switching to something that may help you and then go back to it once again.
@Geoff Remember that what you are doing is focusing on healing right now.
Building a foundation or status may not be a focus right now for your subconscious because of the subliminals you are listening to.
If you want to build more foundation or status, I would guess that would be more possible after you’ve gone through this brave healing stack you are running.
Where are you in your currently listening schedule and what is your plan for the next 90 days?
Today is rest day 17, almost done with this cycle.
I had planned on continuing this healing stack for 2 more cycles then move to DR. But it seems like my subconscious has been yelling at me to run Ascension so I started thinking I should move to Ascension for the summer.
However the last 48 hours has got me thinking I’m digging through something deep and should stay with it. So aside from my chronic indecision, those are my only two choices right now. I see no point in adding ascension and dropping cfw since the healing would dull it alot.
I have an idea. How about do your 21 day cycle, then during the 5 day washout, re-evaluate
Depends on what your goals are also bro. I assume you want to run ascension for the alpha confidence aspect. Im noticing a crap ton of that on dragon plus it address the deep healing. Kinda kills 2 birds with one stone
That’s what I was originally thinking. The ascension direction came on hard last week after seeing just how much I lack masculinity from the shitty upbringing.
But my original goal was this healing stack for 90 days (which I’m 30 days down) then start DR.
It’s just summer and busy time at work and I’m concerned I’ll be sub par at work and moody all summer long lol.
I appreciate the reply
Rest day 17,
I’ve noticed I’m not as sore lately even though I’m working as much or more than in the past. I believe elixir has light physical healing if I remember correctly. My posture comes and goes, when I’m standing up, it’s pretty good but when sitting…it’s crap.
Not as irritated today though as I was leaving for work my neighbor tried venting about how he might lose his job and I didn’t really respond, just told I was in a rush. I also brought up the mowing thing and said I’m open to letting me try and if it wasn’t good I’d rehire the crew who did it last year.
I figure this was a good compromise, I provided opportunity for a young boy to learn the value of work but I also stated clear expectations and consequences if not done correctly. I’m good with that so far.
I did notice my tolerance is lower for people. A lot of the conversations I have seem to be purely soundboard oriented. Coworkers coming over to talk just so I’m there to listen. My neighbor walked over today and immediately brought up how him jumping his boss over work could have cost him his job. No “hey, how’s it going” or any mutual communication.
It’s getting old and I’m starting to feel a deep upset within me and an urge to lash out. I’d rather not lash out at people but handle it in a mature way. It seems my friendliness and past issues with validation seeking has created this problem. I try to add to the conversation and what I say goes unacknowledged and they just come back with more shit to say.
Going to work on learning how to engage this issue in conversations. One sided relationships, work, friend or romantic…looking at my past its mostly what I’ve gotten. Everything is one sided and it’s time to stop.
I’m wondering if any irritation you might feel about others might be a sign of reconciliation.
As of this moment, what do you plan for your listening schedule this week?
In 2 days(weds) I listen to cfw solo then I’m in washout.
I’m sure I’ve been in reconciliation the past 5 days, it’s better now than before but ascension chamber boosted me right into recon. I will not run that every week in the future.
I could just be getting upset at the realizations of how I’ve allowed myself to be all these years, aka a shit magnet, walked over ect.