Also remember with v2 coming out, you may want to reduce the loops even more, as in to every other day. You may need to experiment a bit.
As for the video games, I wonder if this is a sign you might be feeling burnt out or overwhelmed. There are always rest days.
I have already reduced to a minimum (1 loop each) the use of subs, as regards to Qv2 if I see that it starts to get me tired or else I will try to listen to it every other day.
I usually take two days off a week.
This video game thing might be momentary, let’s see. Because in the previous stages of QL I had started to see video games as a waste of time and in their place I studied, now the situation has reversed. QL ST4 is putting a strain on me or maybe it’s my stack in general and particularly Emperor now that the Qv2 format is out.
I was thinking: It can be a good Idea listen again to QL ST1 before QL ST4?
What would you hope listening to QL st1 would give you?
Is st1 of QL in st4 of QL?
ST1 is in ST4 from what I know. My idea was to reinforce the healing part.
How about trying it and noticing what happens?
Yes I’ll try and post the results.
QL ST4 - Day 6
Dragon Reborn ST3 - Day 1
Emperor - Day 11
A few things to note:
despite the first 7 days of PMO my sex drive is very low. It was usually at its highest levels after 7 days or more.
an inner voice begins to grow in me that tells me that I’m not making myself respected enough, that people put their feet on my head sometimes.
Sometimes I play the clown, joking to make people laugh, but I don’t know why but I feel that my way of doing things makes me lack respect for others. In practice, “I’m too nice”. And that gets me into trouble with girls who most of the time see me as too nice and almost as a friend (or to put it better, as someone non-sexual and therefore unattractive or at least this is my idea).
the motivation for studying is still quite low.
From tomorrow I will try to use QL ST1 before listening to ST4 to see if it helps.
I’m also trying to adjust my sleep routine, because I wake up tired every morning.
My goal for tomorrow morning is to get out of bed as soon as my mind wakes up, because I’ve gotten used to staying asleep even after my mind wakes up from sleep and I think that’s a reason for the morning fatigue. I sleep a sufficient number of hours, so the fatigue is not due to little sleep but perhaps too much.
I sometimes think…why does this happen.?
Some theories are that we need to be good and nice to people. Every action causes a reaction. A sign of dominance is that no matter the external world you remain unshakable. You be good to people and let them be otherwise.
Just my opinion
It’s clear from your descriptions that your system is currently busy processing.
Pull back a bit on the hyper-detailed results tracking. Natural growth processes follow a wave pattern. Ups and downs are normal, healthy parts of the overall movement. If you follow them too closely or obsessively, then the natural fluctuations may seem like disheartening losses of progress.
(Maybe you’re already aware of that, just mentioning it in case.)
Perhaps the best thing is to create a balance. Not too good and nice but not too bad either.
Yes you are right, ups and down are part of the process.
I like to write down the things that pass my mind so one day when I look back I can say “oh! I was that way, I growed up, changed”.
If I feel some sense of obsession in this I will be careful. Thanks for telling me.
I’m going to mention something that might be overlooked. I say this without judgment and without criticism, if you are doing PMO then how much of your experience right now might be from that?
Interesting observation. The only thing I can say is that since only one week has passed since the start of the PMO, if he has given any contribution it is definitely worth reviewing in these last 7 days.
Right now I can’t say exactly if there is any benefit or variation. The only thing I’ve noticed is the decrease in libido (can be Emperor too?).
From PMO in the future, some things I might expect are:
Summed with the power of subs it can bring great results.
edit:
A really interesting thing I am noticing is that my desire to create social connections is increasing, I think it is the work of the inner circle module which is contained in Emperor if I am not mistaken.
QL ST4 - Day 7
Dragon Reborn ST3 - Day 2
Emperor - Day 12
Wow! Qv2 hits hard. With only one loop I felt it now.
A few notes:
I think that’s all for now.
QL ST4 - Day 9
Dragon Reborn ST3 - Day 4
Emperor - Day 13
I have achieved a fascinating state of mental clarity today. Inside of me I feel calm and my thoughts are so fluid and they present me the solution of many things. I feel that feeling of slowed down time, I believe it comes from the mental clarity and ideas that my mind is presenting to me. It’s like being immersed in invisible water, where your movements are slow, where gravity is halved but your perception is norma speed. I think I understand how the Flash felt now. 
I found myself thinking very deep thoughts about the mechanics of life and what luck and chance were.
In general, everything seems clearer.
It would be nice to always feel like this, unperturbed and have that feeling of knowing everything, or rather of knowing what I need or where to find it.
Today I used headphones in ear instead of the usual on ear. I wonder if those are the ones that give me the best effect. I will experiment.
QL ST4 - 2nd Rest Day (9 days done)
Dragon Reborn ST3 - 2nd Rest Day (4 days done)
Emperor - 2nd Rest Day (13 days done)
I don’t know if it’s Emperor or anything else but today I had a tantrum. Now that I am calm I feel only a subtle irritation.
The outbreak of anger led me to question many of the things I do and don’t have, including my studies and the lack of a woman in my life.
But yesterday I got on well with a girl from my group that strangely I didn’t get along with before. I want to be honest, looking at her I wanted her, I tried to act in some way by interacting with her but I am a highly indirect person, I don’t know how to behave when a woman is involved (or maybe I’m just afraid), so I don’t I could tell how the interaction went, but she seems took it well. I don’t know.
Also yesterday a new girl who had been with us for a while seemed intrigued by me and she stared at me while she smoked a cigarette. I looked back, I felt quite pressured yet my gaze remained strong onto her and so did my body language.
Even here I was not sure what to do. First idea? Introducing me. Then I didn’t do it I felt one of my blocks that stopped me from doing it.
I’m afraid that Emperor is making me despise or maybe just question what I study and the university, and making me move away from it.
edit:
Another note I wanted to make was that now I have improved and I have reached a point that I can talk to anyone I want, even with girls I have no big problems. I understand now that with women my real problem is when it comes to being sexual. As long as I talk to them I am usually more or less comfortable. In short, I think I have problems with my sexuality.
I feel the time has come to use PS and to take action with women. From the other day I realized that I have to make improvements regarding the acceptance of my sexuality and I believe that PS + DR ST3 can help me a lot. I also miss the executive part with women, the so-called outer game. I feel that between DR and Emperor I have achieved a lot of inner improvements in my self-esteem, past traumas and relating to people and I believe that now is the time to delve into my biggest trauma: my sexuality.
I read your above 2 posts and they seem like important milestones for you.
I would encourage you to keep on with DR. I think once any trauma about your sexuality is healed, I imagine relating to women will be much easier.
I will continue with DR that’s for sure, it’s helping me a lot, but my intuition, something inside me tells me that I can switch to PS and I will listen to it along with DR and QL. Yesterday I did the first PS loop and it felt good. I also wanted to take advantage of the sexual healing in PS.
How about trying it and noticing what happens?