I want to text her but this would be idiotic I guess
wish you best of luck seems like quote a journey
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i know she will reject me again but I want to rejected properly.
Gemini says never do this but idk
And I think women are master in these social dynamic things.
Actually my mind is clearer than yesterday.
After rejection I started give more attention to my lessons and reading books, its not actually thing I forced myself to do.
But…
But I have to say, I rushed into asking her out; it wasn’t a very natural move. I see her in class and think to myself, “I wish I could spend more time with her.” Yes, I’d like her to be my girlfriend, but even if I were looking for someone to just hang out as a friend in the class, it would still be her.
Today was a strange day but I will write tomorrow I’m tired
Good. You can move on with your life.
I went to swimming yesterday, it was my second lesson I can go to one lesson too then I will go to home but I don’t know if I can continue when I go to my hometown
About that girl, about my fitness progression about my life there are lots of things to write and reflect
I don’t want to be loser in life. I don’t want to stay below my potential I want to enjoy and live life.
Yes she rejected me but if I find opportunity I will start conversation with her like normal friends.
I don’t know man I this things are complicated, I was saying I don’t want a girl who drinks alcohol but I saw pictures she uses.
She is at the classroom she talks with her friend but I don’t know I don’t want to push anymore, am I coward because I’m doing that idk.
It’s not just I want her. She is like full of life, most of the time I feel like I’m a plant. I don’t have a proper social life. This year mostly I studied lesson and went gym and that’s it. Wanting her shoes me what I lack.
I don’t know man I don’t feel good right now. I should have been more social I should have interacted with other girls more.
Why do I feel such a strong impulse, attraction toward her. She is two row Infront of me and I just watch her her hair looks like of a princess. She looks like princess.
What you gonna do man. Sometimes I feel like I’m caged.
Like a week ago she was mentioning to me the countries she will go to holiday with her family.
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What I’m gonna do in the summer my family says come to home. But I want to stay at istanbul, I want to find internship but they say at first year it’s hard to find and probably they’re not gonna pay for me. But also I want to earn money. I don’t want to work for free.
I want to do something meaningful. I dont want to waste my time, I want to develop, improve myself
I feel depressive slightly
I couldn’t do any fucking shit, I’m a stupid very stupid. I made a very early move.
I still want her man, but I even can’t talk with her.
Fuck man what subliminals did for me so far? I’m running wanted line subliminals since the school started but nothing happened. Nothing fucking happened.
I need to go to shopping but I don’t want to