i finished my training like in 50 minutes if i hadn’t done an extra movement i would have finished it earlier. i got a haircut for a few days ago and i find my self more handsome with this.
Good heart + confidence
i read some books in my break-up from the study. But i distracted from this and studied less so far.
Even if it’s I’m not gonna read. Writer(m.kaku) say with the new technologies within this century death will be cured etc. idk it create so many questions for me.
Does God(universe etc) want us to find to cure of death?
Also read some page from sapiens, i bought it like 4-5 years ago but i didn’t read too much, the part which i read was disappointing, silly claims from writer
i hate study this lessons so fuxking broking and I feel depressed when i looked them and look to the process ahead of me.
But i have to fuckin keep going on, i have no other choices fuck it i hate it, i don’t want to fail again i fuckin sickenened of this
i want to read some popular books like gun,germs,still i want to read about quantum physics and evolutionary psychology but i must to study my lessons, i read something about this subjects and after them lessons lose appealing, looks more boring and stupid
i haven’t finished my cycle but I’m gonna drop khan and replace it with limitless idc
I wasn’t going to write this but some strange shits happening with the moon, it disappear and then appear again right now
What is that
Maybe clouds,idk
i listened this, at this time with translation.
He looks so melancholic.
i saw Mike mentzers training program yesterday again, yt recommended. Maybe i could try this one. But i have some questions about it.
His program simple.
i don’t want my time to goes this subjects because they take more time than i thought
i did pmo after a time f.ck, food triggered it. I need time
I’m more close to switch my program to Mike mentzer’s. But there are some moves I should learn:
Squat and deadlifts, issue is that I have knee pain and when I tried to perform deadlift my form wasn’t good. For the knee pain I will start doing atg split squats. But I should make them in a proper form.
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Completed the workout session. It was the push day, I emphasize over statics, and negatives compared the befores, it was more intense but I should change this program, the next workout day is legs, I will try to do deadlift and squat for the new program. But before this i might give 2-3 weeks of rest like a long washout.
twice a week 20-40 minutes intense session, I will save like 3- 3.30 hours weekly
I will give some rest today I will do some light work and planning. the teacher who I follow on yt said, this exam is, complex creature(me) versus mundane exam he said when a complex being(human) try to make ordinary thing then it creates dissonance. You want to do interesting things but the exam want you from mundane ordinary things.
It is right. You have to do clichés.
I will plan my now and next months. Need some clarity. I gonna break the cycle this time, the losing cycle. I wanna to be the 1st student out of millions.
What is my advantage now: I have time, have some experience from last exams, I am smart (I think lol).
Yeah I count to this, because at my last attempts I even hadnt finished the subjects. I didn’t complete math, science, social etc and I know when I study I can solve even hardest problems etc and i know from past I have good memory for the lessons. I didn’t study any history for years but in the exam I did 7/10.
But now I have time, but I have to find balance because now I only study math-1 but there are other lessons I will increase the numbers gradually.
But outside the lessons biggest thing that it can help with my process would be solving limitations around my sexuality. It makes pressure on me even sometimes I don’t notice it. I would be happy if I solve this.
But this process my exam process is interesting road.like hero’s journey. And god help me with this one.