Furkan's Journal

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#1124

one of the most important thing for me in the gym is pushing yourself as hard as you can. even pushing further when your mind say, thats enough. gaining strength.
of course health tendons, ligaments needed.

some people say lifting is core for masculinty but i dont agree. its not enough, its because you are lifting weights you are not gonna be a man.
problem is that still you dont how to protect yourself and loved ones physically? how can a man feel like a man if he dont know how to protect himeself and family, i dont know really.

right now, i dont acces to any martial art clubs and i dont have money to buy gun and get skilled about it.
best thing i can do rn is gaining strenght at the gym.

#1125

i read some result about LotS and people seem even with very little action they have results. But it didn’t work for me despite i was taking action, going gym, rest etc. Was the problem using it as a 4th sub idk. But I’m not gonna run LotS any soon

#1126

i can feel it still i dont trust the goodness, love, wisdom and well-being of Infinity, god etc. b4 i found this place it was worse. but still it there.

my stack is: Khan, Khan Black and Love Bomb but i was thinking maybe replacing khan with RoS might create the results i desired.

this stack could ehance my overall lifestyle, qol. it could enhance my apperance, fitness, my masculinity, success etc.
because self-love, sexual transmutation and spirituality are the cores of life. this could solve many issues. yeah khan seems overall self-develoment sub(wealth,sucess,love etc), but this stack can help me to achieve this and it can open the ways for this and for future sub using. instead of running khan, if i run ros might bring the things i want or the things align with my highest good.

RoS, KB, LB.

#1127
#1128

i fasted like 15.30 hours rn, 4 hours while waked(plus 3 hours bf bed). and i broke my fast with 2 fruits and i feel so full, interesting. but also i want to take same calories. eat same amount of foods but with shorter window

#1129

things like oat, pasta make you drained. when you do fasting you automically get more sensitive about what you eat.

#1130

parents are problem

#1131

how much greater is my desire to succeed than my desire to live this life? is it bad to try to escape from this life situation? is it bad to have desire to leave this life behind? does it mean that you dont accept where youare at the life? and you should accept this and not having this desire? or you can have both? accepting and desire.
fuck it.

#1132

ezik

güüçlü

i might watch it again, maybe not

#1133

need a plan to take action, but with my current situation with life i feel kinda stucked, like my pathways are closed, i need things to do. i need purpose. there should be things that i can measure and evualte at the end of the day

#1134

mini infos from gym perf. etc
felt some pain at my elbow when im doing pressing movements i did weighted dead hang for this at the end of the session when i arrived gym i was fasting like 14.30 hours but after 1 hour i ate banana so i broke my fasting while i was training, but i think it didnt create so much difference, idk.

i had some problems with my digestion, actually i have hadnt this light problem when i strarted the doing fasting. but because of my diet, and lack of fibers i have some problems. not health problem but i wanna feel more lighet. my diet is mainly meat and fruits, i eliminated oats from my diet. meat has no fibers, fruits have fiber but not as much oats, i need some arrangements to better digestion, gut health etc. and i need regularly walking.

#1135

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#1136

i looked at my self in the mirror. i found myself pretty nice beatiful, and felt some pity to my self, this place is not what i deserved, yes accept i created this situtation unconsciously, but this is not what i want

#1137

While i was trying to give my life shape, trying to be normal, healthy somebody has them effortlessly.

My parents haven’t been at home for like a month. When they arrived they’ll make pressure to me to go university. Probably some unpleasant things will occur. And this time i don’t know what I’m gonna do I’m delaying going university like 2 years.

#1138

Present. Present. Present. Things will occur through you.

#1139

Some past thing came out of my way, and got me for a minutes, i need little recovery from this

#1140

But to my parents i don’t know what i am gonna say. İ don’t want to go because my result is not good.
But it was my third time. idk

#1141

Fasted around 17.30 hours effortlessly, it was easy surprisingly

#1142

i saw different dreams today. After woke up i like to solve the dreams, but i couldn’t the nightmare that i saw in my dream. Something trying to possess me, my mind but i woke up from this nightmare in my dream.i have some thoughts but writing it here could be speculation

#1143

These nightmares are the result of your subconscious attempting to clear the deep-seated fears related to the subliminal programming.

i found this from help section. This could be. Also i heard a woman’s voice, like she was trying to instruct me