i feel so bored
My hair volume is nice, sometimes ago I was worried because it seemed that top sides of my hair was looking less, lacking but now it looks full and that’s okay for me.
The thing that when I take shower I feel that water is not “clean” I mean of course it’s not muddy it’s white but I think there are lots of harmful chemicals and toxins in water (tap) and it’s harmful for hair and skin. I’ve thought build a filter system but probably after summer I will go to university so it has no use for me, even if I did this my mother wouldn’t understand this. And despite this my hair is full, there’s no problem right now and also I started to use LotS.
And if I go to university still I can’t build a filter system because probably I will live in a dorm and there will be people beside me.
I’ve bought some physical thought that it might increase my motivation to read but nah, I feel very different like I don’t wanna do anything, I want a mental reset but still I want to do something
Pew things are feeling stagnant, I would jerk it off if I don’t go to gym and martial art class Tomorrow
Generally I don’t feel that I get results from subs and I’m using them more than 2 years. it is hard to say or more accurately complex or even before one can say do they work in the first place or have valuable effect, I don’t know it’s hard to say for me, but I want to a better lifestyle, and if it is have potential to change my life I think I will use them, but it seems that what is keep going me running them is “hope”. And actually I don’t like this situation too much.
This period of my life I will use physical subs mostly and I think with this I can see more clearly whether they work for me or not.
But apart from subliminals, I should try to understand myself more.
But I have to say that situation with the subliminals
I am in, feels myself unworthy and stupid sometimes, I question myself why it doesn’t work for me and it frustrates me. Or it pushes me into learned helplessness
I’m not sure how much knowledge has chatgpt about subliminals subconscious mind, when I talk to him and mentioned about subliminals and my lack of results he said it’s expected to see because you have(I) hyper-active subconscious mind and when I asked what is it he said you question a lot and its hard for you to accept a thing come out from outside to your brain.
it might be right I don’t know but if it’s right it means I have to question a lot and get more clear answers and understanding about mind and subliminals, this is one of the issue I have with subliminals and mind, I have very little info about this, it feels dark like blackbox, and also I feel that producers avoid to give more information about subliminals maybe they concerned some might steal theirs technology etc.
But for more accelerated results I need more information about subliminals and subconscious mind and about how things work, otherwise it’s hard for my brain to accept and excute this inputs.
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That’s huge! If what GPT said is true, then that’s a huge realisation. Explore that.
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When I saw Nero knowledge(on the forum) I searched him and watched some of his videos, I’ve thought he might be different from other LoA’ers but nah, I’ve watched but when he said leave logic behind etc I’ve dropped stupid, I cannot stand. I don’t everything is logic but these guys says bullshits, without evidences or any reasoned thought, they contradict themselves in the same video, but wait this is not important because leave logic man this is unnecessary. But then talks about spiritual science but of course without “logic”.
I’m fed up with these charlatans, and also comments are filled with praises by stupid people. He steal lines from books but say it without any reference and some idiot copy paste line and says “bars” and also he complains about some people steal his “words and titles” sentences. Hypocrite. Yeah maybe he has some points but I cannot stand this shit
it seems that Im gonna find and Loa coach “guru” who is valid, they’re bullshitting, they are basically manipulating people, telling lies, selling dreams.
They cannot reasoned their thoughts, they don’t know really what they are talking about, but this is not important because being logical and rational is evil,bad because of this you cannot manifest your desires. And of course don’t let world gaslighting you being logical.
Stupid.
Pmo… i don’t know I don’t enjoy it now, sometimes I just wanna ejaculate and I’m doing it quick, this is becomes tiring, because also I’m going gym and muay Thai classes.
The problem I had muay Thai is, at yesterday I was doing practices(no gloves) I was doing jabs double, triple etc. But when I throw it and place my other hands to my jae and when I protect my jaw with my shoulder when I throw the jab and twist the body, because of them my jaw started ache a little, I feel some tension on my jaw because of it and it irritates I hope I can solve this
i saw my ex crush oneitis just now, i dont know, i didnt feel bad too much but I was not nonchalant either…
also i was emotionally unbalanced beacuse of pmo, and during pmo out of horniness ive thought about her just for a few seconds not even imagined her face but when i was in my daily walking i saw her when she was entering her house, (our houses close) it was weird i didnt even know whether she is here or not.
i dont know i actually dont feel good about it. she didn’t even know how I felt about her, i didn’t tell her., even if i wass highschool then i knew that there was something wrong and i tried solve this problem internally i was thinking at that time it was a illusion created by nature. actually i was right but it was not only nature also i created in my mind too. i dont know ive thoıght that i got over it but seems like still i dont have 100% control, although its not that i really love or like her, when i was around her i was not that attracted to her but during pandemic i thought and dreamt about her a lot and it was hard to get over at that time but feelings faded over time,
why i felt bad or didnt stay emotionallt balanced; i think primary reason was pmo it weakens me a lot, and other reason im unsuccesful im 22 and i havent gone to university yet and nor i have a girlfriend.
actually in normal state i wouldnt even write this post. but ive just wanted to write beacuse i didnt want to write it in my offline journal. but this situation weird in the first place why i came obsessed with her i dont know, she was flirtatious girl and despite we were studying in science(?) high school and we were in conservative place compared to big cities but most highly she was alread lost her virginity at that time and she use alcohol and goes to clubs and bars as far as i know (i dont wanna call her she is like that, but i wouldnt want this this traits in a gf, and fbothered by today because of her while i was like that makes it things more complicated )but academically she is succseful than me she studied at med scholl and im still at home i will go to uni this year but still i feel that im late
also other things, yes exams are finally finished and im waiting for the results but i couldnt study things like derivative and integral in math im not gonna study engineering but it might create problem nad right now i dont wanna study math in this hot weather in summer, i might go to library but i dont wanna go, people are gonna think that im preparing for the exam again.
and im reading this book called working with the law by raymond hollwille something like that. but it goes so slow so fucking slow
in muay thai classes while i was doing roundhouse kick teacher says keep your feets flat and at the ground but this is not felt right im gonna show him some videos because what he teaches doesnt feel right its more like karate move and also he teaches karate to kids maybe because of this.
i think these are more right:
also he says dont swing dont go through when you kick but again i think this is not absolute truth and im not comfotrable with that, Isn’t the purpose of this to generate power and create an effective kick? how can it be powerful if stop at the middle when throw the kick i thing i should go all thorugh when i do shadowboxing
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what do you think
for the recent posts…
There might some mistakes about words and grammars but I don’t have energy to fix re read the posts and fix them sorry
I used LotS, Spartan apex and primal this cycle but next cycle I will use Wanted instead of LotS
i was not interested in astrology at all and i dont believe thsi kinda stuff too much but i saw a post that saintsovereign mention about it and i gave it a try and asked to chat gpt i said dont come to me with superficial nonsenses write based on ancient wisdom etc…
and we are talking right now and according to what he wrote it seems to be right. but my birth time not exact rn i dont know but gonna learn it later but we have guessings
chat gpt gives a lots fo insights when i speak to him if i had money i would buy plus, but im on tight budget rn. this limits me
but there are lots of topics to speake, love life(nonexistent), school, pmo, what is my purpose etc
end yes unfotunately pmo is still issue, i have to admit if i cant find a good sexual partner, lover i cant get rid of from pmo its so fucking tricky
Maria orsic interesting I’m not sure whether this is real or not