I’m trying to do dragon flag but it’s hard and my neck hurts a little.
i should find a solid abs routine in gym I do hanging raises when I do abs but I rarely do, because at my legs day there are lots of moves included with upper body movement and I don’t have bar at dorm and I can’t establish at the dorm. so probably I will do lying crunch variotions and I will not try dragon flag for a few time because I hurt myself
Yesterday I was lucky, today looks like I’m more lucky, but it’s morning lol I can’t know what will happen after. These day things in my mind happen more quickly mostly negatives but okay. It’s different. So I should be more clear and careful about my thoughts.
And exams dates are closing, i studied important lessons regulars but I almost did no work for online classes, actually there’s only one lesson concerns me which is philosophy of science, I couldn’t attend to first 2 lessons, teacher tells the lessons briefly because original text is long a bit, so for this I’m thinking working with chatgpt.
It didn’t go well, lol. There were some unlucks and I couldn’t study a lot very unproductive day.
And I don’t know why but I’m more clumsy these days. I’m dropping things. And I’m not at home so I have to clean this things and sometimes it takes a lot time. I have more important things to do and there are lots of things in my mind
I don’t understand myself there are lots of unknowns about my self, can I understand myself completely? Do I have to? Is it must, for a great life.
I think I’m avoiding from this, yeah right now I can’t take my time for this, but even in normal times I don’t delve deep into my soul, souls depths and to darkness
I’m stupid, I should sleep, but I don’t, I’m torturing myself…
Maybe a girlfriend make help me
I don’t know but I can’t study, I’m at library but I’m just sitting I couldn’t study yesterday too. There another thoughts. Anything except the lesson I’m working.
I’m daydreaming mostly sexual. I will drop khan but I’m not sure whether I should run something instead khan or not at all, I was thinking adding Emperor Black but I’m not sure
Think Emperor Executive is what you’re looking for
I’m not looking for buying a new title, I have limitless executive but I’m already running Limitless, Maybe I wouldn’t run a title for 3rd subliminal and just do GLM and Limitless
But I think I can’t study because of recon, I was not like this before
Yeah that’s fair enough. I think you’d kill it on your studies with Limitless + EE though
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What would I want right now? I would want sex with somebody I know and I like or just someone that we are clicking.
But closeness before sex, looking to each other closely, deeply like you are looking to her soul. flirtatious talks, a touch softly, light kisses first then it gets intense and lose yourself in the moment.
I mostly felt this things when I’m in recon and it occupies my mind. I seek closeness and intimacy, I want to get understood, preferably with a female I desire
I was thinking today for few times that this life may be not real, I was thinking this after a dream I had, in this dream everything felt so real, I was thinking that they are real, but you get it when you wake up.
What if this phenomena applies to life we call real too. Like you will understand when “wake up” this life is not real too.
So why we take it so serious, even if this life real it will end eventually like a dream. In the inception movie it was saying that you understand you are in a dream when you can’t remember the beginning of the event (life,dream etc), do we remember how we get into this life? I think nobody remembers that.
Why we take it so serious, at least me, well I think even we are in a dream it has consequences you have to face, that you feel and think it’s real, I think you can’t negotiate with this. You can’t jump to in front of train and feel nothing, it will give you massive pain probably, even if this life a kind of dream. You must pay bills and you must feed and take care of your children if you have, and you have to pay attention to your health.
So I’m not sure whether we should take this life serious or not, but I don’t think it has a single answer
But why, why we are in this life? If it’s dream and a game, why I have to play this game, I don’t even like it. Yeah for learning lessons you couldn’t make it in your previous lives bla bla, I don’t fucking care, I don’t want it.
If it’s real and only we got and still why we are here?.
I don’t know why but I have no desire to study these days and there are 2 days left to exam, actually there’s only monday beside this day. And i couldn’t study properly other lessons too, I think there are too much exams for university, there should be one exam for each lessons in one semester.
I need a reset.
Wanted + Primal + Love Bomb 
Or
Wanted + GLM + Love Bomb…
I will try this stacks after the exmas or maybe I could rotate them
im wondering what would be effects?
The exam was good
Ive met a guy from class, a little bit talk. he complimented on how I dress, but I think normal,
Since I’ve came to the uni, istanbul, I get compliments and looks, I’m not a super model not every girl turns their heads and look to me if there’s no tomorrow. But I think it’s good. Would I want to be more attractive? Yes.
But when you look I have no girlfriend actually I haven’t had any girlfriend and had sex. Do I want it? Yes. But do I have worries and fears and hopelessness in my deeps of my mind, psyche? Again, Yes.
So what should I do? I should eradicate my fears, questions must be answered, I should take my time and get serious about this.
For me it’s hard, my inner world is hard to solve for me. But it must be studied, do everyone study or do the work? No. but I think, to live proper life, a good fulfilled life I have to do this work. To feel normal at some areas. I’m 22.
About subs, I’m considering whether should I run wanted or not, yeah I was getting attention, But what I’m looking for is physical changing, I’m going gym and I want to see noticeable changes on my body from Wanted’s physical shifting scripts, yes one might say run LotS but I don’t want it and I couldn’t see any results from LotS. Yes, maybe I might not see that physical effect in Wanted either, but it has other things too.
And for being social I’ve thought maybe primal is better than GLM, but support said otherwise they said wanted + glm + love bomb. For better smooth social interactions etc. I’m not sure whether I should run primal over glm, but rn I cannot run them