I prefer for now to stick on Emperor. If it can motivate me more to to my own things, including studing university material, I would prefer it.
After a couple of month when DR will have done more of its job I will start using PS too. 
QLQ ST3 - Rest Day 1 (Days of listening 30)
Dragon Reborn ST2 - Rest Day 1 (Days of listening 25)
EmperorQ - Rest Day 1 (Days of listening 5)
An event today managed to break me in a way that I wasn’t expecting.
There is this girl that interests me, She just got out of a relationship and today I saw her flirting with another guy. Its made me a little sad.
Her female friend was also present today, I also find her attractive. They were both dressed up and with make up and I was wondering: why? Since I always see them dressed normally in my presence.
The answer was simple: it was for boys.
The thing that discomforts me most in all of this is that girls never behave like that for me. It almost seems they don’t see me as a sexual target. It makes me feel different or wrong.
I am aware that it is partly my fault, because as far as the opposite sex and my sexuality are concerned, I have absurd blocks, I act little and feel no impulse to try. I do not know why. It seems that an invisible force blocks me and does not allow me to act. This inhibits my every attempt to create a sexual approach with a woman, and so I always go unnoticed on their biological radar.
I can say that women are my Achilles heel.
There was a time, several years ago, where things seemed to be going better, but now is total zero.
Another small thing that I noticed that could be the cause of DR is the appearance of very short flash backs, preceded by a different emotion each time, of past moments of my childhood. Sometimes these flash backs are positive and sometimes negative.
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I have read your post. I understand what you are saying. TBH I have felt those things too.
After listening to DR now for as long as I have, I’m starting to notice those negative feelings that I’ve had that are similar to yours are fading. As in I woke up one day and noticed they seemed to be somewhat gone.
Whatever your plan for DR is, I would encourage you to consider staying with it because it seems to be working.
PS I think your awareness of social situations may have increased.
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Yes Absolutely, I want to finish DR till the end.
Did you finish it? And in which stage you started to feel negative emotions like mines to fade away?
Intetesting. What make you notice it?
I did get to stage 4 and have been running stage 4 for about 2 months or so.
Stage 4. However it might happen sooner for you.
I think the most obvious one was this.
It showed you were able to see things from their perspective. I realize you were doing this before. What is notable to me about this is that you were able to think beyond just your desires about women and see things from their perspective. You were able to put your sad feelings aside and analyze. I think those are important aspects of understanding social situations.
Good job mate!
Now keep clearing out that garbage inside and start preparing for PS, and maybe start planning on another subliminal.
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Don’t PMO and they will flock to you like a pack of seagulls. Retain your sexual energy. Attraction will just be the icing on the cake, compared to other benefits you will feel. Try it for a month and you’ll never go back.
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Sounds like a great idea to me. I’ll try it out and write down the results. thank you.
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this is only an opinion.
But, to me, right now, this kind of thing only matters if it doesn’t matter at all.
It’s like a party. If you’re working really hard to have fun at a party, then it’s probably not worth your time to be there. Because it’s not really fun. (It’s work.)
I don’t see it as a ‘fault’ kind of situation. Is it related to who you are? Yes. Is it your ‘fault’? No. It’s not your ‘fault’ because you haven’t done anything wrong. So there is no ‘fault’.
Instead, I’d say you’re feeling desire. An unmet desire becomes desperation (if we subjectively perceive it as ‘unmeetable’).
These words might not be helpful. I don’t know. Reasoning with a desire is a particularly unreasonable way of trying to deal with it. 
Still, my .02 cents: Focus on being awesome. On enjoying yourself. On taking reasonable risks and pushing your own personal envelope. Not for impressing a girl, but for the sake of your own quality.
I guarantee that if you follow those steps, and then wash, rinse, and repeat in order to create your own awesome lifestyle, you will not only 1) meet great girls, but 2) they’ll be much cooler than the girls you’d have met by most other means.
Women, ultimately, are just women-shaped people. Make no mistake: those shapes are freaking amazing.
But they’re still just shapes of people.
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I understand what you are trying to tell me. First thing, thanks for support.
In fact, the person who attracts more people is the one who enjoys himself and life, without paradoxically thinking about attracting others.
I will try with each passing day to give my best to improve, and PMO seems like a good strategy for a good start too.
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QLQ ST4 - Day 3
Dragon Reborn ST2 - Day 28
EmperorQ - Day 8
Since I started QL ST4 it seems that my brain does not give me peace in making excuses why my mental abilities are not enough:
- “you can’t remember mathematical proofs”
- “Why did you make that move in chess? Can’t you get a complete view of the board to better understand how to move? Are you stupid?”
- etc…
For two or three days I have generally felt a little insecure among people. I think I feel some past uncertainty about myself, especially because we are in the change of season and I have associated certain emotions with spring.
In the past I was a very anxious child and there were times when the anxiety was such that it was also difficult to breathe or think clearly. The point is that those memories spring up in me through emotions during some particular moments of the year they have been associated with (or is it also the work of DR?).
I have noticed that the desire for women has increased in a healthier way. I can notice and appreciate their femininity more. But I feel insecure in their presence. Some of these insecurities I feel are:
- will I be enough for her?
- she likes that sort of bad boy.
- I really don’t know what to say or do to talk to her, seduce her or whatever.
- I don’t feel anything for her right now or I don’t care (this point is important! I read that it is an unconscious self-defense mechanism to protect myself by using emotional indifference. The fact is that when I am alone at home I say to myself "fuck! I did care! ". Paradoxical).
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I can relate to what you posted because I had similar thoughts going through my head when I listened to DR st4. They were all fake ideas and insecurities.
I had one day where I thought I was stupid. Thinking that was just stupid because I have a number of things to point to so as to prove I’m smart. So it passed. It will pass for you.
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QLQ ST4 - Day 4
Dragon Reborn ST2 - Day 29
EmperorQ - Day 9
My motivation for studying is gone. I’ve been playing video games for two days. I feel fed up inside.
Today I looked at myself in the mirror after having cut my beard and looking at myself I saw the face of that child I was in the past and how much I do not appreciate the features of my face that looked different after the cut.
I’m starting to look at women differently. I said with more desire in a previous post, but it seems to me now to look at them with desperation and I think almost like a simp.
My insecurities have increased. I feel uncomfortable every now and then during the day.
All the things written so far I know that they have one thing in common, they are all connected in some way to the past. Every emotion and insecurity, even the sensation on the skin of the spring takes me back in time and brings out all my past dormant insecurities.
Is there a possibility that Emperor is creating conflicts with other subs?
It’s riconciliation?
This very much sounds like dragon reborns work. Ive had this experience too on ST2. Trust me though when i say that this will pass. From the study motivation to the insecurities. The fact that you feel them right now is a sign that theres healing being done in those directions. This might be the last time youll feel these insecurites and demotivation, so enjoy it while it lasts, after this they could very well be gone forever 
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This is the first time I am alternating for the first 4 days with:
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QL ST 4 - 2 loops
DR ST 2 - 2 loops
Emperor - 1 loop -
QL ST 4 - 2 loops
Emperor - 2 loop
DR ST 2 - 1 loops
And the day 5 I do:
QL ST 4 - 2 loops
DR ST 2 - 2 loops
Emperor - 2 loop
Before, for all 5 days I was doing :
QL ST 4 - 2 loops
DR ST 2 - 1 loops
Emperor - 1 loop
Thank you for such a fast reply.
I did read your posts for the past few days.
I’m going to ask you to think about 1 loop of each 5 days a week. Also remember with the Qv2 you may want to start with 1 loop 2 or 3 times a week with each program.
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Perfect. I lower down the loops then. Thank you!
I’m hoping you notice a reduction in reconciliation.
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I’ll make a note of it and post it here. Thanks again.
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QL ST4 - Day 5
Dragon Reborn ST2 - Day 30
Emperor - Day 10
Today I reduced the number of loops to 1 for each sub, as @RVconsultant advised me.
Let’s see now what happens.
From tomorrow I start DR ST3.
One thing I’ve noticed about the QL ST4 instead is that just one loop tires me and makes me feel sleepy. I suppose containing all the previous stages is heavy enough to digest.
Note from the other day: I talked to a few girls I didn’t know, I felt more sociable than usual and at the end of the chat I asked for their insta profiles. only one replied to my follow request.
As for the motivation for studying, it dropped dramatically, with almost no desire to do anything. I’ll try to study something anyway and let’s see if it takes my hand.
Edit:
I played a lot videogames those two days and not studied, now I feel bad.