I hung on to your long message, because throughout it all, you were reveling in how excited you were to be free.
I’ll look at people’s experiences often times, and my old routine was thinking “I could never do that”. Not because I didn’t want to. But because no matter how many times I tried, I ended up failing. —And because of that, I’ve often prejudged possibilities that I could change. Even with subliminals. I’d see others succeed in something here in the forum, but fearing another failure, I dodged the possibilities of it happening.
Feeling free inside is a gift.
I’ve been using DR Regeneration, it’s rough at times, and I reconsider my low-set standards to avoid failure and rejection. I think the hardest thing for me (as I’m seeing this lately) is to let go of old “somewhat safe” beliefs. I think that’s why I’ve felt it burn lately.
But to give myself some hope in this sharing, I messaged support half an hour ago. My goal: to heal and re-enter a world with relationships again. I’ve had walls up around my heart for decades, and I know these connection needs overshadow every other need or want.
I thought of your post since you and your friend were feeling young and free, and this morning I’ve felt slight pieces of it myself. It’s the part of us which says “why should I worry? I don’t want to, so I’m not gonna!”
That’s learning to be young again. THIS is a gift. Thank you for your heartfelt post.
