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#484

I’m tired. And I sleep a lot, maybe kbst1 causes that much sleep idk, its annoying I have to change this I leave the bed around 9am And it makes me start the day late. I will drop St1 in the next cycle and I wil start st2. I’ll have listened to St1 3 loops in total.
And I need to run paragon I have pain. So it means I will rotate 2 subs in my next cycle. I know this against the recommendations. The cycle will EB 22th of the month and then will begin to washouts

I have back pain for a time, I’m doing exercises but still I have pain. And for a few days ago my hip joints start to pain sometimes I barely walk, Are there any exercises or videos you can recommend about this.
And I don’t this is serious but sometimes my left wrist clicking but no pain.

I have a little problem with my nose I need to call my doctor, but I can’t deal with it now. I can only take care of this in the summer.

Probably I will drop EB and run paragon instead

#485

And before a week ago I lost my control on my sexual impulses I did pmo . But I’ve been very well for 6 days, no urges, etc And I’ve been running Phoenix since this.
Maybe phoenix is helping with that idk.

#486

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#487

Yesterday I studied good , But I’ve studied very little so far today.
In the last few hours I started to feel a little worried about something, actually not worry but idk but I don’t feel good now.

I haven’t been to the gym for a few days because of my pains injuries, so I hope there will be no problem tomorrow.

#488

So what do you think now?

#489

Oh actually today I was thinking writing something here, and you came with a reply.
I’m in last day of my washout tomarrow Ill begin new cycle. My last cycle was Kbst1-Phoenix-EB

So in my next cycle I’m gonna run Phoenix tomarraw I’m not dropping it. And I will rotate 2 titles Kbst2 and paragon it will be 8 days later(bcs of 12day washout)
But I’m not sure of Kbst2 and paragon rn. There are 4 months to exam, so I should decide carefully.
I will write about this later, thank you

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#490

well okay, i wanna write somethings, right now imnot bad or good.
yesterday in the gym i trained good, but i have some issues injuries, i cant do biceps curls, but its not big problem. I will recover in 1-2 weeks, 1 month at the latest, and also I will use paragon. put like 3-4 weeks ago i had pain in my hip flexor and i could barely walk, I’ve had noise in my hip joint before but i didnt cause pain, I told this to my doctor before, but he was not very interested at the time, he said come another time.they are waste of time but rn i have no pain but still im not gonna do squats or leg press etc and also imnot gonna do cardio bcs it hurted after 3-5 minutes running, I don’t even want to walk much I don’t know if paragon can help with this. and also i have some issue with my knees little issues with elbows, again popping sound in my left wrist but not pain also i began to use wrist straps for support, and i have noise like clicking at my shoulder blades I went to the doctor for this, I had an MRI, but the doctor said there was no issue, i asked if i could working out he said if you have no pain while doing it, you can. so far i have no pain, issue about this but stil there are noises at my shoulder blades, also i did some search about this on youtube i did shoulder mobility test and i have no problem for this. but in general i should focus on my lessons i cant focus with these issues right now, I don’t have any serious problems at the moment, but they still bother me sometimes. i will add paragon to my stack i hope it helps with that. but at least i can train rn this is enough for me for now.

so im running phoenix and for a few days later ill add paragon but what will be 3rd sub, it can be
KB-ST-2 or Limitless but above all this my primary goal is to win university entrance exam which will be in approximately 4 months.(132 dayst first exam and 133days to second exam). this could be one of the most important things that will change my life. actually it is, probably nothing will change my life that much. for better life I have to achieve this on the road to self-actualization. i have to brave
so i can run kbst2 but then there wont be place for limitless.
–but if i do microcosmic orbit meditation as a replacement for kb- sexual transmutation and then i can add limitless to my stack. i have limited time.
but i dont have limitless not bought yet i dont if it helped me for my exam significantly, in last year i ran limitless executive but i didnt see any effects yeah i couldnt study much but in my studiies or in my congnitive abilities i didnt see any results and also i didnt see any desire to study. so i dont if iwould run limitless executive again or i dont if i get results from limitless and i dont have time to trying both of them i should choose one of them and stick with it. but for this option i have to do microcosmic orbit meditation first .

i have to go bed now ill write later

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fuck i feel stucked fuck it

#497

i start to lose my hope, as if this struggling will never end

#498
#499

better than today but still there are things that bothers me i wanna write here but im procrastinating, im thinking imagining what should i write here and then probably my mind thinks that i really did this and losing motivation to write, but okay its not a important thing.
first of all i need a plan, and no i have to wake up early

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#502

For a long time I always thought that subliminals doing all the work, subliminal gives power, creating,giving energy as if it is syringe. I started to understand better, as far as I understand we have all this crazy magnificent things hidden we re holding this without noticing in the dark, and subliminals through stimuli subconscious mind we are gainin this, we are just manifeseting this helping by subliminals, we are creating this, not subliminals. So it means we are all have amazing unbelievable potential, the point is to bring them light, awaken this. But still its hard to believe for me. Exactly what kind of powers do we have? Do they have limits? Are we gods or part of it?

#503

I should read less I loaded myself with informations and I’m receiving less insight i should’ve give myself more time and think. But it was non related my lesson, I should start immediately but this topic taken my lots of time