ive studied literatur mainly ive focused for math but i need to study for other lessons too but still i couldnt completed math yes for i couldnt complete literature, history and geograpgh but i can finish them quickly or even if i cant finish them with luck and my prior knowledges i can get a good result
i was thinikng a possible stack that got me horny includes bdlm primal or wanted black and lots or new spartan.
but im not sure wheter should i choose primal over wanted black, or lots or new spartan, i was not thinking wb as a option but when i read some reviews about my thoughts has changed. generally i wanna get big pyhsically, get shredded aesthetic look, ive lots and ive used it but i didnt see any differnce but i wanna see results beacuse it affects face too i think this doesnt apply new spartan too.
and secondly i wanna heal my sexuality and i wanna get sexual and have sex without fear and worries. so for this i was thinking primal, wanted black or bdlm yeah khan black seems like the first answer but i tried it and i wanna give new chances to new subs. and for bdlm im not concerned as my size(i think) but what i read from reviews people say it has grounding affects and heal some chakras etc.
but still i have got exam that i should study
Sex
…
I’m suffering
God or whoever the fuck is in charge in these things. Help me, I need help I feel my self beaten. I want to do my best for the last days. With this going, I’m gonna lose.
I ejaculated again I’m stupid. It drains me maybe masturbation without stimulations okay but photos etc are bad. And I I have 2 days for exam after 2days I will enter the first exam. And still I have lots of things to learn. I don’t know how I’m gonna do it.
I think I’m gonna buy primal
I got distracted a lot by lately ( for a few last days.) Sexual contents and masturbation fuck me over. I fucked up the things lately, how can I come out of from this situation in a best possible way.
Actually the answer is clear: by studying. Yeah for last 2 weeks I studied regularly but for this last days and addionts of pmo things are fucked up. But I know if I study for even 3-4 hours it might change lots of things. Yeah but it’s hard.
Also I bought primal and ran it. After the exam I’m thinking stack of Primal, LotS and Spartan apex warrior. Also I want to try bdlm but I have no place for it.
Also if I do nothing for this day and tomorrow I will feel sorry for the exam days I know this feeling
especially after the this pmo sessions i feel so vulnareble, lonely and out of balance emotionally
I feel so empty.
god help me, or fuck you
i wanna cry but I can’t.
i wanna be loved. (By a beautiful girl)
I want to be successful, I want to have a solid purpose, meaningful things to do.
even if i dont feel good or im not hopeful about my future or more correctly the future of my country, but i have to do what i have to do.
at least for my honor and pride i dont wanna get humilated by a fuckin a piece of shit exam
How are your exams?
What are you listening to with subliminals?
Are you using microloops?
Exams are finished, I’m relax now. And after the last post I shared I gave it everything I could, I tried my best, I’m tired rn and sleepless but I’m okay. I don’t wanna do analysis of exams right here the results will be announced in about one month but it was better than my last year . i just wanna relax now
Rn I don’t what to do, I’m on wash out and I’m bored. Tomorrow I’m going to go gym after a time. After washout I wanna focus on my physique.
Books, I’m unsure. There are lots of books Ive read some part of it but didn’t finish fully, but Ive read same parts lots of time. idk things are not flowing. I wait now
i hope I can see some results with LotS this time, because my I cannot say that I have great success with subliminals so far. I’m going gym and LotS gym(physique) related and I hope I’m gonna see great results still I’m waiting washout to be end. But maybe Spartan apex warrior might enhance its performance when I combine them but I have still questions in my mind how can they work great together because both of them have physical shifting scripts.
And also Ive changed my diet normally I was doing fasting, I was skipping breakfast ant eat around generally at 12-13 clock. I did this for almost year, yeah it’s good that you don’t need breakfast in the morning but I couldn’t increase my weight with fasting I’ve thought that maybe I can eat more and lose more body fat, but I couldn’t increase my weight for body fat, I don’t have any excessive body fat I was skinny guy when I started to fitness but I wanted to look shredded but I couldn’t achieve that too. I’m pretty same for a year. And without fasting I hope I will gain more weights and muscles without fat.
Also there was martial arts course near me when I talked with the instructor he said there’s only course for muay thai and the schedule is fixed, tuesday-thursday and I don’t know how can I make them work together. Because the days for gym I go are not fixed. it’s not monday-wednesday-friday generally I take 3 rest days and it changes the thing.
I don’t know, I want to learn how to defend myself. But this thing got me thinking
I want to try muay thai but it clashes with gym. For fighting course the days are fixed tuesday-thursday and when Iam lifting weights I need minimum 2days of rest to recover fully if I want to do both of them(which I do) I can only go to gym for once a week. idk. I will run LotS and apex warrior but I don’t know what can they do for me.