its been 3-4 days but still I didn’t write anything to chatgpt, I shouldn’t avoid there are lots of things and also tomorrow university selection days are starting, I need to choose which uni I will go. it’s little stressful, also still I have lots of limiting beliefs but also I know I can’t solve this just by sitting at home I need experiences and for this probably I should wait for schools openings. Mostly I’m going gym and muay Thai classes now. Also I have lots of limiting beliefs toward I haven’ had any sex yet, no relationship and I wanna solve this, I have to
when my exams are done, maybe i can add love bomb to my stack, GLM, love bomb and wanted, i remember that when i was running love bomg i was finding myself more attractive and im thinking now what would happen if i combine it with wanted.
and also im thinking what would be synergetic effects of khan and wanted, or maybe before khan i should go with primal idk. should i drop glm then? primal(khan) - wanted - love bomb? but i know that for few days even if its just for a brief moment i felt everything it goes well, effortlesly and i remember that at the sales page of khan there is something like that, if i remember correctly it was saying that khan’s privilige lies its effortlesness, sth like that.
i shouldn think about this now, i should study, it has no use for me rn
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i was trying to avoid the news about e*stein files but you can’t do this at that point obviously and God what the fuck, what the fuck they are literal fucking demons fucking sickos. And they fucking run the power. it felt me like piece of shit because although this informations we can’t do fucking anything. Fucking zionists they are not human they are fucking evils, and I remember pretty well my post got flagged and deleted because just I wrote something against zionists before. Even I can’t write that, but they do every sick thing they want, fuck this civilization. And still it’s okay, nothing fucking happened to them, and people call this conspiracy theory before fuck them too fucking idiots, and rn I’m thinking about incident which happened big earthquakes in 2023 at Türkiye people were saying that kids kidnapped, they were saying somebody kidnappes kids after earthquakes, and afaik there were field hospital built by israel-jew doctor who was organ mafia. Fucking sickos.
Fuck all of them and what they told us “be nice” be nice citizen, follow the law pay your taxes! While they are fucking the whole world. Still they are in the charge, it’s because all of this stupid people
I do understand where you are coming from. And am not saying this to be nice or explain this problem. I won’t state exactly what I believe regarding this because it might get political but for the sake of the argument I will say my opinion used to lean towards what you stated in your post. Almost all of it.
But I gave up that opinion some time ago for one reason: it doesn’t serve me. I had to wrestle with this because I thought I was becoming an immoral person by not “speaking the truth” but I don’t think this is their goal anymore. This is not the goal of any evil really. Their goal is to flaunt their evil in our faces so that we feel helpless. And when we feel helpless, we lose due feeling fear, rage and other negative emotions that will keep hurting us in the long run.
But the fact is that we can do a lot of things. Either with regard to solving the problem in the physical world by aligning with forces that protect the innocent or looking to do things so that we can protect the ones we love. But whatever we do, talking about it on a forum that has stated that it doesn’t encourage political arguments, will not be useful to our journey.
For that reason the post might get deleted. And it is not because you are talking about a particular group of people. It would be deleted if it was about any group. It wouldn’t matter if it was a truth or a lie. The matter is much beyond that. Here we focus on self-development and not political or religious debates. Which is why such posts are taken down.
I would advice to channel your energy into more producrive ways of living safely and if you still need to vent, take the conversations to places more suited for such things.
Peacw!
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I also have another view and hope my post doesnt get deleted but
I believe they are trying to build a narrative where we have this super evil unstoppable elite/zionists and it seems like no one can stop them and then they bring someone out and make it look like this guy stops them and is some sort of saviour/messiah figure
You do know there are still alot of people waiting for the messiah and having someone who the people consider the messiah would give that person alot of control
The whole world is a stage
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Exactly. There are many forces at work here and the point is to focus on what is important for our individual selves rather than be swept off in the theater they are trying to distract us with.
All of it is based on fear mongering and tactics to farm our attention. And I have stopped giving them my energy.
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fuck.
What’s up?
Good mate, just things are messy now.
Usual things
I want to say something about new titles that sales copies are too long, I couldn’t read most of them, I think this is time consuming. And also I can’t use ai for this because I don’t trust it and dont like it responses
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I back to school, I saw the girl I have some crush on, I have to say this situation affects me badly.
And at the classroom I saw her talking with a guy I don’t think she likes her, but he is the type of guy who try to seems a friend but actually has different purpose. I don’t like this type of people first, and I don’t like she talks with her, and look at me I see myself superior to him but I have almost zero conversation with her, and this conversations happened because we were sitting close by luck.
I’m confused. I’m confused about her, I’m confused about life.
And no this is not recon, this is what my life is. Oh, do you feel yourself frustrated just do some pmo and numb yourself. Feel nothing for a while but make it worse in the end.
Life is nothing like that which they told us to be. it might have some rules but I dont feel it has a moral rules as we thought.
And also about girls, if I was more stupid, more extroverted, selfish, unthoughtful and liar I bet I had more girls in my life.
But I can’t be, I’m not like that. I was going to say I’m a nice person but do I know myself really anymore.
I’m complaining that I don’t have a gf but what I’m doing to have one. Probably Im not strong in dating scene as I thought. idk. And I’m not social outgoing person so I don’t have too much opportunities.
I said I’m not strong as I thought but when I do? The biggest issue is money. And how I’m gonna earn money idk, I already feel myself tired from university. Don’t have anything to give me burning desire.
About my stack I started this stack newly, it is WB, GLM and there is a other title. But I’m thinking adding WDB to this stack and at the start I used Regeneration too but I switched this with glm.
So I don’t know really there are lots of things to do.
I was reading something about Emil m. Cioran I find myself closer his writings but obviously this is not helping me to feel good, lol but it’s good at least I’m not the only one
I don’t want to be nihilistic pessimistic, but what can I do sometimes?
I was planning to go to dancing, swimming or muay Thai before but I have no desire this times. But I have to do something.
And about subs, yeah I think they’re not really magic pills, they are work through you, so you have to do something for them to work also. And sometimes this creates problem because most of the time you go to subs because you can’t do fucking anything and you are misarable, and also life is like this, the mirror will not smile before you smile
Yeah most of the I’m pessimistic etc but if had girl and turns out she is exactly like who I want would I feel still like this. Probably not, yeah maybe I would had different problems but probably wouldn’t feel bad like this.
I dont like life I’m not happy, adventurous etc but maybe I can love life, be happy through love, but I can’t have it yet this is the problem
And also I have some problem about my health and sleep but I will write later
I’m think running new paragon instead of glm, but I have to wait support team to solve my problem about getting new upgrade, I want a good health especially nowadays I have problem with my digestive also some foods cause this, normally I was using home made yogurt but because I’m in university I have to buy it from market and it effects me not good, I’ll look some variation of it I hope I can find it easily. Also I have some problem with sleep
I’m a problematic person, I don’t harm people around me but I harm myself I think I will have endless battle with myself.
Actually I’m seeing my existince as a mistake, i shouldn’t have been born.
But what can I do for this, is this temporary feeling or will it be main theme for my life? I don’t know but I know this is not a sudden feeling.
i’m alone. is it because I’m stupid, because I’m not interesting? like most of the people Im tend to see myself as a special but probably nah I’m not that special. Maybe I’m coping maybe not, everyone has different lives and different opinions, for some world might be wonderful place or they might have wonderful lives but I have not one, maybe because of my beliefs but how i will change, is it easy, is it gonna disrupt my current life, it might make it worse
Yeah write buddy, what it changes. Write more will you be in relief, don’t know,
You should think less but I can’t.
Maybe I should look for my testerone levels, I should increase it.
Do I in recon because of WB if it’s it feels bad but should i stop running just because this. idk. worth it to the pain I feel?
Lol while writing this a girl came to me ask can she take video with for university, but I rejected. She was looking good though
I’m not lucky this times
And I’m limiting myself too much
about the girl from classroom today I was watching her more than I listened teacher.
She was looking like princess, and I was watching hep hopelessly, desperately. Unfortunately.
Does she feel something towards me? I don’t fucking now.
But it’s obvious she will not come to me out of nowhere and start conversations, even I’m not able to do this for her despite I have feelings for her. Im getting obsessive about her
I can’t fucking ignore her presence. will I feel this way until the end of university. The bad thing I will see her regularly.
I’m thinking too much, I think if i go to erasmus in the future I might have opportunities, but don’t know probably I won’t have serious relationship with a foreigner. And from what I see western girls are more liberal in sexual arena would I want for a serious relationship. I think I’m conservative when it comes to dating but why I’m like this I don’t know this too( may be upbringing or really this is who Iam and maybe because of fearing STDs.)
I cant see beauty in life or in people maybe I’m an arragont person or self interested, why I care myself so much why I care my thoughts? The world does not revolve around me.
What’s worth it? What positive results are you seeing? How has your life changed for the better?
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